Showing posts with label times square. Show all posts
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Monday, July 27, 2026

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 1

CHAPTER 1

The November sun flashed off a West Village window and the wavering reflection stalked the Christopher Street pier to a lone youth tuning a battered guitar. The bleached blonde twenty year-old broke into a sly smile and the sapphire shimmer transformed the leather boy into a fallen angel regaining his halo. Nearly every mother and father in America would have ordered their children to avoid him as the complete opposite of America's Bicentennial Spirit. His skin pallor rivaled the paleness of the rising moon and no suburban mall stocked his black leather jacket, torn T-shirt, or heavy engineer boots. Most teenagers would have obeyed their parents' command, but not all of them.

The heavenly mirage disappeared with a windmill slash against the steel strings of the Les Paul. Johnny Darling shut his eyes and envisioned a small stage. Overhead lighting enveloped a drummer, bassist, and keyboard player. A teenage Lolita rasped words of love and no tomorrows in imitation of the Velvet Underground's Nico. The imagined feedback of Marshall Amps buzzed in his ears. The audience might have materialized within his eyelids, if a young boy's voice hadn't shattered Johnny's trance.

"Hey, man."

This time of night only gay bashers and leather freaks frequented the derelict Christoper Street piers and the guitarist waited for the last chords to fade beneath the subsonic range before turning to address the intruder. The Puerto Rican teenager in a distressed leather jacket was two inches shorter than Johnny and his slanted eyes hinted at a drop of Han blood in his Taino veins. Times Square johns found Frankie Domingo pretty, despite the scars crisscrossing his seventeen year- old body. Johnny thought the same.

"Thanks for letting me finish?"

"I been waiting thirty minutes." A gust blew a shank of greased hair across

Frankie's olive eyes. "That a new song?"

"Just three chords strung together." Johnny's thumb rubbed his calloused fingertips.

"Doesn't get more basic than that." Frankie rattled off a drum roll with frayed sticks.

"Got these from Jerry Nolan at Max's Kansas City last night."

"How were the Heartbreakers?" Johnny had skipped the last night's show to entertain a customer.

"Straight and the crowd loved them." Frankie hunched his shoulders with a shiver. "They got paid a $100 each. When we gonna get a band together?"

"Now I have my guitar back, we can audition for the other members."

"Great." Frankie stepped from side to side to relieve the damp seeping through his sneakers' paper-thin soles and stammered, "Johnny, you got ten dollars?"

"The pawnshop took my last fifty." Johnny slapped his guitar.

"Damn, I wish we could get out of here." Frankie moaned like a runaway in need of a dime to phone Mom for a bus ticket home. He blew on his fingers. He hated the cold.

"To go where?"

"What about Florida?" Frankie pointed to the cars on the Westside Highway overhead and glanced south, as if the Sunshine State lay beyond the New Jersey docks. "How far away is it? Five hours?"

"More like twenty-four, if you drive straight through the night."

"What about by plane?" The young Puerto Rican's teeth chattered at a 10/10 beat.

"Where we getting the money for two plane tickets?"

"We hijack a plane. Tell them to give us a million dollars like in DOG DAY AFTERNOON?" Frankie had seen that bank robbery movie five times on 42nd Street and pumped his fist in the air. "Attica, Attica."

"Aren't you forgetting how the cops shoot Pacino's friend in the head?" "Movies aren't real." Frankie had seen enough of films on 42nd Street. "DOG DAY AFTERNOON was based on a real bank robbery."

"It was?"

"Yeah, but it ended the same way. With his friend dead." The guitarist grabbed the young boy's thin arm.

"Your parents live in Florida. That sounds like a ‘happy ever' after to me. If you called them, would they wire you money to come home?"

"Yes, and tomorrow night we'll be eating my Mom's homemade apple pie." "I love apple pie." Frankie licked his lips.

"Only one problem." Johnny gestured toward Manhattan.

"Don't say what I think you're going to say."

"I'm not leaving this behind."

"Fuck this city?" Frankie spun on his heels and chucked the battered drumsticks into the river. "All I got here are hustles, an empty stomach and the smell of old man's hands on my skin, and you don't have it much better."

Johnny slipped the guitar into its case and walked toward the elevated highway. "I left Florida for the same reason you want to run away from New York."

"I hope this isn't an intro to the gypsy lady story."

"Why not? The first day I arrived here, this fortune teller in the Village read my palms. LEft for the past. Right for the future. She said my name was destined to be up in lights." Johnny stopped on the curb of West Street and turned to Frankie. "Me and you are going to make it here as rock stars."

"But not tonight." Frankie kicked an empty beer can into the gutter.

"No, not tonight." Johnny couldn't lie to his protege. "Tomorrow Max's will put on a turkey feast for us orphans."

"So tonight?" Frankie could handle anything as long as he was with Johnny.

"Tonight we go to work." The uptown light on West Street changed to green and suburb-bound cars accelerated to catch up with the synchronized signals.

"53rd and 3rd?" Frankie had had his fill of the sissies at those piano bars.

Across the street men prowled the sidewalks in search of nameless sex. There was success for all in the shadows. A few lurked between the trucks parked underneath the elevated highway. How they were celebrating the night before Thanksgiving was no mystery.

"No, tonight we're competing with midnight cowboy crowd."

"Times Square?" Frankie sighed with resignation.

"Times Square is about luck."

"Heads I win, tails you lose and never give a sucker a break."

"Exactly."

"How I look?" Johnny slung the case's strap over his shoulder and pulled up the collar of his torn leather jacket.

"Like a prince." Frankie once more blew on his numb hands. He was cold. "Where anyone from Jerome Avenue meet a prince?"

"My grandmother read fairy tales. They really have princes and princesses?"

"Real as you and me, except they were born in a palace. Not a Barrio in the Bronx or Queens." The chilled air scrapped over Johnny's right lung like a boat striking a reef and he touched his chest. His cough wasn't a cold.

"You meet one?" Frankie was oblivious to his friend's discomfort.

"Not this side of the silver screen." Johnny fought off the shakes, feeling his ‘jones' knocking on the door. "Princes and princesses are like any suckers. We meet one and what we do?"

"We take them for everything." Frankie snapped his fingers.

"And leave them begging for more." The ache faded from Johnny's chest and he draped his arm over the younger boy. "Just one more thing."

"I know what you're going to say." Their conversation tended to be scripted rituals on these occasions.

"You're going to tell me not to trust anyone."

"Trust no one is survival rule # 1 in New York." Times Square killed lots of people who broke that rule. "That means me too."

"I'm a big boy." Frankie accepted the warning, since his childhood had revealed the worst New York had to offer the young.

"Then let's head to Times Square." Johnny dashed onto West Street.

"Watch out, Johnny."

Two taxis swerved to avoid the guitarist.

"For what? I'm going to live forever," Johnny shouted from the other side of the street. Believing in anything other than his immortality was a sacrilege, at least until he reached twenty-one and that birthday was more than a year away and a year was an eternity when you were twenty.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 3

Thirty-one shopping days remained until Christmas, yet not a single wreath adorned the entrance of the porno shops, strip clubs, or X-rated theaters above 42nd Street and any Santa Claus, real or fake, steered clear of Times Square, where hapless victims were robbed, cheated, murdered or worse without any interference from the Law, for the 'Deuce' had been designated a free-for-all red-light district by NYC officials in hopes of containing the city's rampant sex and drug traffic. Standing in front of the Haymarket Bar Johnny Darling bore silent witness to the overwhelming failure of the politicians’ social experiment.

All along the Minnesota Strip suburban tricks hijacked teenage runaways straight off a bus from the Midwest and slick hustlers struck cowboy poses on the street corners, while unsuspecting hicks were trailed down dark streets by dope-hungry muggers. The action should have tapered off before Thanksgiving, except the players on the Strip were dedicated to acting naughty and not the least bit nice and tonight was no exception.

A sharp gust unraveled a pile of trash and the discarded newspapers scattered over the sidewalk. Johnny dodged a page, as the door to the Haymarket opened for a tall blonde transvestite in a white leather jacket and tight matching pants.

"Leaving so soon, Dove?" Johnny asked, blowing into his bare hands.

