Sunday, February 6, 2011

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 1

The November sun setting behind the Jersey Palisades flashed a feeble ray off a West Village window and its wavering reflection stalked the Christopher Street pier to a lone youth tuning a battered guitar. The blonde twenty year-old appeared unaware of the approaching glow, then he broke into a smile shy of surprise, as the sapphire shimmer transformed the leather boy into a fallen angel regaining his halo.

Nearly every parent in America would have ordered their children to avoid this aberration of the Bicentennial Spirit. His skin pallor rivaled the paleness of the rising moon and no suburban mall stocked his black leather jacket, torn t-shirt, or heavy engineer boots. Most teenagers would have obeyed their mothers and fathers, but not all of them and the guitarist disintegrated the heavenly mirage with a windmill slash of his fingers against the steel strings of his Les Paul. The chords sizzled in his ears and Johnny Darling shut his eyes to envision a small stage.

Overhead lighting enveloped a drummer, bassist, and keyboard player whose music meshed the Kingsmen with the MC5. A teenage Lolita rasped words of love and no tomorrows in imitation of the Velvet Underground’s Nico. The imagined feedback of Marshall Amps buzzed in his ears and the audience might have materialized within his eyelids, if a young boy’s voice hadn’t shattered Johnny’s trance.

“Hey, man.”

This time of night only gay bashers and leather freaks frequented the derelict docks and the guitarist waited for the last coda to disappear beneath the subsonic range before turning to address the intruder.

The Puerto Rican teenager in a distressed leather jacket was two inches shorter than Johnny and his slanted eyes hinted the taint of Chinese blood. Some Times Square johns found Frankie Domingo pretty, despite the multitude of scars crisscrossing his seventeen year-old body. Most of those wounds hadn’t not come from fights.

“Thanks for at least letting me finish?” Johnny was annoyed by the interruption.

“I been waiting thirty minutes.” A gust off the river blew a shank of greased hair across his eyes. “That a new song?”

“Just three chords strung together.” Johnny rubbed his calloused fingertips. The mirrored incandescence was wading into the river.

“Doesn’t get more basic than that.” Frankie rattled off a drum roll with frayed sticks. “Got these from Jerry Nolan at Max’s Kansas City last night.”

“How were the Heartbreakers?” Johnny had skipped the last night’s show for a date with a customer. Business sometimes had to come before pleasure.

“Great and the crowd loved them.” Frankie shivered with hunched shoulders.

“I saw them get paid $100 each. When we gonna have a band?”

“Now I got my guitar back, we can audition for the other members.” “Great.” Frankie stepped from side to side to relieve the damp seeping through his sneakers’ paper-thin soles and then stammered, “Johnny, you got ten dollars?”

“The pawnshop took my last fifty.” Johnny slapped his guitar. It had been out of his hands for two weeks.

“Damn, I wish we could get out of here.” Frankie moaned like a runaway in need of a dime to phone Mom for a bus ticket home.

“And go where?”

“What about Florida?” Frankie glanced south, as if the Sunshine State lay beyond the New Jersey docks. “It got beaches and sunshine and palm trees. How far away is it? Five hours?”

“More like twenty–four if you drive straight.”

“What about by plane?” The young Puerto Rican’s teeth chattered at a 10/10 beat.

“Where we getting the money for two plane tickets?” Johnny was down to his last$5.

“We could hijack a plane. Tell them to give us a million dollars like in DOG DAY AFTERNOON?” Frankie had seen that movie five times on 42nd Street and pumped his fist in the air. “Attica, Attica.”

“Aren’t you forgetting how the cops shoot Pacino’s friend in the head?”

“Movies aren’t real.” Frankie had seen enough of films on 42nd Street.

“DOG DAY AFTERNOON is based on a real bank robbery.”

“It was?” The drummer shook in his boots.

“Yeah, it didn’t have a happy ending either.” The guitarist grabbed the young boy’s arm, which was almost as thin as his own.

“Your parents live in Florida.” That was a fairy tale ‘happy ever’ after to him.

”So what?” Johnny’s mother and father were Frankie’s answer to everything.

”If you called them, then they could wire you money to come home?” Frankie lifted his eyebrows in hope of hearing Johnny say ‘yes’.

“Yes, they would wire the money and tomorrow night we’d be eating my Mom’s home-made apple pie .” Teasing the young boy with this dream of warm weather and a full belly was cruel, but Johnny couldn’t help himself.

“I love apple pie.” Frankie actually licked his lips.

“Only one problem.” Johnny gestured toward Manhattan to reel the young drummer back to reality.

“Don’t say what I think you’re going to say.”

“I’m not leaving this behind.” The lyrics of the Drifters ON BROADWAY floated in his ears. He could make it here.

“Fuck this city?” Frankie spun on his heels and chucked the battered drumsticks into the river. “All I got here are hustles, an empty stomach and the smell of old man’s hands on my skin, and you don’t have it much better.”

“That’s true.” Johnny slipped the guitar into its case and walked toward the elevated highway. ”But I ran away from Florida for the same reason you want to run away from New York.”

“I hope this isn’t an intro to the gypsy lady story.”

“Why not? It’s true. The first day I arrived here, a gypsy lady in the Village read my palm for free. She liked my eyes and said my name was destined to be up in lights and I’m going to make it here. It was her who gave me the name Johnny Darling.” Johnny stopped on the curb of West Street. “Me and you are going to make it here as rock stars.”

“But not tonight.” Frankie kicked an empty beer can into the gutter.

“No, not tonight.” Johnny couldn’t lie to Frankie. “What were you doing the night I met you?”

“I was at the hot dog stand across the bus terminal talking to these guys from Jersey.”

“Two chicken hawks wanting to rape you was none of my business.” Minding your own business was a rule of fist in New York.

“And you’ve never explained why you helped me.” Frankie blew on his hands, warming the tips.

“Yeah, and I’m not going to now, but since that day you and me have been a team and that’s most than what most people got in this city. Tomorrow Max’s will put on a turkey dinner for us orphans and we’ll be okay tomorrow, right?”

“And what about tonight.” Frankie could handle anything as long as he was with Johnny.

“Tonight it’s time to go to work.” The uptown light on West Street was changing to green. Cars were accelerating to catch up with the synchronization of the signals. .

“53rd and 3rd?” Frankie had had his fill of the sissies at those piano bars.

“We’re not competing with the midnight cowboys tonight.” Across the street the bars were filling with men in search of nameless sex. A few lurked between the trucks underneath the elevated highway. It was no mystery how they were celebrating the night before Thanksgiving.

“Times Square then?” Frankie sighed with resignation.

“Times Square is about luck.”

“Luck being when head I win, tails you lose and never give a sucker a break.”

“You’re learning fast.” Not all of Johnny’s lessons were good advice for a young boy.

“I try.” Frankie regarded the snow-skinned guitarist with a surprisingly risky innocence for a veteran of the streets.

“How I look?”Johnny slung the case’s strap over his shoulder and pulled up the collar of his torn leather jacket.

“Like a prince.” Frankie stuck his hands in his leather jacket. It was getting colder.

“Where anyone from Jerome Avenue meet a prince?” Johnny was two inches taller, ten pounds lighter, blonde and white. Johns cruised him and ignored Frankie, unless they were after young meat.

“My grandmother read me fairy tales.” The old lady had only read Frankie the ones with happy endings asked, “They really have princes and princesses?”

“Real as you and me, except they were born in a palace, instead of a dumpy apartment.” The chilled air scrapped over Johnny’s right lung like a boat striking a reef. He spat out an unpleasant taste and touched his chest wishing his fingers could probe beneath his ribs.

“You meet one?” Frankie was oblivious to his friend’s discomfort.

“Not this side of the silver screen.” Johnny fought off the shakes, figuring his ‘jones’ was knocking on the door. “Princes and princesses are like any suckers. We meet one and what we do?”

“We take them for everything.” Frankie snapped his fingers.

“And leave them begging for more.” The ache faded from Johnny’s chest and he draped his arm over the younger boy. Family might more suitably define their relationship, except they were more comfortable with never saying what they were to each other. “Just one more thing.”

“I know what you’re going to say.” Their conversation were scripted rituals on these occasion.

“You’re going to tell me not to trust anyone.”

“Trust no one is survival rule # 1 in New York.” Times Square killed people who broke that rule and he turned to Frankie. “And that means me too.”

“I’m a big boy.” Frankie accepted the warning with stubborn resignation, for his childhood had revealed the worst of what the New York had to offer the young.

“Then let’s head to Times Square.” Johnny dashed across West Street between two taxis. Both vehicles swerved to avoid hitting him and he arrived on the other side without a scratch.

“I’m going to live forever,” Johnny told himself, for believing in anything other than his immortality would have been a sacrilege, at least until he reached twenty-one and that birthday was more than a year away and a year was an eternity when you were only twenty.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 2



The clouded horizon buried the autumn sun and a moonless darkness soon smothered the Connecticut Hills with a wolfish gloom challenged only by the funnel of holiday traffic on the Interstate. Few travelers noticed the rundown motel hidden in the woods off exit 74. Its neon sign had been out of order since the summer.

A red GTO with Maine plates was parked before Room # 21.

Behind the locked door a shifting kaleidoscope of TV reds, greens, and blue cascaded over the queen-sized bed, on which a young man and a teenage girl watched THE BIONIC WOMAN with opposing levels of interest and when he tossed the empty beer can into the corner and the skinny brunette in the red dress asked, "When we leaving?"

"After I’m done my beers." Mike Valle was getting his money's worth out of this stay and the tattooed mechanic lifted a beer can from the cooler. “You want one?”

“One's my limit.” Tammi West grabbed a cigarette from the pack on the night table.

“All the more for me.” Mike popped the top, fantasizing about a night with Lindsey Wagner. The female lead of the TV show was almost as pretty as Farah Fawcett, who was THE BIONIC MAN’s real-life wife. The girl on the bed couldn't compete with either star and he took a closer look at her out of the corner of his eyes.

Tammy's shoulder-length hair was a non-specific brown unlike the blonde goddess in THE BIONIC MAN. Her tomboy body would never graced the centerfold of Playboy. None of this mattered for her sordid reputation in their hometown transformed her into a goddess.

The teenager watched Mike drink his beer. They had been in this room for over an hour. He was moving slower than thawed mud and his thickening tongue slurred every other word. Semi-trailers’ diesel engines throttling on the highway sang a song of ‘let’s go’, but the rising scree of empties signaled this room was their destination for the night, unless Tammi got him moving and she sat up in the bed.

"You said we were driving straight to New York."

"What’s the rush?” New York City was a hellhole filled with Jews, niggers, spics, queers, and weirdos. He wasn't scared of any of them. The .38 under his seat was made for target practice in that town.

"The more miles between me and Maine the better." Smoking was a new habit and she coughed, as the tobacco rasped into her lungs.

"You afraid of the cops?" Mike slipped a hand up Tammi's dress. He had no trouble getting his fingers under her bra and he was disappointed to discover that her breasts were mostly bra.

“You crossed three state lines with a sixteen year-old girl. Somewhere in this country that’s against the law.” She squirmed out of his grasp hoping the danger of transporting a minor might register in his brain.