"Just taking a break from my date's complaining about his wife." The blonde sashayed behind Johnny for shelter from the cold and she towered over him taller in her stiletto heels. She wasn't wearing a shirt or bra and her heavily made-up eyes simmered with slattern lust, as if she were auditioning for a porno film. "What about you? Any luck?"

"A wasteland and I need a quick score to pay my rent." The twenty-year old leaned into the slender beauty, whose translucent skin radiating an unnatural heat for this time of year.

"If you help me, I'll help you, my dear dear Johnny." The young transvestite caressed the blonde guitarist's neck with a tenderness of a girl scout recovering a long-lost teddy bear.

"It's a deal. You know I have simple tastes,"Johnny declared over KC's THAT'S THE WAY booming on the bar's jukebox. "My guitar, drinking at a bar, eating a little food, good music, and someplace warm to sleep."

"What about the gypsy's woman’s prediction of fame and fortune?” Dove cuddled closer to the guitarist with each syllable.

“I’m haven’t given up on stardom, although you’re the only star in this night’s sky.”

"You’ve always had a sweet way with words.”

“Only for my friends.” Johnny had witnessed Dave’s transformation to Dove in the seclusion of her parents’ bedrooms. Her mother’s lingerie and make-up had given way to clothing stolen from Macy’s. “But you’ve been a star ever since we dressed you up as Jodie Foster in TAXI DRIVER.”

“A pink tube top, white silk hot pants, and red spaghetti strap pumps.” Dove sighed with fondness of her debut on the Strip.

“You stopped the traffic dead on 42nd Street.”

“That act was good for a teenage summer. Now I’ve matured into a Vogue model. Last night at Les Jardins this designer asked me to be in his fashion show. He was I would be a sensation.”

“As you are every night.” 42nd Street was Dove’s runway. The eyes of the men seeking her attention were the cameras. The nineteen year-old sold glamor by the hour and her buyers understood the risk and price of that transaction.

“But really, Johnny, when are you going take me away from all this?” Dove twirled a lacquered strand of hair in her fingers.

“I’m starting a new band.”

“Another band playing to a hundred punks at CBGB’s or Max’s is not buy tickets to the South of France.” Dove sighed with exasperation.

“Knowing your tastes, I’d have to sell out Madison Square Garden to afford a vacation on the Riviera.” Johnny stepped aside for a priestly gentleman and two teenagers entering the Haymarket. His companions were above the legal age, but pretended to be 16 and Dove said, “They won’t pass for jailbait much longer.”

“Not unless they lower the lighting inside.””¨

"Dark lighting is a girl’s best make-up.” Dove hushed into Johnny’s ear. “You hear about Jimmie Bags?”

“How the cops gave their favorite bagman a machine gun for his birthday and how later the drunken idiot tested the gift at a nightclub, nearly wounding three cops in the line of duty?” People on the Deuce told him everything, although sometimes Johnny wished that he could retire from his unofficial position as the Strip’s confessor, except the only applicants for the job were the police and no one plea-bargained their sins with the Law.

“You hear and see all.” Dove backed away from her longtime friend to survey the Strip.

“And on no account do I tell all.” Whatever entered his ear didn’t break the seal of his lips.

“That’s my baby.” Dove kissed Johnny’s cheek. The street was too rough on her kind and she told him, “I got to get back inside and save my date from the claw's of some Miss Thing’s. Mr. DeMille, I’m ready for my scene.”

Dove entered the bar and a passing middle-aged trick beamed an inviting smile. Johnny shook his head, indicating that he was waiting for a better offer, then silently asked, “How long I been saying that?”

Most of his old friends and competitors were in jail or dead, for Times Squares’ math was as loaded against hustlers as crooked dice. Chilled by the premonition of his luck crapping out, Johnny scanned the quagmire of faces shuffling along the sidewalk. Two seconds later Frankie scooted up to him and announced, “We have a live one on the way.”

“Left or right?” Johnny asked defensively, since his protege specialized in unnecessary risks.

“The loaded white guy was checking out on the last block. He spots me and I motion for him to follow me.” Frankie glimpsed over his shoulder.

An overweight businessman with his tie adrift at the neck was staggering through the crowd.

“I’ll take him into a peep show and pickpocket his wallet.” Frankie bounced on his toes with too much eagerness.

“We have to give him a miss.”

“He’s drunk.” Frankie was puzzled by the rejection of this sucker.

“Take a closer look. Those thick-soled shoes are for running and the undercover cop across the street is back-up. You want to spend the night in Spofford?”

“At least Juvie Hall is warm.” Last summer Frankie had racked up two thirty-day bids in the Bronx jail famed for rotten food, sadistic guards, and bloody gang beatings. “I need money.”

“The night is young,” Johnny assured the drummer, although the theater had let out their audiences. The easy marks were being replaced by drunks with little cash in their pockets and their fellow hustlers were switching to the more predatory pursuits of purse-snatching or knifepoint robberies.

“And colder too.” Frankie wanted everything yesterday.

“We’ll score soon." Without one he was sleeping in an all-night theater on 42nd Street.

"I hope so.” Frankie swept back his hair. “How I look?”

“Like a young Richie Valens.”

“How many times I have to tell you.” The young boy stood with raised fists. “I’m Puerto Rican, not Mexican.”

Johnny slipped a left under Frankie’s guard. His knuckles barely tapped the teenager’s chin. Frankie dropped his hand and tears dampened the corners of his eyes.”¨

"What I tell you about fighting?" Faking fighting prowess could be a fatal error on the Strip, where everyone was a potential killer.

“That we’re lovers, not fighters.”

"That's right." Johnny gave Frankie two dollars. He was down to three. “Stop your crying and go get warm.”

“You know where I’ll be.” The young boy hurried to the subterranean Eight Avenue arcade. $2 bought eight pinball games out of the cold and Frankie was skilled enough to last an hour at the KISS machine. If nothing happened before then, Johnny was calling it a night.

WALK ON THE WILD SIDE replaced KC’s disco hit inside the Haymarket and Johnny fingered Lou Reed’s anthem on air guitar. His Les Paul was safe with the cashier of ShowWorld and he sang along with the irresistible chorus.

“In the backroom she was everyone’s darling.” Johnny stepped forward to allow an exit from the bar. It was Dove and she stuck a wallet in his hand, as she sang, “But she never lost her head, even when she was giving head."

“Meet me at Adonis.” She tugged on her paper-thin white leather coat and clattered around the corner seconds before a mustached man in his thirties burst from the Haymarket, his head bopping on his shoulders like a turtle on Speed and his hands clawing at his pockets. Any honest citizen would have been shouting for the police.

“You see a tall blonde?”

“She have on a white coat?” Johnny knitted his brow with concern.

“Yeah, that’s the one.” The sucker bought his sincerity with frantic gratitude. His wedding ring meant a wife in the suburbs. Most of Dove’s tricks were straight or so they told themselves.

“Which way she go?”

His having heard the truth about the coat primed the man for a lie.

“She headed toward the Port Authority. Maybe thirty seconds ago.”

“Thanks.” The man darted down the crowded sidewalk.

“Just doing my civic duty.” Johnny casually crossed the avenue, for running was a sure sign of guilt in Times Square. Opposite the Haymarket he pulled the cash from the wallet, which he dumped in the nearest trash can.

Farther down the block Johnny counted the bills before stepping into the foyer of the Adonis Theater. Dove was leaning against a poster promoting a gay sex movie. Johnny slipped the money into her jacket pocket.

“Nice little score.” She returned five $20s to Johnny.

“Are you sure?” His take was on the generous side.

“Most of the scum on this street would have stiffed me.”

“We go back plus I have three rules; trust no one more than you trust yourself, steal from the most deserving, and avoid the deadly sin of greed.”

“You’re such a good Catholic boy, too bad you’re not into women.” Dove strived hard to sound like a young Tallulah Bankhead.

“Never said I didn’t like women.”

“You ever been with one?” Dove fluttered her eyes at a mustached passer-by.

“You know better than that. All the women care about is turning me straight.”

“So there’s no hope for me?” Dove cinched the belt of her leather jacket and Johnny poked his head around the corner of the foyer. There was no sign of her victim.

“You never know.” He wasn’t into to women, but Dove was not a woman and he said, “One day I might love you.”

“I’ll be counting the minutes till then.” The transvestite strutted to the curb and flagged a taxi. A checker stopped in the street and Dove flipped a loose strand of hair from her face. “You care for a ride to CBGBs? The Ramones are headlining.”

“I have to take care of Frankie.” $42 covered his back-rent at the Terminal Hotel and a twenty would happy up the young Puerto Rican drummer and leaving him $38. It was time to call it a night.

“You’re a soft touch.” Dove waved good-bye from the taxi window. “That kid will be the death of you.”

“He’s no trouble. No more than you.”

“No trouble? Baby, trouble’s my adopted last name?” Dove shouted out the window, as the taxi turned left on the next street. Johnny pulled up his collar and clocked the foot traffic on the sidewalks. The scammers outnumbered the scammed 5 to 1 and he hurried down the sidewalk dreaming about his bed at the Terminal Hotel.

His foot stepped onto the pavement of 44th Street only to have a black 1976 Lincoln TownCar block his path and a hand as white as smoke beckoned from the rear window. Johnny peered through the crack at a grim blonde boy in a black silk bathrobe and pajamas suspecting a set-up, but pale-skinned teenagers were only narcs on TV cops shows.

“I know you?”

“No.” His voice was barely audible. “But I know you.”

Johnny didn’t like hearing that or the lock popping up open.

“You want me in the car?”

“If you please.” The young man replied with a private school accent hoarse from disuse.

“Who can’t resist such politeness.” Johnny sat in the car. The interior smelled of medicine, instead of leather.

“You’re staring.” The pajamaed passenger slouched against the opposite door, as if his back had been hammered out of place.

“It’s not often you meet Howard Hughes’ illegitimate son.”

“It’s Hugh Hefner who wears pajamas.” His host was annoyed by the levity.

“Sorry, I get millionaires mixed up.” Johnny lifted his hands in apology.

“Where to?” The thick-necked driver coughed in front.

“Down the block." A sheet of black glass cut them off from front seat and the car drove farther from 8th Avenue. The passenger told Johnny, "This isn’t about sex.”

“That’s a first for Times Square. So how do you know me?” Johnny wanted to solve this mystery.

“I don’t know you personally, but I saw what you did.” The passenger scowled, as if he had co-authored the Ten Commandments.

“Do what?” Johnny wasn’t admitting to anything.

“You helped that ‘girl’ rob that man and dumped this wallet in the trash.” He held up the discarded wallet with a handkerchief. “And last week I saw you rescue a drug dealer from arrest by pushing two theatergoers into the path of the police.”

“Really?” Johnny was irritated by the absence of this incident from his memory and even more so that he hadn’t noticed this car or its passenger and he asked, “How much?”

“I don’t need your money.” The passenger fidgeted into a more comfortable possession, as the Lincoln turned onto 9th Avenue. The driver was in no hurry.

“Good, because I’d hate to split $100.” Johnny’s hand grasped the door handle, hesitant to jump out of moving car, then settled back into the seat. The passenger wore expensive slippers and his pajamas were made of high-quality silk. He was rich and a rich sucker was an opportunity not to be passed up in Times Square.

“You’re staring again.”

“Sorry, if this isn’t for sex or a shakedown, what's the story?” Johnny was a musician as well as a hustler. Both professions required an acute sense of timing and he allowed several seconds of silence to pass before spinning his web. "You don't want to tell me, then I have a story for you. Three years ago an old Gypsy woman taught me the ancient art of palmistry like how the left hand reveals the past and the right hand predicts the future. I started fooling around reading palms of the strippers, massage girls, pimps, cops, and dealers in Times Square. Some paid me $5 for a reading, but I got tired of reading their highways to hell and I closed up shop.”

“You can divine the future?”

“No, but I learned that most people want the same thing; money, love, happiness and so I told people what they want to hear and they’ll nod their head when you’re right.

“So it’s a trick?” This revelation clearly disappointed the young man like he had been told a magician's secret.

“Sometimes yes, sometimes no, I’m not sure when was which.” Johnny sensed the passenger’s desire for answers and spoke without any premonition as to what he would say. “We are all trapped by the past. It is the future that frees us, if your present isn’t a jail. I bet you haven’t stepped on the street in months.”

The passenger’s eyes widened with this plundering of his soul.

“And I’m probably the first person you spoke with in a long time other than the driver and your family.”

The passenger’s lack of a response confirmed that he was on the right track.

“You don’t talk about anything to anyone. You don’t ever leave this car either and I know why.” Johnny played him without pity. “Because whatever happened to you didn’t kill you and sometimes you wish that it did.”

The passenger reached forward to knock on the window and the effort hurt more than he was willing to show, giving Johnny another insight into why he was in this car.

“You had an accident. A bad accident. It changed who you were into who you are now and you don’t like that person, but you’re not the only person in the world that changed from who they wanted to be. I was a good kid once. An altar boy. No one recited the Mass better than me. Families hired me to serve their weddings or bury their grandparents. I was vain enough to consider myself special. A priest did too and he corrupted my life time after time. He said he was trying to teach me humility. I didn’t need to taught humility and neither did you, even though you went to the best schools and summered in Europe.”

“This is all a trick.”

A red light stopped the Lincoln at 54th Street and Johnny slapped his palm on the dividing window. It slid down halfway.

“Pull over to the curb,” Johnny told the driver and turned to the passenger, “I can only tell you what I see. It’s no trick. I see you trapped in this car, praying for the boy to come back from the grave, but both him and my innocent altar boy are dead. We can only become someone else. Someone new.”

“You make it sound so easy.” The passenger’s right eye twitched with a slight spasm.

“It is easy.” His host had been hurt bad and Johnny knew hurt. “All you have to do is leave this car and live.”

“With them?” The passenger regarded the passing parade with a noticeable disdain. The dregs of Times Square were heading home for the night and none of them had houses or apartments.

“There’s more to life than them or this car. Other people, other places.”

“If I fall, I could hurt myself more.”

Being scared is all part of taking the first steps. Have you fallen since your injury?”

“A couple of times.”

“And you didn’t die?”

“No.”

“I can understand you’re frightened of the pain, but mummifying yourself in this car is a form of death and that’s why you picked me up tonight.” Johnny told the driver, “Me and my friend are leaving the car.”

“Mr. Ames?” The driver asked, as if getting out of the car was against the rules.

“Robert, park the car for a second.”

The car pulled over to the curb.

Johnny stepped out of the car and reached inside to assist the young man from the back seat.

The passers-by stared at the black pajamas and Johnny glared at them with practiced disdain.

“Ignore them. They’re nobodies. You’re what matters. How’s it feel to be out of that car?”

“Like I should return to the cocoon.” He wasn’t very stable on his feet.

“Too late for that. Breathe.”

The young man inhaled the cold air like an astronaut testing the atmosphere of Mars. The garish streetlights were unfiltered by the Lincoln’s smoked windows and jarred his eyes and the noise battered his eardrums, then a harsh wind kissed his skin with an old lover’s forgiveness. His knees buckled from the sensory overload and Johnny caught him. The young man didn’t weigh much.

“It’ll improve with practice. Trust me.”

“You expect me to trust a thief?”

“Thieves have more honor than most people and I’m not only a thief. You play an instrument?”

“A little piano.” The young man hesitated, as if he might have given an incorrect response.

“Think you could play an organ?” Dove was right. Johnny was soft. This kid was primed for a scam and he was letting him off the hook to become part of his life.

“Organ?”

“A Bach fugue worked for Procul Harum in A WHITER SHADE OF PALE and the Doors’ LIGHT MY FIRE would have been nothing with the organ, which is definitely a hipper choice than a piano for punk.”

“Punk?” The term was a blank for the Lincoln’s passenger.

“Punk like the Ramones, and Patti Smith.” Johnny’s blitz of information retilted his new acquaintance.

“The only times I heard the word “˜punk’ have been in reference to this incense burnt to stave off mosquitoes.”

“It’s also a prison definition for another convict’s sex slave, but the punk I’m talking about has to do with music.”

“Sorry, I don’t listen much to the radio.” The young man stood erect with a pained effort.

“Punk doesn’t get play on the radio.” The record executives hated it. “I’ve had two bands, the Disappointed and the Precious Few. Both failed, due to ego problems or talent conflicts, but I haven’t abandoned my dream, so today is your lucky day.”

“Lucky?” He looked to the car, as if his driver was supposed rescue him, but doors remained shut.