“Being an outlaw don’t scare me.” None of his fellow workers at the Kittery Navy had ever accused him of being a deep thinker and he bragged, “I've been to reform school for breaking and entering. Robbing summer cottages's an easy way to get liquor in the winter.”

“I’m not looking to break any laws.” Her face didn’t match the one on the driver’s license which she had stolen from her stepsister, so any stop by the police was a direct ride back to Kittery, Maine.

"Wild thing, no one’s looking to break any laws.” The re-run of THE BIONIC MAN paused for a commercial break and Mike hooked a finger into her hair. He lowered his face to the straight strand. The smell of Breck shampoo and cigarettes was a turn-on and he whispered, “We're a team. Anyone ever say you’re a dead ringer for Faye Dunaway?"

"All the time." She fought to keep from laughing out loud, since the Hollywood actress dated movie stars and she was an underage runaway stuck with a loser.

“That’s us. Bonnie and Clyde on the run.” Mike undid the zipper of his jeans. His reward for driving halfway to New York was going to be more than light petting. "I saw that movie three times. I really liked the scene of them in bed."

"I like the getaway scenes better.” Tammi squirmed away to the edge of the mattress, but he hauled her closer to him.

"I think the hotel scene came first." His left hand flicked open her bra strap. "Bonnie didn't give Clyde a struggle."

"He couldn't get it up either." She let him fondle her breasts. He was in no mood for a refusal. "You know I could drive your car, while you drink those beers."

"No teenybopper’s drivin’ my Goat." Mike had paid cash for the muscle car after a winter of double-shifts at the Navy Yard. Cruising around Portsmouth and Kittery was fun. The highway was less so, since the gas gauge hit EMPTY fast at any speed over 60.

"I learned to shift gears from my older sister. She has her license." Tammi had driven her stepmother's banged-up Cutlass, while the old lady was asleep. A neighbor had snitched her out and her stepmother had tanned Tammi's backside with a belt. No one back home trusted her and she couldn’t blame them.

"You learn anything else?" The pipefitter toyed with her nipples.

“Yeah, never take a ride with a stranger.” Maybe it was better Mike didn’t drive drunk.

“That’s real funny, because we’re not strangers.” He roughly pulled up her dress.

“I never met you before.” Kittery wasn't a big town.

“That's right, but I know you. Everyone in town does.” His right hand mauled her thigh.

“What you hear?" Tammi stiffened with shame.

“Some stories about this and that." Mike yanked down his pants without getting them farther than mid-thigh. His underwear remained around his waist. He had been wearing them two days.

"They're not true."

"Maybe not, but this afternoon I saw you walking on Tenney Hill Road in that red dress, black leather jacket, and high heel shoes. I told myself, "That's Tammi West." I stopped and asked where you were going and you said, “New York or the highway.”

“I don’t remember saying anything about a hotel room in the boondocks.”

“This was a pit stop for beer and something else.” Her body wasn't that of Farah Fawcett, but if he shut off the TV, he wouldn't know the difference in the dark. “You know what I mean?”

“Men only want one thing from a girl.” Tammi prayed this would be quick. It usually was with drunks.

“Same thing you gave up to the football team after the Saco High game.” Mike tugged off Tammi's bra.

“That story is a lie.” She pushed him away with a strength born from a long-held anger. “I went to the Fort McClury with the quarterback, Brad. His friends showed up. I’m lucky a police cruiser entered the parking lot. The football players drove off. I walked home. Nothing happened.“

"Really, well, I heard you did them all. Same thing last summer at that rich kid's party in York. That a lie too?” Mike fondled Tammi’s breasts. People had seen her on the bed in the big beach cottage. Someone counted the boys. The number was more than ten. “You make friendly like that and we’ll be leaving soon."

“So you want to meet that girl?” Tammi couldn’t deny the truth, but no one listened to her side of the story, which was one more reason she was running away from that town and once she got rid of Mike, she never would have to hear this story again.

“Yes, I do.” Mike crudely rolled her nipple between his thumb and index finger.

“We do it, you think you can get back in the car and drive like the devil to New York?” She reached down his jeans. He wasn't even hard.

“You put it that way and I’m Satan’s chauffeur.” Mike wrestled off his jeans and shoved apart her legs.

"Then I'm your slut." Tammi shut her eyes expecting a rough entry, except the pipefitter passed out atop her chest. She tapped his face lightly twice and once hard before slipping out from under him to whisper, “Sorry Clyde, but Bonnie’s moving on to better things.”

Cars were on the highway. Half of them were New York-bound. Neither the police nor her stepmother could find her in that city and come the summer a Greyhound bus would take her to California, Florida, or New Orleans, where Tammi West could disappear forever.

The teenager stole into the bathroom and gently shut the door. She slipped back on her bra and panties, then pulled down the hem of stepsister’s red dress. Standing At least Mike hadn't ripped anything.

Standing before the mirror Tammi wrapped an elastic band around her hair to make a ponytail. A quick smear of lipstick and rouge added a couple of years to her face, not that many driver cared about the age of a teenage hitchhiker. She crept into the bedroom and grabbed her black leather jacket from the floor. It had belonged to her father.

After picking up her high heels, the young girt rifled $80 from Mike’s wallet, then tiptoed to the front door. The click of the lock was loud.

"Where you goin’?" The pipefitter demanded through a firefight of blinks. "Out for some air." Tammi yanked at the door.

Not fast enough, for Mike leapt out of the bed to seized her wrists and shake the frail teenager like a ragdoll.

“I didn’t blow off my mom’s turkey for you to split on me."

“I’m not splitting.” Tammi had never been good at playing the innocent.

“Then why was your hand in my pants?” Mike kicked his jeans against the wall.

“I was looking for cigarettes.”

“Bullshit. The cigarettes are on the night table.” Mike's fingernails painfully pierced her skin. “You're little thieving whore, that’s what you are.”

“No, I’m not.” She tried to twist free, but Mike wasn't that drunk. “Let me go.”

“Not until you give me back what you took.” The naked pipefitter slapped Tammi’s face.

The back of her head slammed against the wall and her knees buckled for a second, but her step-mother had hit her harder and the teenager shook off the stars swimming in her eyes. Tammi West was no man’s punching bag and she swung her shoes with all her might.

The points of the high heels cracked into Mike's skull and his eyes fluttered like a slot machine twirling round and round to skip cherries. A second shot dropped him onto the floor on his knees.

"You bitch. I'm gonna teach you." Mike fell on his side. The fight had been knocked out of him for the moment.

"You're not teaching me nothing." Tammi had learned his kind of lesson from too many other people and she darted out of the room straight across the parking lot into the woods. The underbrush snatched at her legs and she lost her footing in the cold damp grass. Thrown off balance the teenager skidded down the embankment to the Interstate, losing a shoe in the tumble.

Scrambling to her feet Tammi was overwhelmed by the deluge of the oncoming headlights. Her stepmother had cut out scores of newspaper articles about runaway girls mutilated by highway weirdos. The local police had conducted yearly seminars warning the girls in her high school the dangers of hitchhiking. She had no choice.

A supercharged V-8 engine roared in the motel the parking lot. Mike was on his way. Someone had to stop for her and she didn’t care if her ride was a homicidal maniac as long as she was gone before the GTO got here. She stuck out her thumb and ten seconds later a big white Olds lumbered past her by a hundred feet into the break-down lane. Tammi hobbled on one shoe to the passenger door and jumped inside.

"Go, mister, go."

“Go where?” The long-haired driver was examining her from head to toe.

Tammi must have looked like bad news, but she slammed shut the door and shouted, "Anywhere, but here."

"You want me take you home?” The hippie asked with brotherly concern.

“Not home. Anywhere. Go.” Tammi prayed that the dozy driver in the suede jacket wasn’t stoned like most of the heads in her high school. She needed someone who could drive like THE DUKES OF HAZZARD.

“Okay, I'm going already.” The hippie checked the mirrors and pulled into traffic at a less than urgent speed. “A girl your age shouldn’t be out here this time of night.”

“I’m 16.” The young driver didn't look like a pervert in the dashboard light, but Tammi moved closer to the door.

“More like 15.”

“15, 16, I’m plenty old enough to be here or anywhere else.” Tammi rubbed the bruise on her face. “Where you headed, Mister?"

“New York.”

“Same as me?” She couldn’t believe her luck.

“You have family there?”

“I have no family there, which is why I’m going there.” Tammi bit her lower lip and glanced over her shoulder. A hundred headlights filled the back window. Only one of them mattered to her. “Shit.”

The red GTO roared up beside them.

“Mistah, I swear to God this guy kill me, if you stop." Tammi clasped her hands together in a frantic plea. “Go faster.”

"You think this piece of shit can outrun a Goat?" The driver looked over at GTO.

Screams contorted the face of the slick-haired motorhead. The passenger window was open, but his words were lost in the wind.

“I can’t read lips, but your boyfriend doesn’t seem too happy about you skipping out on Thanksgiving dinner.”

“He’s not my boyfriend.” Her fists squeezed the air in frustration with the hippie's thickness.

“He’s no stranger either.”

"Watch out," Tammi shrieked in warning.

The GTO’s swerved within an inch of driver's side and the hippie steered the Olds 88 clear of a collision.

“This will knock the fight out of that asshole.” The hippie reached under the seat to come up with a tire iron.

“Mister, don’t stop. I'm serious about him killing me.” Tammi begged the driver.

“No one’s killing anyone tonight." The hippie juked the steering wheel to the left and the GTO veered away from the Olds 88. “My father always says a car is the most dangerous weapon in America, especially when the driver doesn’t give a shit about his car.”

“Mister, he has a gun." The pistol was pointed straight at them.

The long-haired driver slammed on the brakes and the GTO nosed ahead of the Olds, as a flash of fire spurted inside the muscle car. No bullet had cracked through their windows and the hippie dropped the tire iron on the floor.

"You're right, we're not stopping." He clenched the steering wheel with both hands, finally realizing that this was no game.

“What are you going to do?” She locked her fingers together not to God, but to the driver of the 88.

“Not giving him a second chance to kill us.” The hippie checked the road ahead and behind of the two cars. The Interstate was strangely empty. “Hold on.”

The Olds swung behind the GTO and the driver stepped on the accelerator.

The big car’s steel bumper rear-ended the tail end of the muscle car. the GTO fishtailed off the highway into a copse of sapling. Tammi clapped her hands with delight, as the driver pushed the Olds over 100 mph.

"Keep an eye out for the GTO." He didn't break a smile.

"I don’t see it." Tammi's heart was beating a drum roll in her chest.

“That doesn’t mean he’s not coming.” The hippie narrowed his eyes. A road sign announced an exit a half-mile ahead. The Olds reached the off-ramp in thirty seconds and swept up the exit onto a country road.

"This isn’t the highway to New York." Tammi folded her arms into front of her.

"Don't worry, I'm not a murderer. We’re taking the back roads to avoid your friend. It’ll add an hour or two to the trip, but better than having someone shoot at us again. That okay by you, Cinderella?"

"Whatcha mean, Cinderella?" The hippie might not be trouble, but she had already been hit by one man tonight.