“Yes, you’re lucky, because I’m offering you a crash course in punk and punk will bring you back from the dead. You know the song LOUIE LOUIE?”

“Yeah, duh, duh duh, duh-duh, duh-duh duh.”

“So you’re not totally brain dead about music. Now speed it up faster and rawer and nastier.”

“Like Slade? My sister had played them on her stereo.”

“Not exactly, but close.” Frankie had been the drummer in the Disappointed and Cheri from room 301 had sung for the Precious Few. Bass players were as rare as light bulbs, but an organist with money was a trick pony begging for a circus.

“When I first got in the car, I was thinking about ripping you off, but I said to myself, “Why I rip him off for couple of hundred dollars, when I can score more, but now that you’re going to be in my band, your money is safe. Like I said there’s honor among thieves.”

“I-I-I-I never said I’d join in your band.”

“Okay, don’t join my band.” Johnny backed away from the passenger, who snagged his arm.

“Don’t go.”

“Okay.” He was hooked, but good and Johnny had yet to tell one lie. “But a warning. Punks about burning down the temple of soft rock, pissing off the middle of the road producers. It’s not a big scene. Maybe two thousand punks in New York, LA, London, but there’s more every day and your joining us could only help the cause. You’re going to love it.”

“Couldn’t I like it first?”

“Like is for a distant aunt with a mustache. Tomorrow evening come to Max’s Kansas City on Union Square.”

“I’m having dinner at the Carlyle Hotel with my father and sister.”

“That’s right. Tomorrow's Dry Turkey Day.” Johnny wasn't losing his organist to a dead bird and spotted another opening. “Can your sister sing?”

“Not a note.” Caroline had many talents. Singing was not one of them.

“What she look like?” Nico had proved that a good voice was not a prerequisite for a lead singer and he tried to imagine a female version of Charles.

“Many men find her attractive.” Mostly because she was overtly open to their suggestions, but the coldness of her beauty was a frightening challenge to her suitors.

“Great, then she can be in the band too.” Johnny wondered if he could pass them off as twins.

“No, Caroline isn’t into things like that.” Charles shook his head with a slight back and forth motion.

“That’s too bad.” Finding an organist and a singer in one go was almost too much to ask from New York. “So what about tomorrow?”

“I can meet you after my dinner.”

“Great, but do yourself a favor and lose the Hugh Hefner pajamas.” Johnny fingered the material. Imported silk had to cost a fortune. “Go to St. Mark’s Place around 11 and buy anything black and leather at Trash and Vaudeville and get Snookie to cut your hair at Manic Panic. You have a number?”

“Yes.” He handed Johnny an embossed card. “You can call me “˜Charles’.”

The accent inhibited the use of Charlie or Chuck and Johnny acceded to his new friend’s unspoken request.

“Charles, my name’s Johnny Darling. Now you’ll have to excuse me, I have a previous appointment.”

“Your young friend?” Charles held up the wallet.

“I forgot you were spying on me.”

“Sorry.” The apology sounded heart-felt.

“I’ve forgiven you too.” Johnny helped Charles into the car. “You’ll meet my assistant tomorrow. He’s the drummer.”

“Your band have a name?” The rich boy was visibly relieved to be off his feet. His pain was no joke.

“GTH.” Johnny had remembered the top bill at the Adonis Theater and stripped the first letter of each word in the title. “It’s short for “˜Gone To Hell. I’ll call you tomorrow, “˜Charles’.”

“Any time after ten.”

“I’m a late-waker too.” Johnny shut the door and the Lincoln disappeared down the street.

Nearby drifters envied his imagined score and Johnny walked toward 42nd Street. Times Square was shuttering for the night. Entering ShowWorld his nose reeled from the smell of pine oil used to clean the viewing cubicles. The elderly clerk passed his guitar from behind the counter.

“Lucky?”

“More than you can imagine.” Johnny left the porno emporium and spotted Frankie across the avenue. The young boy was begging for a handout under a movie marquee promoting THE DEVIL IN MRS. JONES. Tonight his helplessness was no act. No one on the Strip owed anyone favors and Johnny could walk away from Frankie without a twinge of guilt, instead he shouted out to the drummer, who lifted his head like a dog hearing its master’s whistle. Frankie ran across the avenue and said, “I thought you had ditched out on me.”

“Would I do that?” Johnny slipped him $20.

“My prayers are answered. I love you.” The young boy stamped his feet on the pavement.

“Love no one. Not me. Not anyone.” He couldn’t tell Frankie that fools never followed their own advice.

“Everything is just business.” Frankie had adopted Johnny as his God, even if worshiping him might cost his soul.

“And business is good.” Dove’s score was none of his business, but he had to tell someone about meeting Charles. “I ran into an 'angel’.”

“What kind of angle you talking 'about'?” An F in Algebra had ended his schooling.

“Not angle. An Angel.”

“You turning religious on me?” Frankie had lost more friends to the church than drugs.

“I’m talking about an angel to finance our band off the ground.” The priest’s kiss had permanently soured Johnny’s faith in God.

“Our band?” Johnny’s plans to reform the Dispossessed was mostly talk.

“No, new one.” His hands itched to create new music on his guitar. “GTH.”

“GTH?” Frankie asked, eagerly, hoping for the three letters might have been a new drug.

“It stands for Gone To Hell.” They needed new songs to go with the new name.

“Gone To Hell?” Frankie hadn’t been to church in years, but he still respected the horror of a fiery eternity. “I don’t want to burn in Hell.”

“You’re not going to burn in any Hell. Not while I’m around in this life and the next.” They needed a place to rehearse and he knew one in Chinatown.

“Okay, if you say so.” Frankie bongoed a beat on a car. “So who else is in GTH?”

“This rich kid’s on organ and Cheri will sing.”

“She has a terrible voice.” Frankie had no use for the stuck-up painter living down the hall from Johnny at the Terminal Hotel.

“If I know you two don’t get along, but Cheri can shake her ass. The straight guys and the lezbos will love her. The organist is a cripple. The sad girls will love him. You beat the drums and I scorched the air with my guitar.” Johnny was thinking way ahead of tonight, even knowing that no surefire formula existed to guarantee musical success, however not contemplating failure was a step in the right direction. “We’ll have a number one on the charts for a hundred weeks and live the life in Hollywood.”

“Movie stars, palm trees, and swimming pools,” Enticed by Johnny’s enthusiasm, Frankie chanted the words like “˜lions, tigers, and bears’ from THE WIZARD OF OZ and then asked, “Care to score a few bags?”

“No, I have to stay straight for this 'angel’ tomorrow.” Johnny couldn’t preach moderation in fear of throwing a rock through a window of his temple of sins. “Go get high. You can crash at the Terminal later.”

“Thanks.” Frankie headed to Bryant Park with reckless determination and Johnny lifted his arm to flag a taxi. Instead a Plymouth Valiant halted by the curb and its overweight driver ordered, “Don’t move.”

Nearly half the foot traffic froze in place, though the command was aimed at Johnny. He walked slowly over to the nondescript car and asked, “And how can I help you this fine evening, Sgt. Weinstein?”

“Save that Eddie Haskell shit for LEAVE IT TO BEAVER.” The grey-haired detective hauled himself out of the unmarked cop car and hitched up his 40-inch waist Sta-Press pants, pretending he had all the time in the world. “See your guitar’s out of hock.”

“Yes, sir.” There was a chance that the cop had witnessed Dove’s score. Johnny paid it safe and said, “An old friend repaid a debt.”

“You’re fortunate to have friends, Mr. Darlino.” The heavyweight detective was waging a one-man campaign against the wickedness of the Strip. Ten more cops like him would have shut down Times Square for good, however the NYPD honored other commitments to Law and Order.

“The name’s Darling.” Johnny hated any connection to his past.

“We get you down to the precinct and you’re John Darlino real fast.” The detective frisked the hustler’s pockets. “Where you headed?”

“Home, Sergeant Weinstein.” Johnny lifted his arms to facilitate the search.

“You mean 'home’ like Mom and Dad’s house in Florida for Turkey Day?” While most of the cops in Times Square were on the take, the detective was relatively honest. Whatever he found on Johnny was Johnny’s as long as it wasn’t illegal.

“Hell, no, I’m done with that cracker state.” Four years ago DisneyWorld in Orlando had offered his father a position promoting tourism. The move had mostly been made to save Johnny from his friends and the sixteen year-old had accompanied them, promising to be a good boy. He had lasted two very long years.

”Don’t you miss the palm trees and sun?” Sgt. Weinstein withdrew the remaining money from Johnny’s pocket.

“Naw, I’m into the change of seasons.”

“You call your parents sometimes?”

“Every once in a while.” He told them with the stories about studying at Hunter College days and playing night in a band. Hopefully his lies were easier to believe than their fears about the truth.

“Two years on the Strip and not once have you been arrested or sent to the hospital. Not many people on the Strip can say that.”

“I obey the laws.” Another one of his # 1 rules was to only break one law at a time.

“Unlike the rest of the scum on the street.” Sgt. Weinstein glared at the passers-by and they shrank from his gaze. “I can remember coming here with my mother. We’d go to the movies and I’d have some hot dogs.”

“Not many kids around here now.” Johnny eyed the sidewalks.

“Thank God for that.” The detective couldn’t fathom his city’s descent from the glory days of the 50s. His fellow officers blamed the blacks and drugs, yet the decay ran deeper than race or narcotics.

“I don’t think God has anything to do with it.”

“Same as your luck and that of your boyfriend.” Sgt. Weinstein respected Johnny’s tutelage of Frankie and their avoidance of violent crimes.

“Just trying to keep him out of trouble, that’s all.” Johnny wasn’t taking the bait about Frankie being his boyfriend. “We don’t want to be a burden for the city.”

“My fellow officers are not so appreciative of your effort and they have you in their sights. You’re twenty, right? No more Juvie Hall for you and prison is hard time on pretty boys.”

“I’m dedicated to my music and nothing else.” Johnny Darling lifted his guitar.

“I wish that was true, but everyone makes a mistake and one day you’ll make one too and that day we’ll play LET’S MAKE A DEAL.” Sgt. Weinstein had seen thousands of wiseasses hit the Strip thinking that they could beat the long odds of the street. Most couldn’t count on their fingers

and ended up in jail or lying in an alley dead for less than $50.

“I wish I could walk away from it, but not just yet.”

“Don’t push it too long.” Officer Weinstein shook his head. It wasn’t too late for Johnny to save himself, although he wasn’t so sure about Frankie.

“I’m starting a new band and need some money.”

“You ever heard of work?”

“$2 an hour pays about $65 after taxes. No thanks. I’ll take my chances here, but I promise you. Not for much longer.”

“Don’t promise me. Promise yourself.” The detective’s good cop act was in his nature and he handed back Johnny’s money.

“Have a happy Thanksgiving.”

“Thanks, Sgt. Weinstein. You too.” Something was very wrong about Weinstein cutting loose Johnny, for the detective was renown for never giving an inch, unless he received a yard in return.

Standing on a windy corner offered no answers to this mystery and Johnny Darling jumped in the next Checker cab, instructing the middle-aged driver, “14th and 9th.”

“You have money?”

Johnny flashed a twenty.

“Happy?”

“You do a runner on the other end and I’ll drive you down.” The driver coldly flipped on the meter.

“Thanks for the warning.” Only the NYPD were meaner than New York taxi drivers.

“It’s a promise, not a warning.”

At the meat market on 12th Street the taxi turned onto Washington Street and dropped Johnny at the Terminal Hotel. He paid the driver and raised his eyes to the third-floor corner room. The lights were out in Room 21. Cheri was either asleep or in bed with a new lover. Johnny was knocking on her door either way and entered the hotel lobby flourishing cash.

“You better have my money, cuz no way yer gettin’ a key widout payin’.” The nearly toothless clerk turned off Johnny Carson’s interview with Robert Blake on THE TONIGHT SHOW.

“Shut your hole, Ernie.” Johnny slapped forty-two dollars on the counter and snapped a fiver before the wino’s roadmap of wrinkles. “And a bone for you too, you old alkie.”

“Fer me?” Ernie licked his swollen lips in the anticipation of a soul-quenching bottle of Thunderbird.

“For you.”

“Sorry for the grief, Johnny, you know I like you, but the bosses have a hard-on deadbeats. Even the Great Johnny Darling.”

“Hey I know, but who else takes care of you like me?” Johnny patted the old man’s cheek.

“Only you, Johnny Darling, only you.” Ernie pocketed his tip. “By the way Cheri left you a box.”

“Left me a box?” He palmed his key.

“Yeah,”Cheri split about two hours ago fer the airport. She said sumthin’ about goin’ to Paris.”

The old man toed a cardboard box from behind the desk.

“She say anything about coming back?” Johnny had dismissed her late-night prattling about art school in Paris as a bedtime lullaby.

“Nope.”

“Damn.”

“Damn is right. Guess she wuz spooked by this hippie boy.”

“Spooked?” Johnny had heard Cheri talk about this hippie. She had never spoke about her lovers before. Maybe Ernie was right.

“She spent last weekend with this hippie boy. He had stars in his eyes and a girl like Cheri gets scared that a young fool in love will kill her dreams.”

“But why she leave?”

“Because this hippie boy is supposed to show up tonight to live with her. She left him this letter.”

The clerk held up an envelope and Johnny tried to snatch it. The old alkie had faster reflexes.

“Gotta give that to the hippie, Johnny Boy.”

“So you’re not going to give it to me.”

“I’m like the US Mail that way.”

“I’ll keep that in mind the next time you run short for a bottle of wine.” Johnny lifted the box and walked over to the elevator. “They ever fixing this?”

“Boss sez soon.” Ernie shouted, as Johnny climbed past two winos arguing over who was the most beautiful member of CHARLIE’S ANGELS. On the 2nd floor a madman ranted about the president-elect’s being too Christian. Johnny gave him a quarter and continued to the 3rd floor, where he walked down to Cheri’s room. It was empty, although a painting of a naked hippie covered one wall.

“Fucking hippie.” Johnny entered room #308 and dropped the box next to the stack of LPs. He laid the guitar on the bed and cued up the Dolls’ LONELY PLANET BOY on the stereo. A quick ferret through Cheri’s box produced vintage clothing, two wigs, and no letter. She had loved dressing him as her. “Long as you stay the same weight, you can be my mirror.”

His fingers struck a discordant twang on the steel strings of his Les Paul.

Cheri’s leaving was the hippie’s fault.

He strummed several ragged A chords and visualized this longhair. Her surprise disappearance would break his heart. He might even cry and tears made a man defenseless.

Johnny added an F chord to the train of As chord and envisioned Cheri’s ex-lover facedown in the street without a penny to his or anyone else’s name. A-A-A-F-A ended his murderous solo and he mimicked with Johnny Thunders’ lead.

No one in the Dolls had a spectacular voice. Not even David Johansson. Singing came from the heart not the throat and tomorrow he would find a soul-filled singer at Max’s. As for tonight he could only wait until tomorrow and tomorrow wasn’t never too far away from this time of night.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 4



IV

Two hours past midnight the Olds 88 crossed a bridge spanning a black tidal river. Co-Op City’s stark highrises loomed on the left and abandoned wrecks lined the Interstate to remind motorists that crime didn’t sleep in the Big Apple. Thee minutes later Sean lifted his foot off the gas and veered onto the Bruckner Expressway.

Off the elevated highway flames leapt from a vacant building unattended by fire trucks. Smoke smoldered from neighboring tenements without any spectators. This part of the Bronx had been deserted for most of the decade.

The sleeping runaway on the passenger seat came from small town up north. She probably had never been to a city bigger than Boston and New York was no city for a young girl on her own.

The Olds shuddered over the rough pavement and Sean steered hard right to avoid a deep pothole. Breakdowns in these derelict neighborhoods were a nightmare for motorists passing through the city. Roaming road gangs could strip the tires and engine off a vehicle in less than five minutes, while the owner tried to find a tow truck.

The heavy Oldsmobile rumbled off the highway and Sean headed toward the Willis Avenue Bridge. The car dove into a treacherous dip in the badly-maintained road and the chassis bottomed out with a screech of metal. The young girl stirred from her slumber and rubbed her eyes for several seconds. before asking, "Where are we?"

“Almost in Manhattan." Sean jerked the wheel left to avoid an axle-snapping chasm.

"Really?" Kittery was a small village. Portsmouth was barely a city. Boston was big, but not big like this. Her eyes widened in awe of the panorama of tall apartment buildings across the East River. “I never thought I’d make it.”