"You’re wearing a party dress with one shoe, so I think___"

"Mister, this ain’t no pumpkin truck, I’m no Cinderella, but I do have a drunk stepmother and a wicked stepsister at home,” Tammi snapped, and then apologized, deciding she needed this ride. "Sorry, mister. It's been one of those nights."

"I hope they don't happen all the time." He checked the rearview mirror and slowed the Olds down to a safe speed.

"Enough." She rubbed her face, nearly on the verge of tears.

“You have a cigarette, mister?” She had forgotten hers at the motel.

"There might be a pack by your feet. They're not mine, so I have no idea how long they've been there."

“Old is better than none.” Tammi smoked in silence and waited for the hippie to say something. It didn't take him long.

“When I was your age, I fought with my girlfriend. I never hit her.” He was looking at the rising bruise on her cheek. 


“Then she was lucky. Guys hit girls and worse.”

“This isn’t just about the guy with the GTO. Care to tell me about it?”

“No.” She sighed a cloud of smoke, then shrugged with adolescent apathy. "You want a story, listen to this. At the Turkey Day pep rally this football jock bragged about how he and his team fucked me and cheerleaders called me a slut. We fought with the head cheerleader and I won. The dean of discipline sided with the goody-two-shoes instead of the town slut. I got suspended for two weeks. At home my stepmother and I got into a shouting match. I ran away. That guy in the GTO gave me a ride. He was wrong about my enjoying a cheap weekend in a dirty hotel and I fought him off and stole $80 from him. I reached the highway. You stopped and we went. End of story.”

Tammi trembled from reliving some parts of this story. She couldn’t figure which ones.

"Fucked up Thanksgiving Day."

"You got that right, mister, one more thing. A favor."

"Such as?" The hippie cracked his window to vent the smoke

"No more questions." Tammi tugged the mini-skirt over her knees. "Sure, if you do me one." The driver shrugged his answer. He had heard enough.

“What?” She expected the worse.

“Stop calling me mister.”

“You have a problem with ‘mister’?” Tammi called every man over twenty-one that to keep them from thinking that they were her age, for juvenile fantasies died long deaths in men.

“Mister makes me feel a thousand years old. I’m only 25 and the name’s Sean.”

“And mine’s Tammi. Now if you don’t mind, I’d like to catch some sleep, Sean?" Tammi laid her head against the cold glass. Maybe the hippie was a killer, but at this point dead sounded better than alive.

"I’ll wake you in New York."

"Thanks, Sean." Tammi shut her eyes. A few minutes later she was asleep and the Olds 88 cruised along the dark country back roads at the legal limit of 55 MPH.

The hippie turned the dial without finding a station unaccompanied by static. He shut off the radio and glanced over to the girl on the front seat. She should have been home in bed, but her business was none of his and he stepped on the gas.

Ten seconds later the Olds disappeared into the shadowless night. A dog barked at its passing and then went back to sleep. New York was less than a hundred miles away.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 3

Thirty-one shopping days remained until Christmas, yet not a single wreath adorned the entrance of the porno shops, strip clubs, or X-rated theaters above 42nd Street and any Santa Claus, real or fake, steered clear of Times Square, where hapless victims were robbed, cheated, murdered or worse without any interference from the Law, for the 'Deuce' had been designated a free-for-all red-light district by NYC officials in hopes of containing the city's rampant sex and drug traffic. Standing in front of the Haymarket Bar Johnny Darling bore silent witness to the overwhelming failure of the politicians’ social experiment.

All along the Minnesota Strip suburban tricks hijacked teenage runaways straight off a bus from the Midwest and slick hustlers struck cowboy poses on the street corners, while unsuspecting hicks were trailed down dark streets by dope-hungry muggers. The action should have tapered off before Thanksgiving, except the players on the Strip were dedicated to acting naughty and not the least bit nice and tonight was no exception.

A sharp gust unraveled a pile of trash and the discarded newspapers scattered over the sidewalk. Johnny dodged a page, as the door to the Haymarket opened for a tall blonde transvestite in a white leather jacket and tight matching pants.

"Leaving so soon, Dove?" Johnny asked, blowing into his bare hands.

"Just taking a break from my date's complaining about his wife." The blonde sashayed behind Johnny for shelter from the cold and she towered over him taller in her stiletto heels. She wasn't wearing a shirt or bra and her heavily made-up eyes simmered with slattern lust, as if she were auditioning for a porno film. "What about you? Any luck?"

"A wasteland and I need a quick score to pay my rent." The twenty-year old leaned into the slender beauty, whose translucent skin radiating an unnatural heat for this time of year.

"If you help me, I'll help you, my dear dear Johnny." The young transvestite caressed the blonde guitarist's neck with a tenderness of a girl scout recovering a long-lost teddy bear.

"It's a deal. You know I have simple tastes,"Johnny declared over KC's THAT'S THE WAY booming on the bar's jukebox. "My guitar, drinking at a bar, eating a little food, good music, and someplace warm to sleep."

"What about the gypsy's woman’s prediction of fame and fortune?” Dove cuddled closer to the guitarist with each syllable.

“I’m haven’t given up on stardom, although you’re the only star in this night’s sky.”

"You’ve always had a sweet way with words.”

“Only for my friends.” Johnny had witnessed Dave’s transformation to Dove in the seclusion of her parents’ bedrooms. Her mother’s lingerie and make-up had given way to clothing stolen from Macy’s. “But you’ve been a star ever since we dressed you up as Jodie Foster in TAXI DRIVER.”

“A pink tube top, white silk hot pants, and red spaghetti strap pumps.” Dove sighed with fondness of her debut on the Strip.

“You stopped the traffic dead on 42nd Street.”

“That act was good for a teenage summer. Now I’ve matured into a Vogue model. Last night at Les Jardins this designer asked me to be in his fashion show. He was I would be a sensation.”

“As you are every night.” 42nd Street was Dove’s runway. The eyes of the men seeking her attention were the cameras. The nineteen year-old sold glamor by the hour and her buyers understood the risk and price of that transaction.

“But really, Johnny, when are you going take me away from all this?” Dove twirled a lacquered strand of hair in her fingers.

“I’m starting a new band.”

“Another band playing to a hundred punks at CBGB’s or Max’s is not buy tickets to the South of France.” Dove sighed with exasperation.

“Knowing your tastes, I’d have to sell out Madison Square Garden to afford a vacation on the Riviera.” Johnny stepped aside for a priestly gentleman and two teenagers entering the Haymarket. His companions were above the legal age, but pretended to be 16 and Dove said, “They won’t pass for jailbait much longer.”

“Not unless they lower the lighting inside.””¨

"Dark lighting is a girl’s best make-up.” Dove hushed into Johnny’s ear. “You hear about Jimmie Bags?”

“How the cops gave their favorite bagman a machine gun for his birthday and how later the drunken idiot tested the gift at a nightclub, nearly wounding three cops in the line of duty?” People on the Deuce told him everything, although sometimes Johnny wished that he could retire from his unofficial position as the Strip’s confessor, except the only applicants for the job were the police and no one plea-bargained their sins with the Law.

“You hear and see all.” Dove backed away from her longtime friend to survey the Strip.

“And on no account do I tell all.” Whatever entered his ear didn’t break the seal of his lips.

“That’s my baby.” Dove kissed Johnny’s cheek. The street was too rough on her kind and she told him, “I got to get back inside and save my date from the claw's of some Miss Thing’s. Mr. DeMille, I’m ready for my scene.”

Dove entered the bar and a passing middle-aged trick beamed an inviting smile. Johnny shook his head, indicating that he was waiting for a better offer, then silently asked, “How long I been saying that?”

Most of his old friends and competitors were in jail or dead, for Times Squares’ math was as loaded against hustlers as crooked dice. Chilled by the premonition of his luck crapping out, Johnny scanned the quagmire of faces shuffling along the sidewalk. Two seconds later Frankie scooted up to him and announced, “We have a live one on the way.”

“Left or right?” Johnny asked defensively, since his protege specialized in unnecessary risks.

“The loaded white guy was checking out on the last block. He spots me and I motion for him to follow me.” Frankie glimpsed over his shoulder.

An overweight businessman with his tie adrift at the neck was staggering through the crowd.

“I’ll take him into a peep show and pickpocket his wallet.” Frankie bounced on his toes with too much eagerness.

“We have to give him a miss.”

“He’s drunk.” Frankie was puzzled by the rejection of this sucker.

“Take a closer look. Those thick-soled shoes are for running and the undercover cop across the street is back-up. You want to spend the night in Spofford?”

“At least Juvie Hall is warm.” Last summer Frankie had racked up two thirty-day bids in the Bronx jail famed for rotten food, sadistic guards, and bloody gang beatings. “I need money.”

“The night is young,” Johnny assured the drummer, although the theater had let out their audiences. The easy marks were being replaced by drunks with little cash in their pockets and their fellow hustlers were switching to the more predatory pursuits of purse-snatching or knifepoint robberies.

“And colder too.” Frankie wanted everything yesterday.

“We’ll score soon." Without one he was sleeping in an all-night theater on 42nd Street.

"I hope so.” Frankie swept back his hair. “How I look?”

“Like a young Richie Valens.”

“How many times I have to tell you.” The young boy stood with raised fists. “I’m Puerto Rican, not Mexican.”

Johnny slipped a left under Frankie’s guard. His knuckles barely tapped the teenager’s chin. Frankie dropped his hand and tears dampened the corners of his eyes.”¨

"What I tell you about fighting?" Faking fighting prowess could be a fatal error on the Strip, where everyone was a potential killer.

“That we’re lovers, not fighters.”

"That's right." Johnny gave Frankie two dollars. He was down to three. “Stop your crying and go get warm.”

“You know where I’ll be.” The young boy hurried to the subterranean Eight Avenue arcade. $2 bought eight pinball games out of the cold and Frankie was skilled enough to last an hour at the KISS machine. If nothing happened before then, Johnny was calling it a night.

WALK ON THE WILD SIDE replaced KC’s disco hit inside the Haymarket and Johnny fingered Lou Reed’s anthem on air guitar. His Les Paul was safe with the cashier of ShowWorld and he sang along with the irresistible chorus.

“In the backroom she was everyone’s darling.” Johnny stepped forward to allow an exit from the bar. It was Dove and she stuck a wallet in his hand, as she sang, “But she never lost her head, even when she was giving head."

“Meet me at Adonis.” She tugged on her paper-thin white leather coat and clattered around the corner seconds before a mustached man in his thirties burst from the Haymarket, his head bopping on his shoulders like a turtle on Speed and his hands clawing at his pockets. Any honest citizen would have been shouting for the police.

“You see a tall blonde?”

“She have on a white coat?” Johnny knitted his brow with concern.

“Yeah, that’s the one.” The sucker bought his sincerity with frantic gratitude. His wedding ring meant a wife in the suburbs. Most of Dove’s tricks were straight or so they told themselves.

“Which way she go?”

His having heard the truth about the coat primed the man for a lie.

“She headed toward the Port Authority. Maybe thirty seconds ago.”

“Thanks.” The man darted down the crowded sidewalk.

“Just doing my civic duty.” Johnny casually crossed the avenue, for running was a sure sign of guilt in Times Square. Opposite the Haymarket he pulled the cash from the wallet, which he dumped in the nearest trash can.