“I’m not a bad driver.” The Olds bisected a lane of cars. Horns blared and fists were shaken at the car exiting onto the ramp for Harlem.

“I believe you.” Tammi giggled, sounding twelve. “But the other cars are avoiding yours like it was a shark in a swimming pool."

"The gash on the side is thanks to your friend." The car chase in Connecticut had added an unwanted detour to the trip from Boston,

"And normally after a driver has an accident, they check out the damage." She lit a cigarette and the smoke bit into her lungs. "Meaning?” Sean fussed through the radio to find The Doors' RIDERS ON THE STORM.

“That this isn't your car.” Tammi smirked with the cigarette dangling from her lip. She had spent hours practicing the look in the mirror. “Don’t look so innocent. It’s obvious that this is a stolen car, but I won't report you to Santa Claus or the police."

"It’s not stolen. It was given to me."

“For a Thanksgiving Day present?”

“No, the owner paid me to make it disappear?”

“You do magic tricks like a magician.” The teenager mocked him with fake amazement.

“No, the car is a gas guzzler too much gas. Nobody wants to buy it, so the owner contacts me and I tell to leave it on the street with an extra set of keys under the seat. I drive to New York, park the car in a bad neighborhood, and leave the keys in the ignition, then it's stolen by real thieves and the the next day the owner reports the theft to the police. A month later he gets a check from the insurance company. Happy ending.” Sean hadn’t told any of his friends about his sideline. He shouldn't have told Tammi, but once she got out of the car, he would never see her again.

"You make it sound like you're doing a good deed.” She was a little young to be so sarcastic.

“Only the insurance company gets hurt." Baptized a Catholic Sean had given up of worrying about his immortal soul long ago. “And this is the last car I disappear.”

"I don’t give a fuck whether this is the first, last or the hundredth car you ‘disappeared’. To me it’s a ride.” Tammi twisted the dial to banish RIDERS ON THE STORM from the radio. "I hate that oldie music."

"Oldies? I saw the Doors in 1968. They played for three hours at the Uptown Bus in Boston. I started a band, hoping to be a rock god. All I ever played were pool parties.”

"Sorry, hippie boy, but this is 1976 not 1968." Tammi spun the knob to a droning voice accompanied by a 3-chord band and she sang along with the chorus. "Road, road, roadrunner, goin’ fifty mile an hour."

“Not bad.”

“Me?” Tammi wasn’t used to anyone say something good about her.

“You sound like Dusty Springfield without training.

“So you’re not only a car thief, but a musical expert.” Her father had listening to Dusty Springfield, so she didn’t take comment as an insult.

“I know music. Who’s playing now?” Sean slowed down to get off the bridge.

“I have no idea.” The local station out of Portsmouth was dominated by Top Ten Hits.

“That’s Jonathan Richman in the Modern Lovers and the song’s called ROADRUNNER.”

“I never heard it before, but I like it.” She turned up the volume, but when the song segued to BETH, she ruthlessly shut off Kiss’ hit and hummed Dolly Parton's JOLEEN.

"You hate the Doors and like country?" The driver grappled with the shuddering wheel, as the Olds sped down Lexington Avenue.

"At least you can sing country around a campfire." Tammi gawked at the forlorn projects and the black men on the sidewalks well past midnight. "Is this Harlem?"

"Yes,” Sean answered, pacing his speed to avoid stopping at a red light.

"I always pictured Harlem this way." The young girl was astonished by the number of black people on the sidewalks. "Bright lights. Lots of black people. There are no blacks back home."

“You know anyone in New York?” He was sure that the answer was no.

“No one from my town ever leaves it, but I have enough money to stay at a hotel.” Tammi examined the driver’s thick-boned face. He reminded her of an extra from a 1960s caveman movie, and she asked, "How about you and me splitting a hotel? Money goes longer with two than one."

"I....I..."

Tammi laughed at his stammering.

"Let me guess. You have a jealous girlfriend?"

“Sorry." Sean was two hours late for meeting Cheri.

"Sorry for having someplace to go?” She had done fine in Kittery owing no one nothing. “You in love?"

"Yes." Love was the only word to describe the feeling of Cheri’s embrace.

"Then all’s forgiven." Tammi stopped speaking and the Olds rolled down avenues and streets surrounded by the gauntlet of increasingly taller buildings. After fifteen minutes she pulled out a cigarette without lighting it and pressed her face to the window.

“I know where I am. This is where they drop the ball on New Year's Eve."

“It’s Times Square.” The glow of the marquees and flashing neon billboards camouflaged the area’s legendary sordidness. On the sidewalk two young boys were rummaging through a fallen man’s pockets. No one on the sidewalk interfered with the robbery.

"Tammi, no matter how terrible it was at home, you're too young for this. In 1969 I watched hundreds of girls flocking to the hippie corner in Boston Commons. They drifted away to free-love communes on Mission Hill or go-go bars in the Combat Zone. Each of those places were a thousand times safer than Times Square.”

"I’m willing to listen to an alternative.”

"I give you the money for a bus ticket home."

Tammi visualized the return ride to Kittery, her stepmother cooking turkey, her stepsister’s smug smile, the boys at school begging for a quick trip to the Fort, and the girls at school calling her the town pump.

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because this place was made for girls like me. Stop.” Tammi twisted her head.

“Where?” Sean cut off a yellow taxi and pulled over to the curb.

"Right there." Tammi pointed to a poster GIRLS WANTED underneath a blinking neon marquee.

“You can’t be serious.”

“Dead serious.” She pulled up on the door handle.

“This is wrong." The slender brunette was the same age as his youngest sister. "If it was so wrong, you'd be crying, hippie boy, besides I’ve heard that song, "If I can make it here, then I can make it anywhere.' It had to be true for somone, so why not me?"" Tammi leaned across the seat to kiss Sean with a tenderness better suited to the end of a junior prom date.

“What if they don’t give you a job?” Sean doubted that she had valid ID.

“Oh, they’ll give me a job.” Tammi smiled with the wanton pleasure of being who she wanted to be.

The teenager popped out of the car and clomped to the DOLLHOUSE in her one high heel. The brutish bouncer stopped Tammi, then she reached into her jacket and produce what seemed to be an ID, then danced a seductive Watusi as an audition. Ten seconds later the bouncer waved the teenager inside the Playpen. Her disappearance was too fast for his tastes and Sean opened the door to rescue her from the naked truth of Times Square.

A uniformed cop rapped his billyclub on the hood.

“Shut the door and move it. This is a no parking zone.”

"My friend went into the Dollhouse."

"Then she ain't comin' out any time soon." The scruffy cop shut the door with a shove. "You want to wait. Stick this shitbox into a parking lot."

"Yes, officer." Sean was angered at his inability to be two places at once, but he didn’t need the cop running the plate.

His right foot stomped on the gas and the Olds weaved out of Times Square with the big V8 begging for speed. The car might not have been owned by Sean, street maintenance was a low priority on the impoverished city administration’s agenda and 7th Avenue’ rutted surface challenged the Olds’ suspension to the limit.

At 34th Street the chrome bumper narrowly missed a bum’s shopping cart. At 23rd the under chassis once more blistered steel on a bump topped by a manhole and a meteor shower of sparks sprayed against the ragged asphalt. Sean turned west on 14th Street. By 8th Avenue the sidewalks were devoid of foot traffic. The lights were with him, as the tires rattled over unpaved cobblestones of the Meat Market.

The Olds turned south under the West Side Highway following the train track for a few blocks before crossing West Street. Sean braked hard to halt the Olds before the lip of the Hudson River embankment.

The headlights lit the first hundred yards of the black trough of water separating New York from the rest of America. Sean shoved the column shift into Park and turned off the engine without taking the keys. Stepping out of the car he zipped up his jacket and pulled a screwdriver from his pocket. Sean scanned the street.

The smell of Old’s burnt rubber mixed with the rank tidal water and a block north shadowy men wandered into a twisted metal pier. Cheri had explained that homosexual trespassers used the fire-scorched warehouse for shadowy orgies. Sexual outlaws were no threat to him.

He crouched behind the Olds and unscrew to the license plates, then repeated the process with the one on the front bumper, then tossing both into the river. A Checker taxi passed him. The driver didn’t even bother to look at him. This time of night there were no good reason to stop on this side of West Street and Sean grabbed his canvas bag from the rear of the Olds. He glanced across the street to the third-floor of the Terminal Hotel.

The corner room’s lights were out. Cheri had to be home by now. The waitress finished work at 2. Sean hefted the bag over his shoulder and smiled to himself, thinking about her naked in bed.

A new life awaited him and Sean eagerly climbed the Terminal Hotel’s crumbling steps, nearly knocking over a bottle of NightTrain shared by two winos. Their garbled curses barely grazed his ears, as he entered the musty lobby. No one alive had seen this establishment’s heyday and Sean vowed to move someplace better tomorrow.

"I'm here for Cheri." He rapped on the counter to wake the sleeping desk clerk’ attention and looked at keys on the wall. #301 was there.

“Cheri?” The wiry clerk scratched his unshaven jaw.

“She’s in room 301.” Sean dropped his bag on the floor. It had gotten heavy on the walk from the Olds.

“You mean she was in 301.” The clerk grinned without showing his teeth. Life had a funny way of not working out according to plans at the Terminal Hotel.

“What you mean ‘was’?” He shook his head in disbelief.

"Like past tense ‘was and now is not’."

"I was supposed to meet her." The old man had to be lying about her checking out.

"Hey, women change their minds." The clerk pretended to examine the ledger. “You musta missed her by three hours. Tough break.”

"Where'd she go?" Sean glanced over to a young blonde man in a leather jacket. He was paying too much attention to this conversation and Sean resisted telling him to mind his own business. This was not his city.

"She said Paris.” The clerk glanced overhead. “Plane’s probably halfway across the Atlantic by now."

"She leave a message?"

"Yer name is Sean?" The clerk grabbed a letter pinned to the wall.

"That's me." At this moment he wish that he was someone else.

"Then this is for you." The clerk suppressed a grin. “I read it earlier. You want me to tell you what it says.”

“No.” Sean dropped his bag and devoured the four sentences hoping to read a comforting explanation, instead Cheri had written that she was going to Paris to study art at the Sorbonne. There was no mention of ‘them’ or when she might returned. The last sunbeam in his solar system was sucked into a black hole with no promise of a dawn on the horizon.

"Bad news, kid?" asked the clerk fighting back a grin.

Sean shook his head and left the lobby with his bag over his shoulder. On the steps he released the letter and the night wind seized the page before it hit the sidewalk. Across West Street was a black river and he stumbled forward into the night.

Two seconds later Johnny Darling bent over to pick up the discarded letter from the sidewalk. He read the four lines in less than two seconds. Cheri’s words were as deadly as a script of a snuff film and the guitarist stuffed the sheet of paper into his pocket before trailing the hippie down the sidewalk.

Plenty of men left the Terminal Hotel blanketed by a similar despair. More than a few ended up in the river.

When Cheri's rejected lover reached the other side of the West Side Highway and punched the hood of a dented Chevy Vega with New Jersey plates. The metal buckled under his fists and Johnny shouted, "Go easy on that car. It’s already been knocked out."

“Get the fuck away from me.” The hippie lashed out a quick right.

“Slow down, Sean, I'm not trying to fuck with you." Johnny sidestepped the roundhouse swing and lifted his hands to demonstrate his harmlessness.

"Who the hell are you?" Sean snarled at the intruder to his fury with red murder in his eyes.

"I'm Johnny. I live at the Terminal.” Johnny didn't need a broken nose and wisely kept his distance from the hippie.

“And?” Sean pushed his hair out of his face.

“Cheri was my friend and I'm sorry to tell you that you’re not the first guy whose heart she broken. She had this hillbilly boyfriend from West Virginia named Bix. I think he was studying math at the New School. Anyway they went out for a year, but Cheri never kissed Bix. Not once. After she deserted him, Bix moved in a cave in Central Park, mumbling numbers like a bingo announcer. His parents finally committed him to a mental hospital”

“I’m not Bix,” Sean had heard a different version from Cheri.

“I'm not saying that you are, but Cheri had a little problem of letting men confused lust for love and men had an even bigger problem with her small problem.” Johnny intuitively recognized how the hippie brutal features might have appealed to Cheri, who balanced deep-seeded sexual masochism with a dangerous streak of mental sadism. “You know she talked about you?"

"What she say?" Sean demanded with the desperation of a drowning man swimming to a sinking raft.

“She said you were from Boston, wrote poetry, and stole cars. That you?" "Yeah." Sean nodded with a heavy head. "She say why she left New York?"

"The hotel clerk said she was spooked.”

“Spooked?”

“Love scares people.”

"Damnit." Sean had believed his own lies and punched the car again and again.

"Stop it, breaking your hands won’t bring her back." Johnny hauled the hippie way from the Chevy. The owner was probably in the pier fucking a complete stranger.

"Oh, yeah, watch this." Sean shrugged off Johnny and smashed a window with a left hook.

"Suit yourself, but it's not easy eating pizza with a busted hand."

"You think I want pizza." The hippie lifted his bleeding knuckles.

"Not tonight, but maybe tomorrow." No city had better pizza than New York.

"Fuck pizza today and tomorrow."

"ou”re only saying that because you can't see tomorrow." Cheri's lover was primed for the taking and Johnny unreeled his pitch with the glib ease of a carnival barker shilling a Kewpie doll to a ten year-old girl’s father. "You have two choices.”

“Two?” Sean hadn't thought that he had any.

>“One, go back to Boston.”

"Impossible. I burnt all my bridges back there.” Sean understood Tammi’s decision better now.

"Tough walking across a burnt bridge, so choice number two is stay here.”

Sean surveyed the grimy belly of the West Side Highway. Water dripped from the steel girders and rats scurried along the struts supporting the roadway. He gasped for breath. The air smelled of rotten meat. This city was rotten to the core and he said, "I came here to be with Cheri and now she's gone."

"So if you go, where will you go."

"I don't know."

Johnny sensed the wavering of of his indecision and said, “You can always leave tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow?”

“Leave today, leave tomorrow. No one is stopping you. Do what you want. It’s your life.”

Sean took a deep breath. Driving a stolen car was a bad idea. He needed sleep and picked up his bag. "I'll stay the night. Tomorrow I'll figure out tomorrow."

"Now you're thinking. Let's get you a room." Johnny accompanied Sean across West Street at a slow pace. "Once you're settled, we can eat. How's that sound?"

"I'm not hungry." This evening was unfolding as a scene cut from MIDNIGHT COWBOY with him as Cowboy and Johnny cast in the role of Ratso. This deja vu worsened inside the Terminal Hotel, where the wizened clerk smiled, as if he had expected to see Sean again.

"So Sean, yer wanna a room? 301 is available. It even had a view."

"I know it." Sean slapped a twenty and signed the register.

"That's right." Ernie wasn't worried the hippie might try something stupid, then again stupidity was how most people ended up at the Terminal Hotel and he slid the key across the desk. "Enjoy yer stay, Mr. Coll."

"C'mon, I'll be your bellhop." Johnny lifted the canvas bag and climbed the stairs to the third floor maintaining a constant banter to prevent Sean from rethinking a hasty decision. “Most tourists visit New York for the Statue of Liberty and the Empire State Building. I’ve lived here most of my life and I haven’t been to any tourist places, because I’m into music and not concert rock, but clubs and bars. You know what you need. Some music to soothe your soul."

"I don't think so."

"Too bad, because Max's and CBGB's offer four bands a night." Johnny stopped before Cheri's old room."

"I said I'm not interested." Sean stared at the door.

"Okay, okay, I get the message, but if you need anything, knock on 301. Anything at all."

“Thanks.” Sean stepped into the room and shut the door. He ignored the cracked walls, the dangling flypaper, and the nude painting on the wall, because a faint fragrance belonging to Cheri lingered in her absence.

She should be in this room with him.

Only last weekend they had lay in bed naked. She had said that she would be waiting. He wasn’t supposed to be alone now.

Sean went to the window and tried to open it. The management had nailed it shut and he took a step back to a running start only to hear Johnny ask, "Did Cheri's leaving hurt that much."

Sean saying nothing said everything. Johnny wasn’t letting Cheri's jilted lover jump through the window to give EMS drivers a chance at his money and stepped into the small room.

"Listen, you'll fall in love again and sooner than you fear.”