Farther down the block Johnny counted the bills before stepping into the foyer of the Adonis Theater. Dove was leaning against a poster promoting a gay sex movie. Johnny slipped the money into her jacket pocket.

“Nice little score.” She returned five $20s to Johnny.

“Are you sure?” His take was on the generous side.

“Most of the scum on this street would have stiffed me.”

“We go back plus I have three rules; trust no one more than you trust yourself, steal from the most deserving, and avoid the deadly sin of greed.”

“You’re such a good Catholic boy, too bad you’re not into women.” Dove strived hard to sound like a young Tallulah Bankhead.

“Never said I didn’t like women.”

“You ever been with one?” Dove fluttered her eyes at a mustached passer-by.

“You know better than that. All the women care about is turning me straight.”

“So there’s no hope for me?” Dove cinched the belt of her leather jacket and Johnny poked his head around the corner of the foyer. There was no sign of her victim.

“You never know.” He wasn’t into to women, but Dove was not a woman and he said, “One day I might love you.”

“I’ll be counting the minutes till then.” The transvestite strutted to the curb and flagged a taxi. A checker stopped in the street and Dove flipped a loose strand of hair from her face. “You care for a ride to CBGBs? The Ramones are headlining.”

“I have to take care of Frankie.” $42 covered his back-rent at the Terminal Hotel and a twenty would happy up the young Puerto Rican drummer and leaving him $38. It was time to call it a night.

“You’re a soft touch.” Dove waved good-bye from the taxi window. “That kid will be the death of you.”

“He’s no trouble. No more than you.”

“No trouble? Baby, trouble’s my adopted last name?” Dove shouted out the window, as the taxi turned left on the next street. Johnny pulled up his collar and clocked the foot traffic on the sidewalks. The scammers outnumbered the scammed 5 to 1 and he hurried down the sidewalk dreaming about his bed at the Terminal Hotel.

His foot stepped onto the pavement of 44th Street only to have a black 1976 Lincoln TownCar block his path and a hand as white as smoke beckoned from the rear window. Johnny peered through the crack at a grim blonde boy in a black silk bathrobe and pajamas suspecting a set-up, but pale-skinned teenagers were only narcs on TV cops shows.

“I know you?”

“No.” His voice was barely audible. “But I know you.”

Johnny didn’t like hearing that or the lock popping up open.

“You want me in the car?”

“If you please.” The young man replied with a private school accent hoarse from disuse.

“Who can’t resist such politeness.” Johnny sat in the car. The interior smelled of medicine, instead of leather.

“You’re staring.” The pajamaed passenger slouched against the opposite door, as if his back had been hammered out of place.

“It’s not often you meet Howard Hughes’ illegitimate son.”

“It’s Hugh Hefner who wears pajamas.” His host was annoyed by the levity.

“Sorry, I get millionaires mixed up.” Johnny lifted his hands in apology.

“Where to?” The thick-necked driver coughed in front.

“Down the block." A sheet of black glass cut them off from front seat and the car drove farther from 8th Avenue. The passenger told Johnny, "This isn’t about sex.”

“That’s a first for Times Square. So how do you know me?” Johnny wanted to solve this mystery.

“I don’t know you personally, but I saw what you did.” The passenger scowled, as if he had co-authored the Ten Commandments.

“Do what?” Johnny wasn’t admitting to anything.

“You helped that ‘girl’ rob that man and dumped this wallet in the trash.” He held up the discarded wallet with a handkerchief. “And last week I saw you rescue a drug dealer from arrest by pushing two theatergoers into the path of the police.”

“Really?” Johnny was irritated by the absence of this incident from his memory and even more so that he hadn’t noticed this car or its passenger and he asked, “How much?”

“I don’t need your money.” The passenger fidgeted into a more comfortable possession, as the Lincoln turned onto 9th Avenue. The driver was in no hurry.

“Good, because I’d hate to split $100.” Johnny’s hand grasped the door handle, hesitant to jump out of moving car, then settled back into the seat. The passenger wore expensive slippers and his pajamas were made of high-quality silk. He was rich and a rich sucker was an opportunity not to be passed up in Times Square.

“You’re staring again.”

“Sorry, if this isn’t for sex or a shakedown, what's the story?” Johnny was a musician as well as a hustler. Both professions required an acute sense of timing and he allowed several seconds of silence to pass before spinning his web. "You don't want to tell me, then I have a story for you. Three years ago an old Gypsy woman taught me the ancient art of palmistry like how the left hand reveals the past and the right hand predicts the future. I started fooling around reading palms of the strippers, massage girls, pimps, cops, and dealers in Times Square. Some paid me $5 for a reading, but I got tired of reading their highways to hell and I closed up shop.”

“You can divine the future?”

“No, but I learned that most people want the same thing; money, love, happiness and so I told people what they want to hear and they’ll nod their head when you’re right.

“So it’s a trick?” This revelation clearly disappointed the young man like he had been told a magician's secret.

“Sometimes yes, sometimes no, I’m not sure when was which.” Johnny sensed the passenger’s desire for answers and spoke without any premonition as to what he would say. “We are all trapped by the past. It is the future that frees us, if your present isn’t a jail. I bet you haven’t stepped on the street in months.”

The passenger’s eyes widened with this plundering of his soul.

“And I’m probably the first person you spoke with in a long time other than the driver and your family.”

The passenger’s lack of a response confirmed that he was on the right track.

“You don’t talk about anything to anyone. You don’t ever leave this car either and I know why.” Johnny played him without pity. “Because whatever happened to you didn’t kill you and sometimes you wish that it did.”

The passenger reached forward to knock on the window and the effort hurt more than he was willing to show, giving Johnny another insight into why he was in this car.

“You had an accident. A bad accident. It changed who you were into who you are now and you don’t like that person, but you’re not the only person in the world that changed from who they wanted to be. I was a good kid once. An altar boy. No one recited the Mass better than me. Families hired me to serve their weddings or bury their grandparents. I was vain enough to consider myself special. A priest did too and he corrupted my life time after time. He said he was trying to teach me humility. I didn’t need to taught humility and neither did you, even though you went to the best schools and summered in Europe.”

“This is all a trick.”

A red light stopped the Lincoln at 54th Street and Johnny slapped his palm on the dividing window. It slid down halfway.

“Pull over to the curb,” Johnny told the driver and turned to the passenger, “I can only tell you what I see. It’s no trick. I see you trapped in this car, praying for the boy to come back from the grave, but both him and my innocent altar boy are dead. We can only become someone else. Someone new.”

“You make it sound so easy.” The passenger’s right eye twitched with a slight spasm.

“It is easy.” His host had been hurt bad and Johnny knew hurt. “All you have to do is leave this car and live.”

“With them?” The passenger regarded the passing parade with a noticeable disdain. The dregs of Times Square were heading home for the night and none of them had houses or apartments.

“There’s more to life than them or this car. Other people, other places.”

“If I fall, I could hurt myself more.”

Being scared is all part of taking the first steps. Have you fallen since your injury?”

“A couple of times.”

“And you didn’t die?”

“No.”

“I can understand you’re frightened of the pain, but mummifying yourself in this car is a form of death and that’s why you picked me up tonight.” Johnny told the driver, “Me and my friend are leaving the car.”

“Mr. Ames?” The driver asked, as if getting out of the car was against the rules.

“Robert, park the car for a second.”

The car pulled over to the curb.

Johnny stepped out of the car and reached inside to assist the young man from the back seat.

The passers-by stared at the black pajamas and Johnny glared at them with practiced disdain.

“Ignore them. They’re nobodies. You’re what matters. How’s it feel to be out of that car?”

“Like I should return to the cocoon.” He wasn’t very stable on his feet.

“Too late for that. Breathe.”

The young man inhaled the cold air like an astronaut testing the atmosphere of Mars. The garish streetlights were unfiltered by the Lincoln’s smoked windows and jarred his eyes and the noise battered his eardrums, then a harsh wind kissed his skin with an old lover’s forgiveness. His knees buckled from the sensory overload and Johnny caught him. The young man didn’t weigh much.

“It’ll improve with practice. Trust me.”

“You expect me to trust a thief?”

“Thieves have more honor than most people and I’m not only a thief. You play an instrument?”

“A little piano.” The young man hesitated, as if he might have given an incorrect response.

“Think you could play an organ?” Dove was right. Johnny was soft. This kid was primed for a scam and he was letting him off the hook to become part of his life.

“Organ?”

“A Bach fugue worked for Procul Harum in A WHITER SHADE OF PALE and the Doors’ LIGHT MY FIRE would have been nothing with the organ, which is definitely a hipper choice than a piano for punk.”

“Punk?” The term was a blank for the Lincoln’s passenger.

“Punk like the Ramones, and Patti Smith.” Johnny’s blitz of information retilted his new acquaintance.

“The only times I heard the word “˜punk’ have been in reference to this incense burnt to stave off mosquitoes.”

“It’s also a prison definition for another convict’s sex slave, but the punk I’m talking about has to do with music.”

“Sorry, I don’t listen much to the radio.” The young man stood erect with a pained effort.

“Punk doesn’t get play on the radio.” The record executives hated it. “I’ve had two bands, the Disappointed and the Precious Few. Both failed, due to ego problems or talent conflicts, but I haven’t abandoned my dream, so today is your lucky day.”

“Lucky?” He looked to the car, as if his driver was supposed rescue him, but doors remained shut.

“Yes, you’re lucky, because I’m offering you a crash course in punk and punk will bring you back from the dead. You know the song LOUIE LOUIE?”

“Yeah, duh, duh duh, duh-duh, duh-duh duh.”

“So you’re not totally brain dead about music. Now speed it up faster and rawer and nastier.”

“Like Slade? My sister had played them on her stereo.”

“Not exactly, but close.” Frankie had been the drummer in the Disappointed and Cheri from room 301 had sung for the Precious Few. Bass players were as rare as light bulbs, but an organist with money was a trick pony begging for a circus.

“When I first got in the car, I was thinking about ripping you off, but I said to myself, “Why I rip him off for couple of hundred dollars, when I can score more, but now that you’re going to be in my band, your money is safe. Like I said there’s honor among thieves.”

“I-I-I-I never said I’d join in your band.”

“Okay, don’t join my band.” Johnny backed away from the passenger, who snagged his arm.

“Don’t go.”

“Okay.” He was hooked, but good and Johnny had yet to tell one lie. “But a warning. Punks about burning down the temple of soft rock, pissing off the middle of the road producers. It’s not a big scene. Maybe two thousand punks in New York, LA, London, but there’s more every day and your joining us could only help the cause. You’re going to love it.”

“Couldn’t I like it first?”

“Like is for a distant aunt with a mustache. Tomorrow evening come to Max’s Kansas City on Union Square.”

“I’m having dinner at the Carlyle Hotel with my father and sister.”

“That’s right. Tomorrow's Dry Turkey Day.” Johnny wasn't losing his organist to a dead bird and spotted another opening. “Can your sister sing?”

“Not a note.” Caroline had many talents. Singing was not one of them.

“What she look like?” Nico had proved that a good voice was not a prerequisite for a lead singer and he tried to imagine a female version of Charles.

“Many men find her attractive.” Mostly because she was overtly open to their suggestions, but the coldness of her beauty was a frightening challenge to her suitors.

“Great, then she can be in the band too.” Johnny wondered if he could pass them off as twins.

“No, Caroline isn’t into things like that.” Charles shook his head with a slight back and forth motion.

“That’s too bad.” Finding an organist and a singer in one go was almost too much to ask from New York. “So what about tomorrow?”

“I can meet you after my dinner.”

“Great, but do yourself a favor and lose the Hugh Hefner pajamas.” Johnny fingered the material. Imported silk had to cost a fortune. “Go to St. Mark’s Place around 11 and buy anything black and leather at Trash and Vaudeville and get Snookie to cut your hair at Manic Panic. You have a number?”

“Yes.” He handed Johnny an embossed card. “You can call me “˜Charles’.”

The accent inhibited the use of Charlie or Chuck and Johnny acceded to his new friend’s unspoken request.

“Charles, my name’s Johnny Darling. Now you’ll have to excuse me, I have a previous appointment.”

“Your young friend?” Charles held up the wallet.

“I forgot you were spying on me.”

“Sorry.” The apology sounded heart-felt.

“I’ve forgiven you too.” Johnny helped Charles into the car. “You’ll meet my assistant tomorrow. He’s the drummer.”

“Your band have a name?” The rich boy was visibly relieved to be off his feet. His pain was no joke.

“GTH.” Johnny had remembered the top bill at the Adonis Theater and stripped the first letter of each word in the title. “It’s short for “˜Gone To Hell. I’ll call you tomorrow, “˜Charles’.”

“Any time after ten.”

“I’m a late-waker too.” Johnny shut the door and the Lincoln disappeared down the street.

Nearby drifters envied his imagined score and Johnny walked toward 42nd Street. Times Square was shuttering for the night. Entering ShowWorld his nose reeled from the smell of pine oil used to clean the viewing cubicles. The elderly clerk passed his guitar from behind the counter.

“Lucky?”

“More than you can imagine.” Johnny left the porno emporium and spotted Frankie across the avenue. The young boy was begging for a handout under a movie marquee promoting THE DEVIL IN MRS. JONES. Tonight his helplessness was no act. No one on the Strip owed anyone favors and Johnny could walk away from Frankie without a twinge of guilt, instead he shouted out to the drummer, who lifted his head like a dog hearing its master’s whistle. Frankie ran across the avenue and said, “I thought you had ditched out on me.”

“Would I do that?” Johnny slipped him $20.

“My prayers are answered. I love you.” The young boy stamped his feet on the pavement.

“Love no one. Not me. Not anyone.” He couldn’t tell Frankie that fools never followed their own advice.

“Everything is just business.” Frankie had adopted Johnny as his God, even if worshiping him might cost his soul.

“And business is good.” Dove’s score was none of his business, but he had to tell someone about meeting Charles. “I ran into an 'angel’.”

“What kind of angle you talking 'about'?” An F in Algebra had ended his schooling.

“Not angle. An Angel.”

“You turning religious on me?” Frankie had lost more friends to the church than drugs.

“I’m talking about an angel to finance our band off the ground.” The priest’s kiss had permanently soured Johnny’s faith in God.

“Our band?” Johnny’s plans to reform the Dispossessed was mostly talk.

“No, new one.” His hands itched to create new music on his guitar. “GTH.”

“GTH?” Frankie asked, eagerly, hoping for the three letters might have been a new drug.

“It stands for Gone To Hell.” They needed new songs to go with the new name.

“Gone To Hell?” Frankie hadn’t been to church in years, but he still respected the horror of a fiery eternity. “I don’t want to burn in Hell.”

“You’re not going to burn in any Hell. Not while I’m around in this life and the next.” They needed a place to rehearse and he knew one in Chinatown.

“Okay, if you say so.” Frankie bongoed a beat on a car. “So who else is in GTH?”

“This rich kid’s on organ and Cheri will sing.”

“She has a terrible voice.” Frankie had no use for the stuck-up painter living down the hall from Johnny at the Terminal Hotel.

“If I know you two don’t get along, but Cheri can shake her ass. The straight guys and the lezbos will love her. The organist is a cripple. The sad girls will love him. You beat the drums and I scorched the air with my guitar.” Johnny was thinking way ahead of tonight, even knowing that no surefire formula existed to guarantee musical success, however not contemplating failure was a step in the right direction. “We’ll have a number one on the charts for a hundred weeks and live the life in Hollywood.”

“Movie stars, palm trees, and swimming pools,” Enticed by Johnny’s enthusiasm, Frankie chanted the words like “˜lions, tigers, and bears’ from THE WIZARD OF OZ and then asked, “Care to score a few bags?”

“No, I have to stay straight for this 'angel’ tomorrow.” Johnny couldn’t preach moderation in fear of throwing a rock through a window of his temple of sins. “Go get high. You can crash at the Terminal later.”

“Thanks.” Frankie headed to Bryant Park with reckless determination and Johnny lifted his arm to flag a taxi. Instead a Plymouth Valiant halted by the curb and its overweight driver ordered, “Don’t move.”

Nearly half the foot traffic froze in place, though the command was aimed at Johnny. He walked slowly over to the nondescript car and asked, “And how can I help you this fine evening, Sgt. Weinstein?”

“Save that Eddie Haskell shit for LEAVE IT TO BEAVER.” The grey-haired detective hauled himself out of the unmarked cop car and hitched up his 40-inch waist Sta-Press pants, pretending he had all the time in the world. “See your guitar’s out of hock.”

“Yes, sir.” There was a chance that the cop had witnessed Dove’s score. Johnny paid it safe and said, “An old friend repaid a debt.”

“You’re fortunate to have friends, Mr. Darlino.” The heavyweight detective was waging a one-man campaign against the wickedness of the Strip. Ten more cops like him would have shut down Times Square for good, however the NYPD honored other commitments to Law and Order.

“The name’s Darling.” Johnny hated any connection to his past.

“We get you down to the precinct and you’re John Darlino real fast.” The detective frisked the hustler’s pockets. “Where you headed?”

“Home, Sergeant Weinstein.” Johnny lifted his arms to facilitate the search.

“You mean 'home’ like Mom and Dad’s house in Florida for Turkey Day?” While most of the cops in Times Square were on the take, the detective was relatively honest. Whatever he found on Johnny was Johnny’s as long as it wasn’t illegal.

“Hell, no, I’m done with that cracker state.” Four years ago DisneyWorld in Orlando had offered his father a position promoting tourism. The move had mostly been made to save Johnny from his friends and the sixteen year-old had accompanied them, promising to be a good boy. He had lasted two very long years.

”Don’t you miss the palm trees and sun?” Sgt. Weinstein withdrew the remaining money from Johnny’s pocket.

“Naw, I’m into the change of seasons.”

“You call your parents sometimes?”

“Every once in a while.” He told them with the stories about studying at Hunter College days and playing night in a band. Hopefully his lies were easier to believe than their fears about the truth.

“Two years on the Strip and not once have you been arrested or sent to the hospital. Not many people on the Strip can say that.”

“I obey the laws.” Another one of his # 1 rules was to only break one law at a time.

“Unlike the rest of the scum on the street.” Sgt. Weinstein glared at the passers-by and they shrank from his gaze. “I can remember coming here with my mother. We’d go to the movies and I’d have some hot dogs.”

“Not many kids around here now.” Johnny eyed the sidewalks.

“Thank God for that.” The detective couldn’t fathom his city’s descent from the glory days of the 50s. His fellow officers blamed the blacks and drugs, yet the decay ran deeper than race or narcotics.

“I don’t think God has anything to do with it.”

“Same as your luck and that of your boyfriend.” Sgt. Weinstein respected Johnny’s tutelage of Frankie and their avoidance of violent crimes.

“Just trying to keep him out of trouble, that’s all.” Johnny wasn’t taking the bait about Frankie being his boyfriend. “We don’t want to be a burden for the city.”

“My fellow officers are not so appreciative of your effort and they have you in their sights. You’re twenty, right? No more Juvie Hall for you and prison is hard time on pretty boys.”

“I’m dedicated to my music and nothing else.” Johnny Darling lifted his guitar.

“I wish that was true, but everyone makes a mistake and one day you’ll make one too and that day we’ll play LET’S MAKE A DEAL.” Sgt. Weinstein had seen thousands of wiseasses hit the Strip thinking that they could beat the long odds of the street. Most couldn’t count on their fingers

and ended up in jail or lying in an alley dead for less than $50.

“I wish I could walk away from it, but not just yet.”

“Don’t push it too long.” Officer Weinstein shook his head. It wasn’t too late for Johnny to save himself, although he wasn’t so sure about Frankie.

“I’m starting a new band and need some money.”

“You ever heard of work?”

“$2 an hour pays about $65 after taxes. No thanks. I’ll take my chances here, but I promise you. Not for much longer.”

“Don’t promise me. Promise yourself.” The detective’s good cop act was in his nature and he handed back Johnny’s money.

“Have a happy Thanksgiving.”

“Thanks, Sgt. Weinstein. You too.” Something was very wrong about Weinstein cutting loose Johnny, for the detective was renown for never giving an inch, unless he received a yard in return.

Standing on a windy corner offered no answers to this mystery and Johnny Darling jumped in the next Checker cab, instructing the middle-aged driver, “14th and 9th.”

“You have money?”

Johnny flashed a twenty.

“Happy?”

“You do a runner on the other end and I’ll drive you down.” The driver coldly flipped on the meter.

“Thanks for the warning.” Only the NYPD were meaner than New York taxi drivers.

“It’s a promise, not a warning.”

At the meat market on 12th Street the taxi turned onto Washington Street and dropped Johnny at the Terminal Hotel. He paid the driver and raised his eyes to the third-floor corner room. The lights were out in Room 21. Cheri was either asleep or in bed with a new lover. Johnny was knocking on her door either way and entered the hotel lobby flourishing cash.

“You better have my money, cuz no way yer gettin’ a key widout payin’.” The nearly toothless clerk turned off Johnny Carson’s interview with Robert Blake on THE TONIGHT SHOW.

“Shut your hole, Ernie.” Johnny slapped forty-two dollars on the counter and snapped a fiver before the wino’s roadmap of wrinkles. “And a bone for you too, you old alkie.”

“Fer me?” Ernie licked his swollen lips in the anticipation of a soul-quenching bottle of Thunderbird.

“For you.”

“Sorry for the grief, Johnny, you know I like you, but the bosses have a hard-on deadbeats. Even the Great Johnny Darling.”

“Hey I know, but who else takes care of you like me?” Johnny patted the old man’s cheek.

“Only you, Johnny Darling, only you.” Ernie pocketed his tip. “By the way Cheri left you a box.”

“Left me a box?” He palmed his key.

“Yeah,”Cheri split about two hours ago fer the airport. She said sumthin’ about goin’ to Paris.”

The old man toed a cardboard box from behind the desk.

“She say anything about coming back?” Johnny had dismissed her late-night prattling about art school in Paris as a bedtime lullaby.

“Nope.”

“Damn.”

“Damn is right. Guess she wuz spooked by this hippie boy.”

“Spooked?” Johnny had heard Cheri talk about this hippie. She had never spoke about her lovers before. Maybe Ernie was right.

“She spent last weekend with this hippie boy. He had stars in his eyes and a girl like Cheri gets scared that a young fool in love will kill her dreams.”

“But why she leave?”

“Because this hippie boy is supposed to show up tonight to live with her. She left him this letter.”

The clerk held up an envelope and Johnny tried to snatch it. The old alkie had faster reflexes.

“Gotta give that to the hippie, Johnny Boy.”

“So you’re not going to give it to me.”

“I’m like the US Mail that way.”

“I’ll keep that in mind the next time you run short for a bottle of wine.” Johnny lifted the box and walked over to the elevator. “They ever fixing this?”

“Boss sez soon.” Ernie shouted, as Johnny climbed past two winos arguing over who was the most beautiful member of CHARLIE’S ANGELS. On the 2nd floor a madman ranted about the president-elect’s being too Christian. Johnny gave him a quarter and continued to the 3rd floor, where he walked down to Cheri’s room. It was empty, although a painting of a naked hippie covered one wall.

“Fucking hippie.” Johnny entered room #308 and dropped the box next to the stack of LPs. He laid the guitar on the bed and cued up the Dolls’ LONELY PLANET BOY on the stereo. A quick ferret through Cheri’s box produced vintage clothing, two wigs, and no letter. She had loved dressing him as her. “Long as you stay the same weight, you can be my mirror.”

His fingers struck a discordant twang on the steel strings of his Les Paul.

Cheri’s leaving was the hippie’s fault.

He strummed several ragged A chords and visualized this longhair. Her surprise disappearance would break his heart. He might even cry and tears made a man defenseless.

Johnny added an F chord to the train of As chord and envisioned Cheri’s ex-lover facedown in the street without a penny to his or anyone else’s name. A-A-A-F-A ended his murderous solo and he mimicked with Johnny Thunders’ lead.

No one in the Dolls had a spectacular voice. Not even David Johansson. Singing came from the heart not the throat and tomorrow he would find a soul-filled singer at Max’s. As for tonight he could only wait until tomorrow and tomorrow wasn’t never too far away from this time of night.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 4



IV

Two hours past midnight the Olds 88 crossed a bridge spanning a black tidal river. Co-Op City’s stark highrises loomed on the left and abandoned wrecks lined the Interstate to remind motorists that crime didn’t sleep in the Big Apple. Thee minutes later Sean lifted his foot off the gas and veered onto the Bruckner Expressway.

Off the elevated highway flames leapt from a vacant building unattended by fire trucks. Smoke smoldered from neighboring tenements without any spectators. This part of the Bronx had been deserted for most of the decade.

The sleeping runaway on the passenger seat came from small town up north. She probably had never been to a city bigger than Boston and New York was no city for a young girl on her own.

The Olds shuddered over the rough pavement and Sean steered hard right to avoid a deep pothole. Breakdowns in these derelict neighborhoods were a nightmare for motorists passing through the city. Roaming road gangs could strip the tires and engine off a vehicle in less than five minutes, while the owner tried to find a tow truck.

The heavy Oldsmobile rumbled off the highway and Sean headed toward the Willis Avenue Bridge. The car dove into a treacherous dip in the badly-maintained road and the chassis bottomed out with a screech of metal. The young girl stirred from her slumber and rubbed her eyes for several seconds. before asking, "Where are we?"

“Almost in Manhattan." Sean jerked the wheel left to avoid an axle-snapping chasm.

"Really?" Kittery was a small village. Portsmouth was barely a city. Boston was big, but not big like this. Her eyes widened in awe of the panorama of tall apartment buildings across the East River. “I never thought I’d make it.”

“I’m not a bad driver.” The Olds bisected a lane of cars. Horns blared and fists were shaken at the car exiting onto the ramp for Harlem.

“I believe you.” Tammi giggled, sounding twelve. “But the other cars are avoiding yours like it was a shark in a swimming pool."

"The gash on the side is thanks to your friend." The car chase in Connecticut had added an unwanted detour to the trip from Boston,

"And normally after a driver has an accident, they check out the damage." She lit a cigarette and the smoke bit into her lungs. "Meaning?” Sean fussed through the radio to find The Doors' RIDERS ON THE STORM.

“That this isn't your car.” Tammi smirked with the cigarette dangling from her lip. She had spent hours practicing the look in the mirror. “Don’t look so innocent. It’s obvious that this is a stolen car, but I won't report you to Santa Claus or the police."

"It’s not stolen. It was given to me."

“For a Thanksgiving Day present?”

“No, the owner paid me to make it disappear?”

“You do magic tricks like a magician.” The teenager mocked him with fake amazement.

“No, the car is a gas guzzler too much gas. Nobody wants to buy it, so the owner contacts me and I tell to leave it on the street with an extra set of keys under the seat. I drive to New York, park the car in a bad neighborhood, and leave the keys in the ignition, then it's stolen by real thieves and the the next day the owner reports the theft to the police. A month later he gets a check from the insurance company. Happy ending.” Sean hadn’t told any of his friends about his sideline. He shouldn't have told Tammi, but once she got out of the car, he would never see her again.

"You make it sound like you're doing a good deed.” She was a little young to be so sarcastic.

“Only the insurance company gets hurt." Baptized a Catholic Sean had given up of worrying about his immortal soul long ago. “And this is the last car I disappear.”

"I don’t give a fuck whether this is the first, last or the hundredth car you ‘disappeared’. To me it’s a ride.” Tammi twisted the dial to banish RIDERS ON THE STORM from the radio. "I hate that oldie music."

"Oldies? I saw the Doors in 1968. They played for three hours at the Uptown Bus in Boston. I started a band, hoping to be a rock god. All I ever played were pool parties.”

"Sorry, hippie boy, but this is 1976 not 1968." Tammi spun the knob to a droning voice accompanied by a 3-chord band and she sang along with the chorus. "Road, road, roadrunner, goin’ fifty mile an hour."

“Not bad.”

“Me?” Tammi wasn’t used to anyone say something good about her.

“You sound like Dusty Springfield without training.

“So you’re not only a car thief, but a musical expert.” Her father had listening to Dusty Springfield, so she didn’t take comment as an insult.

“I know music. Who’s playing now?” Sean slowed down to get off the bridge.

“I have no idea.” The local station out of Portsmouth was dominated by Top Ten Hits.

“That’s Jonathan Richman in the Modern Lovers and the song’s called ROADRUNNER.”

“I never heard it before, but I like it.” She turned up the volume, but when the song segued to BETH, she ruthlessly shut off Kiss’ hit and hummed Dolly Parton's JOLEEN.

"You hate the Doors and like country?" The driver grappled with the shuddering wheel, as the Olds sped down Lexington Avenue.

"At least you can sing country around a campfire." Tammi gawked at the forlorn projects and the black men on the sidewalks well past midnight. "Is this Harlem?"

"Yes,” Sean answered, pacing his speed to avoid stopping at a red light.

"I always pictured Harlem this way." The young girl was astonished by the number of black people on the sidewalks. "Bright lights. Lots of black people. There are no blacks back home."

“You know anyone in New York?” He was sure that the answer was no.

“No one from my town ever leaves it, but I have enough money to stay at a hotel.” Tammi examined the driver’s thick-boned face. He reminded her of an extra from a 1960s caveman movie, and she asked, "How about you and me splitting a hotel? Money goes longer with two than one."

"I....I..."

Tammi laughed at his stammering.

"Let me guess. You have a jealous girlfriend?"

“Sorry." Sean was two hours late for meeting Cheri.

"Sorry for having someplace to go?” She had done fine in Kittery owing no one nothing. “You in love?"

"Yes." Love was the only word to describe the feeling of Cheri’s embrace.

"Then all’s forgiven." Tammi stopped speaking and the Olds rolled down avenues and streets surrounded by the gauntlet of increasingly taller buildings. After fifteen minutes she pulled out a cigarette without lighting it and pressed her face to the window.

“I know where I am. This is where they drop the ball on New Year's Eve."

“It’s Times Square.” The glow of the marquees and flashing neon billboards camouflaged the area’s legendary sordidness. On the sidewalk two young boys were rummaging through a fallen man’s pockets. No one on the sidewalk interfered with the robbery.

"Tammi, no matter how terrible it was at home, you're too young for this. In 1969 I watched hundreds of girls flocking to the hippie corner in Boston Commons. They drifted away to free-love communes on Mission Hill or go-go bars in the Combat Zone. Each of those places were a thousand times safer than Times Square.”

"I’m willing to listen to an alternative.”

"I give you the money for a bus ticket home."

Tammi visualized the return ride to Kittery, her stepmother cooking turkey, her stepsister’s smug smile, the boys at school begging for a quick trip to the Fort, and the girls at school calling her the town pump.

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because this place was made for girls like me. Stop.” Tammi twisted her head.

“Where?” Sean cut off a yellow taxi and pulled over to the curb.

"Right there." Tammi pointed to a poster GIRLS WANTED underneath a blinking neon marquee.

“You can’t be serious.”

“Dead serious.” She pulled up on the door handle.

“This is wrong." The slender brunette was the same age as his youngest sister. "If it was so wrong, you'd be crying, hippie boy, besides I’ve heard that song, "If I can make it here, then I can make it anywhere.' It had to be true for somone, so why not me?"" Tammi leaned across the seat to kiss Sean with a tenderness better suited to the end of a junior prom date.

“What if they don’t give you a job?” Sean doubted that she had valid ID.

“Oh, they’ll give me a job.” Tammi smiled with the wanton pleasure of being who she wanted to be.

The teenager popped out of the car and clomped to the DOLLHOUSE in her one high heel. The brutish bouncer stopped Tammi, then she reached into her jacket and produce what seemed to be an ID, then danced a seductive Watusi as an audition. Ten seconds later the bouncer waved the teenager inside the Playpen. Her disappearance was too fast for his tastes and Sean opened the door to rescue her from the naked truth of Times Square.

A uniformed cop rapped his billyclub on the hood.

“Shut the door and move it. This is a no parking zone.”

"My friend went into the Dollhouse."

"Then she ain't comin' out any time soon." The scruffy cop shut the door with a shove. "You want to wait. Stick this shitbox into a parking lot."

"Yes, officer." Sean was angered at his inability to be two places at once, but he didn’t need the cop running the plate.

His right foot stomped on the gas and the Olds weaved out of Times Square with the big V8 begging for speed. The car might not have been owned by Sean, street maintenance was a low priority on the impoverished city administration’s agenda and 7th Avenue’ rutted surface challenged the Olds’ suspension to the limit.

At 34th Street the chrome bumper narrowly missed a bum’s shopping cart. At 23rd the under chassis once more blistered steel on a bump topped by a manhole and a meteor shower of sparks sprayed against the ragged asphalt. Sean turned west on 14th Street. By 8th Avenue the sidewalks were devoid of foot traffic. The lights were with him, as the tires rattled over unpaved cobblestones of the Meat Market.

The Olds turned south under the West Side Highway following the train track for a few blocks before crossing West Street. Sean braked hard to halt the Olds before the lip of the Hudson River embankment.

The headlights lit the first hundred yards of the black trough of water separating New York from the rest of America. Sean shoved the column shift into Park and turned off the engine without taking the keys. Stepping out of the car he zipped up his jacket and pulled a screwdriver from his pocket. Sean scanned the street.

The smell of Old’s burnt rubber mixed with the rank tidal water and a block north shadowy men wandered into a twisted metal pier. Cheri had explained that homosexual trespassers used the fire-scorched warehouse for shadowy orgies. Sexual outlaws were no threat to him.

He crouched behind the Olds and unscrew to the license plates, then repeated the process with the one on the front bumper, then tossing both into the river. A Checker taxi passed him. The driver didn’t even bother to look at him. This time of night there were no good reason to stop on this side of West Street and Sean grabbed his canvas bag from the rear of the Olds. He glanced across the street to the third-floor of the Terminal Hotel.

The corner room’s lights were out. Cheri had to be home by now. The waitress finished work at 2. Sean hefted the bag over his shoulder and smiled to himself, thinking about her naked in bed.

A new life awaited him and Sean eagerly climbed the Terminal Hotel’s crumbling steps, nearly knocking over a bottle of NightTrain shared by two winos. Their garbled curses barely grazed his ears, as he entered the musty lobby. No one alive had seen this establishment’s heyday and Sean vowed to move someplace better tomorrow.

"I'm here for Cheri." He rapped on the counter to wake the sleeping desk clerk’ attention and looked at keys on the wall. #301 was there.

“Cheri?” The wiry clerk scratched his unshaven jaw.

“She’s in room 301.” Sean dropped his bag on the floor. It had gotten heavy on the walk from the Olds.

“You mean she was in 301.” The clerk grinned without showing his teeth. Life had a funny way of not working out according to plans at the Terminal Hotel.

“What you mean ‘was’?” He shook his head in disbelief.

"Like past tense ‘was and now is not’."

"I was supposed to meet her." The old man had to be lying about her checking out.

"Hey, women change their minds." The clerk pretended to examine the ledger. “You musta missed her by three hours. Tough break.”

"Where'd she go?" Sean glanced over to a young blonde man in a leather jacket. He was paying too much attention to this conversation and Sean resisted telling him to mind his own business. This was not his city.

"She said Paris.” The clerk glanced overhead. “Plane’s probably halfway across the Atlantic by now."

"She leave a message?"

"Yer name is Sean?" The clerk grabbed a letter pinned to the wall.

"That's me." At this moment he wish that he was someone else.

"Then this is for you." The clerk suppressed a grin. “I read it earlier. You want me to tell you what it says.”

“No.” Sean dropped his bag and devoured the four sentences hoping to read a comforting explanation, instead Cheri had written that she was going to Paris to study art at the Sorbonne. There was no mention of ‘them’ or when she might returned. The last sunbeam in his solar system was sucked into a black hole with no promise of a dawn on the horizon.

"Bad news, kid?" asked the clerk fighting back a grin.

Sean shook his head and left the lobby with his bag over his shoulder. On the steps he released the letter and the night wind seized the page before it hit the sidewalk. Across West Street was a black river and he stumbled forward into the night.

Two seconds later Johnny Darling bent over to pick up the discarded letter from the sidewalk. He read the four lines in less than two seconds. Cheri’s words were as deadly as a script of a snuff film and the guitarist stuffed the sheet of paper into his pocket before trailing the hippie down the sidewalk.

Plenty of men left the Terminal Hotel blanketed by a similar despair. More than a few ended up in the river.

When Cheri's rejected lover reached the other side of the West Side Highway and punched the hood of a dented Chevy Vega with New Jersey plates. The metal buckled under his fists and Johnny shouted, "Go easy on that car. It’s already been knocked out."

“Get the fuck away from me.” The hippie lashed out a quick right.

“Slow down, Sean, I'm not trying to fuck with you." Johnny sidestepped the roundhouse swing and lifted his hands to demonstrate his harmlessness.

"Who the hell are you?" Sean snarled at the intruder to his fury with red murder in his eyes.

"I'm Johnny. I live at the Terminal.” Johnny didn't need a broken nose and wisely kept his distance from the hippie.

“And?” Sean pushed his hair out of his face.

“Cheri was my friend and I'm sorry to tell you that you’re not the first guy whose heart she broken. She had this hillbilly boyfriend from West Virginia named Bix. I think he was studying math at the New School. Anyway they went out for a year, but Cheri never kissed Bix. Not once. After she deserted him, Bix moved in a cave in Central Park, mumbling numbers like a bingo announcer. His parents finally committed him to a mental hospital”

“I’m not Bix,” Sean had heard a different version from Cheri.

“I'm not saying that you are, but Cheri had a little problem of letting men confused lust for love and men had an even bigger problem with her small problem.” Johnny intuitively recognized how the hippie brutal features might have appealed to Cheri, who balanced deep-seeded sexual masochism with a dangerous streak of mental sadism. “You know she talked about you?"

"What she say?" Sean demanded with the desperation of a drowning man swimming to a sinking raft.

“She said you were from Boston, wrote poetry, and stole cars. That you?" "Yeah." Sean nodded with a heavy head. "She say why she left New York?"

"The hotel clerk said she was spooked.”

“Spooked?”

“Love scares people.”

"Damnit." Sean had believed his own lies and punched the car again and again.

"Stop it, breaking your hands won’t bring her back." Johnny hauled the hippie way from the Chevy. The owner was probably in the pier fucking a complete stranger.

"Oh, yeah, watch this." Sean shrugged off Johnny and smashed a window with a left hook.

"Suit yourself, but it's not easy eating pizza with a busted hand."

"You think I want pizza." The hippie lifted his bleeding knuckles.

"Not tonight, but maybe tomorrow." No city had better pizza than New York.

"Fuck pizza today and tomorrow."

"ou”re only saying that because you can't see tomorrow." Cheri's lover was primed for the taking and Johnny unreeled his pitch with the glib ease of a carnival barker shilling a Kewpie doll to a ten year-old girl’s father. "You have two choices.”

“Two?” Sean hadn't thought that he had any.

>“One, go back to Boston.”

"Impossible. I burnt all my bridges back there.” Sean understood Tammi’s decision better now.

"Tough walking across a burnt bridge, so choice number two is stay here.”

Sean surveyed the grimy belly of the West Side Highway. Water dripped from the steel girders and rats scurried along the struts supporting the roadway. He gasped for breath. The air smelled of rotten meat. This city was rotten to the core and he said, "I came here to be with Cheri and now she's gone."

"So if you go, where will you go."

"I don't know."

Johnny sensed the wavering of of his indecision and said, “You can always leave tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow?”

“Leave today, leave tomorrow. No one is stopping you. Do what you want. It’s your life.”

Sean took a deep breath. Driving a stolen car was a bad idea. He needed sleep and picked up his bag. "I'll stay the night. Tomorrow I'll figure out tomorrow."

"Now you're thinking. Let's get you a room." Johnny accompanied Sean across West Street at a slow pace. "Once you're settled, we can eat. How's that sound?"

"I'm not hungry." This evening was unfolding as a scene cut from MIDNIGHT COWBOY with him as Cowboy and Johnny cast in the role of Ratso. This deja vu worsened inside the Terminal Hotel, where the wizened clerk smiled, as if he had expected to see Sean again.

"So Sean, yer wanna a room? 301 is available. It even had a view."

"I know it." Sean slapped a twenty and signed the register.

"That's right." Ernie wasn't worried the hippie might try something stupid, then again stupidity was how most people ended up at the Terminal Hotel and he slid the key across the desk. "Enjoy yer stay, Mr. Coll."

"C'mon, I'll be your bellhop." Johnny lifted the canvas bag and climbed the stairs to the third floor maintaining a constant banter to prevent Sean from rethinking a hasty decision. “Most tourists visit New York for the Statue of Liberty and the Empire State Building. I’ve lived here most of my life and I haven’t been to any tourist places, because I’m into music and not concert rock, but clubs and bars. You know what you need. Some music to soothe your soul."

"I don't think so."

"Too bad, because Max's and CBGB's offer four bands a night." Johnny stopped before Cheri's old room."

"I said I'm not interested." Sean stared at the door.

"Okay, okay, I get the message, but if you need anything, knock on 301. Anything at all."

“Thanks.” Sean stepped into the room and shut the door. He ignored the cracked walls, the dangling flypaper, and the nude painting on the wall, because a faint fragrance belonging to Cheri lingered in her absence.

She should be in this room with him.

Only last weekend they had lay in bed naked. She had said that she would be waiting. He wasn’t supposed to be alone now.

Sean went to the window and tried to open it. The management had nailed it shut and he took a step back to a running start only to hear Johnny ask, "Did Cheri's leaving hurt that much."

Sean saying nothing said everything. Johnny wasn’t letting Cheri's jilted lover jump through the window to give EMS drivers a chance at his money and stepped into the small room.

"Listen, you'll fall in love again and sooner than you fear.”

“Fear?”

“Love is never love without the risk. I have a good idea. We should go get a drink."

"I'm not into gay bars."

“I know that, but I'm talking about CBGB's. It's not straight and it's not gay. Boston has nothing like it." "I don't know. "What there not to know?" Cheri's lover was smart to mistrust him, although anyone’s misgivings melted after a taste Johnny’s 'special' drink. “CBGB's is rock and rock, cheap drinks, loose girls, and much more.”

“Much more sounds too good to be true.”

"Perhaps it is, considering CBGBs’ is an abbreviation for country-bluegrass-blues.” Johnny had forgotten the meaning of the OMFUG on the awning.

“Country?” Sean remembered Tammi singing along with Dolly Parton. She was dancing naked in Times Square. He should have taken up her offer of sharing a room. “I don’t care for country.”

“No one plays country at CBGBs.” Not since punk took over the stage.

"Is it far?" He wiped his bloodied hands with a soiled towel.

"Less than ten minutes away.” Tonight was working out with his first meeting Charles and now Sean. He had given the first a miss, but there was no way the hippie wasn't paying for his introduction to New York. “You'll love CBGBs. Trust me."

"Okay."

Two minutes later the two young men left the hotel. A taxi stopped for them on Jane Street. Johnny gave the driver an address on Bowery. It was a little after 3am and he had one more job to do before he could sleep for the night, until then there was no rest for the wicked.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 5


"It’s your story, Benny. You tell it." Sal Cucci scanned the tables in the Italian restaurant on 114th Street for unfamiliar faces and nodded to the squat forty-year old whose face was bracketed by coke-bottle glasses. Benny Bottles bowed in deference to his Gucci-dressed capo. "Two years ago I'm in Hell's Kitchen, puttin' muscle on a Jew pimp shortin’ us protection on a couple of skank parlors. The Yid forks over a G, sayin’ there’s ‘nother envelope at a massage parlor. I left thinkin’ that was too easy, and on 43rd Street four Westie bastards ask fer a light." Bilingual profanities circled the table and Benny Bottles emptied his glass of Chianti. "I tell the potato-eaters to get out of my way. Their steppin’ away shoulda warned they wuz trouble, cuz them stunata Mick bastards ain’t scared of shit. Anyway I hear a hammer bein’ cocked and sez, "Benny, you’re dead."

Benny’s eyes floated behind his smudged glasses like hard-boiled eggs in a jar. “Four shots. Pop, pop, pop, pop. I fall to the ground and one aims the .22 at my head. I shut my eyes, hear another pop, and they walk away laughin'. Only I wuzn't dead, cuz not one of the five shots penetrated my thick skull."

"No fuckin’ way.” The man to the right had heard the story a dozen times and loved Benny’s lifting his sweep-over to reveal several scars puckering his scalp.

“Would I be here, if I wuz lyin’?” The massive shylock knocked on his skull to produce a hollow thud. “Naw, the sciafozas musta been usin' old bullets, cuz they skipped around my head. At the hospital the doctors wanna study me. I ain’t no freak show and left with my head wrapped in a turban. You shoulda seen them Mick bastards' faces in the Shamrock Bar. I stick my biscuit in the shooter’s face and say, "Shoulda used a .45. Catch."

The four men pounded the table laughing and one asked, "And the others?"

"They're Irish, right?"

"Yeah, so?"

"So I kneecapped the IRA fuckin' leprechauns and the Yid, well, he’s sleepin’ good these days.” Benny jiggled a dance in his chair and the other three men saluted his deadly wit with raised glasses.

Their boss caught an unperceivable movement of the restaurant owner’s head and it wasn’t to the time of George Benson’s MASQUERADE on the stereo. Sal Cucci stood silently and the others partially rose to their feet. He motioned them to sit. "Order another bottle of wine. I'll be right back"

Sal Cucci joined the owner at the front door. The dapper restaurateur had dealt with gangsters throughout his adult life and understood the less said the better. "A young man is waiting to speak with you. Should I tell him to leave?"

"Naw, it's okay" Sal thanked the restaurant owner, who led a party of Queens politicians to a corner table. The thickset gangster signaled for Benny. The legbreaker shambled to the front and Sal drew back the curtain.

“Bet the little shit gonna beg for his lamest friend’s life.” Benny pointed to the young man leaning against the Lincoln.

“Yeah.” Sal kept it simple with Benny Bottles. “Watch my back.”

The gangster stepped onto the sidewalk. A trio of young Negroes rounded the corner, their eyes gleaming with hatred. Harlem had enough problems without pissing off the Mob and they disappeared into the night. Sal cautiously approached Bobby Vacca and asked, "How you find me?"

"You eat here every Tuesday nights.”

"Don’t pay so much attention to other people’s doin'. Where's the fagala?"

"He's home." 250 mm of Seconal had buried Charles Ames III under silk covers.

“Sleeping.”

"You’re supposed to stay with him." Sal yanked up his pants, wishing Gucci had designed them with a belt.

"I watch ‘Chuckie’ wake at noon, read the paper, have his therapy, and everything else, but shit. I drive him around the city. Here, there, and everywhere. And he stays in the car. He never gets out. Well, once at this sex club with his sister for a half-hour and another time to have dinner with his father at a hotel.” Bobby surveyed the overhang of the gangster's belly. Sal Cucci was soft. Vulnerable. “In three months nothing's happened."

“You gonna stay at that job, till I say ‘quit’ and why?” Sal Cucci poked the younger man’s chest. “You clipped a bunch of banks widout my say-so.”

“I didn’t see your name on them.” Each of the fourteen robberies had been trouble-free; no partners, no snitches, and no one dipping into his score.

“Funny gets even funnier when I see you pull a job. Funny why? Because I wouldn’t have seen you, if I didn’t stop for a slice of pizza.”

“Secrets don’t stay secrets too long in Brooklyn.”

“So I sez what am I gonna do with you? Benny wanted to put an X on you, I said no. I admired you goin’ into a bank with a piece of tape to your nose and a note sayin’

"Gimme money or I kill you." Plus you had the balls to hit three banks on the 7th Avenue within an hour.”

"Once the cops responded to the first robbery call, the next two were mine for the taking."

“And that’s why I let you live. Cuz you were smart. Now you’re stupid to leave Chuckie Ames III alone."

The kid was too smart for his tastes and Sal swung an open palm at Bobby’s head to teach him some respect, except the young man blocked the disciplinary blow. The young man backed away with raised hands.

“I left him because I had something to tell you.” Driving Charles Ames III had cured any fears outside of boredom. "Chuckie met this hustler.”

“Who?” No one had stopped Sal’s punch in years.

"Two weeks ago he starts watching this arichone in Times Square.” Bobby had been amused by the hustler’s screwing with the police and taking off the public with a combination of cunning, luck, and timing. “Tonight after the punk rolls a drunk, Charles invites him into the car."

"You expect less from an iarrusu?"

"His walking funny don’t make him a fag." Bobby defended the millionaire. "Anyway this hustler closes the window between the front and back seats. It doesn’t matter, because I had bored several holes through the glass. I heard every word of their conversation."

"And?" As much as he hated Bobby Vacca for stopping his slap, Sal listened with peaked
interest, because the wannabe had ambition and ambition led to money.

"They're forming a rock band."

"You mean like the BeeGees?" Sal liked light rock. So did his goumada, when they were making love. His wife on the other hand only appreciated Dean Martin and thought Frank Sinatra was a gavone. He didn’t know nothing.

“No, a little more rock.”

“Peter Frampton?” He had fenced a hot truckload of his LPs to a midtown chain.

“Music you and I have never heard about before. Punk.”

“Punk?” The word had a special meaning in prison. Someone who took it from another man. On the street the word meant someone who was nothing. Sal would have killed anyone calling him a punk. "You seen this fag before?"

"He’s a grifter." Bobby snatched at a snowflake and it melted in his hand. “No threat, but he gave me an idea how to scam Chuckie.

"Yeah, how?" The Ames fortune was real money. Seven-figure plus. Sal wanted it all, but would settle for a piece.

“A kidnapping.”

“Kidnappin’ is a mug’s game.”

"It’s a mug's game been in my family for generations." His grandfather had eloped with his grandmother. She was only sixteen. After three weeks her family had consented to their marriage and they had lived happily ever after. “We nab the victim. I act the hero. Our crew the villain. Comes time for the pay-off, they give me the money and I switch it for a bag filled with newspapers. I whack the fall guy and the cops connect his disappearance to the kidnapping. End of story.”

“Who’s the fall guy?”

“The hustler.”

"And why would they give you the money?"

"Cause the rich kid trusts me."

“Why would he trust you?”

“Because he doesn’t have a choice. It’s me or no one. He doesn’t know anyone else.”

"If you grab him, how can he give you the cash?" ‘Gucci Cucci’ picked at the obvious hole in the plan.

"We're grabbing his sister." The simplicity of this switch was its beauty.

"The nympho sister?”

"She's no nympho only a little loose," Bobby’s own embellishments on Caroline Ames' trysts at the Flamingo or Sahara clubs were to blame for ‘Gucci’ Cucci's claim.

"Goin' home with two girls one night and two guys the next.” Sal Cucci believed the sanctity of marriage. His monthly tithes to the Church helped smooth over his more grievous acts with God. “That's more than a little loose."

"Her sexual habits are unimportant. Blood is blood even for the rich."

"How much you talkin’?"

"I've seen his bank statements. Read what the money other kidnappings net in Italy and the States; Frank Sinatra for his son and that Getty kid with the chopped-off ear. I figure Chuckie is good for $500,000 no sweat."

"Anyone else approaches me with this, I give it a miss.” Kidnapping was a major gamble for a twenty-three year-old, although a life prison sentence was a much better fate than Sal had in store for Bobby Vacca. “Money aside, why you doin’ this?”

“To get Benny Bottles off Louie Zip.”

“Your best buddy is into us ten large. Doesn’t pay the vig. Doesn’t call. Stays in that bunker under his mother’s house.” Sal Cucci hated men hiding behind a woman’s skirt. “He’s a dead man.”

Spring of 1966 Louie and Bobby had skipped school and ridden the A train to Rockaway Beach. The weather was warm and they swam in their underwear. The waves were huge and a shore breaker smashed Bobby to the sand. The undertow sucked him over his head. Louie rescued him with an inner tube stolen from a fat kid. Johnny owed him his life and more. It was all for them and screw anyone else, however there was only one problem.

Louie Zip was a gambling fiend and his was unlucky with sports, horses, and cards. Sure things went bust if he bet them. People actually asked his bet on the Super Bowl to bet the other way. Everyone in Bensonhurst loved him for that gift. Walking away from Louie Zip was the smart move, but they were brothers from another mother and he asked Sal, “What if I eat his marker?”

“You have $10,000?”

“No, I’ll cut you in for 30% of the kidnapping.”

“Make it 50%.”

“And Louie’s off the hook?”

“If you come up with the money from the kidnapping.” Louie Zip wasn’t leaving that basement to give them a shot at him. “No money and he’s lookin’ at serious trouble.”

“I understand.” Bobby spotted Benny Bottles’ head in the window. Favors for friends were fatal sometimes. “I could use money for a safe house and supplies.”

“How much?”

“Two thou for now.”

“Keep it away from your degenerate friend.” Sal peeled off $2000 from a fat roll.

"Thanks, Mr. Cucci, I won't let you down." Bobby had initially considered keeping ‘Gucci’ Cucci in the high weeds about this opportunity, however while the police might accuse the hustler of the crime, the veteran mobster would definitely finger him as suspect number one and extract his cut in flesh and bones.

"Thank me, when the money is in my pocket." Sal punched the young man's arm and Bobby recoiled a couple of feet. He still had his touch. "Now get to work."

"I’m on my way." Bobby acknowledged the threat by submissively hunching his shoulders.
It was a good act. His arm was aching, but he had been hit harder in his life. In his mind Sal was getting soft. Bobby sat behind the wheel of the Lincoln and nodded his head to the gangster.

Sal didn't acknowledge Bobby and remained in the street, as the black car drove south into the city. Benny Bottles exited from the restaurant. His right hand was in his pocket. He kept a Beretta there. His 45 was in the car. He stood next to Sal and pick at a tooth. It was rotten. His wife kept asking him to go to the dentist. He wasn't getting it fixed until he capped Louie Zip.

"So did the punk beg for his asshole buddy’s life?”

“He’s suckin’ up Louie’s marker.” Bobby's proposal presented no danger to him. $500,000 was a good payday. They’d kill the wannabes afterwards. It was foolproof.

“If I give Louie Zip a free-be, every stiff in Brooklyn welshes on their juice and I can’t whack a couple of thousand losers, can I?”

Sal Cucci ignored his henchman’s griping.

"You ever kidnap anyone before?"

"Naw, they always botch the pay-off.” His boss wasn’t in the habit of referring to a subject without a cash payback and Benny Bottles squinted behind the thick glasses.

“Why you ask?"

"I'll explain later.” A secret was best protected by not telling it. “Jest call off your dogs.”

“That fuck.” He had been looking forward to killing Louie Zip as a Christmas gift.
Sal Cucci chopped his hand in the air for a time-out. “No one said nothin’ about you not gettin’ square with him and his asshole buddy.”

“That’s different then.”

“You bet it is.”

The promise of a postponed two-fer-one killing calmed Benny. A bullet to the head might be an unfair reward for Louie Zip and Bobby Vacca, unless you considered each pie had a limited number of slices and Sal Cucci’s appetite was just another person’s tough luck. It was simple math, if you didn’t believe in fractions.