“Fear?”

“Love is never love without the risk. I have a good idea. We should go get a drink."

"I'm not into gay bars."

“I know that, but I'm talking about CBGB's. It's not straight and it's not gay. Boston has nothing like it." "I don't know. "What there not to know?" Cheri's lover was smart to mistrust him, although anyone’s misgivings melted after a taste Johnny’s 'special' drink. “CBGB's is rock and rock, cheap drinks, loose girls, and much more.”

“Much more sounds too good to be true.”

"Perhaps it is, considering CBGBs’ is an abbreviation for country-bluegrass-blues.” Johnny had forgotten the meaning of the OMFUG on the awning.

“Country?” Sean remembered Tammi singing along with Dolly Parton. She was dancing naked in Times Square. He should have taken up her offer of sharing a room. “I don’t care for country.”

“No one plays country at CBGBs.” Not since punk took over the stage.

"Is it far?" He wiped his bloodied hands with a soiled towel.

"Less than ten minutes away.” Tonight was working out with his first meeting Charles and now Sean. He had given the first a miss, but there was no way the hippie wasn't paying for his introduction to New York. “You'll love CBGBs. Trust me."

"Okay."

Two minutes later the two young men left the hotel. A taxi stopped for them on Jane Street. Johnny gave the driver an address on Bowery. It was a little after 3am and he had one more job to do before he could sleep for the night, until then there was no rest for the wicked.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 8

The music on Dollhouse's sound system switched from RING MY BELL into BROWN SUGAR and the naked redhead on stage cupped her girlish breasts before a middle-aged man in a suit. The plaid-suited businessman was bald and overweight, but the $20 in his hand transformed him to Robert Redford, as he slipped the crisp bill underneath Tammi West’s g-string.

“Honey, you’re a sight for sore eyes.” The man licked his lips with anticipation of the best Times Square had to offer in the way of pleasure.

"I bet you say that to all girls." The teenager leaned forward to caress his cheek, wondering if he called his wife 'Honey'.

“I haven’t seen anyone as cute as you before.” Her admirer blushed a deep red and tapped the wallet inside his suit jacket.

"That’s because I wasn’t here before.” She played her newness as a “I could be much more friendly, if you sat with me.”

“If I sit with you, you have to buy me a drink, handsome.” The manager had given her three instructions of how to make money at the Dollhouse; get naked, get dancing, and get the customer to buy a lady drink.

"Sure, I’ll buy you a drink, sweet thing, but no bottle of champagne. I’m not sucker.” The man’s leer was identical to the grin of a dog ready to hump a wedding guest’s knee.

”I’ll be with you as soon as my shift is over.” Tammi executed a split and twisted her head, so that her startling new red hair spun from her shoulders. She had changed the color after hearing the other dancers speak about a gunman targeting brunettes in Brooklyn and Queens. None of the girls were taking any risks with the killer getting lost on a bridge into Manhattan and dyed their hair blonde, black, and red.

“What about now?” The man grabbed for her and Tammi pirouetted from his grasp with the joy of discovering that her being a sex toy was an act of liberation financed by $1s, $5s, $10s, and $20.

The Rolling Stones were replaced by Santana’s BLACK MAGIC WOMAN and Tammi climbed off the stage. At the bottom of the steps a statuesque black woman in a sequined dress eyed her from head to toe, "Thanks for warming 'em up, sweet thing."

"Just doing my job," Tammi harvested $60 from her g-string. She had already forgotten the foul whispers.

"You leave a little coin for the rest of us and everyone will be happy.” The older stripper gazelled onto the stage and spun around the fire pole.

Her gymnastics was ignored by the men clamoring to buy Tammi a drink. She was surprised by how fast a little flash of teenage flesh pathetically crumbled any straight man’s dignity. The businessman was no exception and she went over to him and said, “Honey will be right back as soon as I change back into my costume.”

”I don’t do private shows.

“What about for a hundred?” The bill was joined by another.

“We’ll talk about it later.” The other girls sold their time by the half-hour. $50 got a man a good short time. Tammi had refused every offer so far and scampered into the crowded dressing room where she wiped off the sweat of men’s hands with a soiled towel.

Her separation of bills by denomination was stalled by the other dancers’ argument about whether Fonzie was more a punk than LAVERNE AND SHIRLEY’s greaseball friends. A statuesque blonde in stained lingerie whistled at the cash in Tammi’s hand. "Damn, those cheap bastards love that young pussy."

“We were all young pussy once.” A haggard dancer sighed, spreading a smear of lipstick over bruised lips.

The veteran dancers assented the truth of that statement with a tired chorus of ‘yeahs’ and repaired their drawn faces with broad strokes of make-up, while Tammi posed before the mirror to taunt then with her youth. Her narcissistic elation evaporated with the opening of her locker door.

It was empty. Her leather jacket and dress were gone and she glared accusingly at the other dancers.

“Don’t look at us. We have one rule here.” The blonde sneered with amusement. “We don’t rip off each other. Customers, sure, but never us.”

”Then where my stuff?” The teenager dropped her arms to her side in defeat. None of the dancers said a thing. The hippie had said that New York was a tough town and now she knew how tough.

Yesterday she had eaten two slices of pizza for Thanksgiving dinner and worked a double-shift at the Dollhouse. No one had cared about her missing Turkey Day or being robbed of all her possession.

"Hurry up, you sluts.” The manager entered the dressing room slathered with sweat. “There’s customers holdin’ hands with a drink, when they cud be gropin’ you."

"Damnit, when you gonna learn to knock?" a buxom blonde cursed at Fatso Valera.

“Spare me the Snow White act. I’ve seen how many elves you’ve screwed, blewed, and tattooed. I only wanna check on how the new girl's copin' with the wonderful world of the Dollhouse." Fatso clapped his hands explosively. "The rest of you get your asses on stage."

The dancers decamped muttering insults, which the obese manager ignored in favor of staring at the teenager’s girlish body. Her ID said 18, but it had to be a fake not that he or the owners cared about an underage girl working at the Dollhouse. Their customers loved young things.

"How you doin’, honey?" Most new girls were uncomfortable with dancing naked before men old enough to be their fathers or grandfathers, but on her very first night the little redhead had knocked Josie Cane from the #1 spot and her vixen body had him licking his lips.

"Someone stole my things.” Tammi held a towel before her.

Fatso snatched it away.

"I prefer the girls naked." He was no gentleman and proud of it.

"Stay away from me.” Tammi threatened him an empty beer bottle, having found suspect # 1 in the theft of her things.

“Why you gotta act that way?” Fatso asked in a singsong voice. “I can make you a star.”

”I don’t need anything from you.” She was no stranger to the lust in men’s eyes.

“You’re wrong there. I can give you the best hours, best sets. A ‘whale’ comes in, You get you first shot. Then you can buy all the new clothes you want.” He wanted to feel her breasts and his hands rose

“Stay away.” Tammi swung the beer bottle at the Dollhouse manager’s head. He dodged it and chuckled, “I like the rough stuff.”

Tammi cursed herself for believing that her life in this city would be different from Kittery, then the dressing room door slammed open and the sweaty black dancer entered the dressing room and said to the manager, "Cut her a break."

"Gimme one good reason why I should.” Fatso hated anyone interrupting his breaking in the new girls.

“I’ll give you five.” The wild-haired stripper punched his sternum so hard that the fat man cringed like a turtle out of its shell. "The girl isn't doing anything she doesn't want to."

"No one forcin’ her to do nuthin’, Josie.” Fatso grunted trying to catch his breath. “How ‘bout a visit to the office, Sweet Pea? I’ll make it worth your while.”

“She said no once and no means no, so get the fuck out of here. This is the ladies’ dressing room. Not the men’s room.” The black woman fronted the manager, who stood his ground saying,

"Listen kid, Josie didn’t save you out of the kindness of her heart. Read your Girl Scout handbook. I bet they have a special chapter in the Girl Scout handbook about her type."

"Very funny, Fatso." The black stripper hated the manager, then again she hated all men.

"Yeah, I'm a real comedian about the other team." He had pushed the wrong button and the black woman dug her nails into the manager’s jowl. "It’s none of your business what I do in my spare time, is it?”

”None at all.” Blood trickled down his neck from the nail punctures.

”And you’re giving her back her clothes, right?”

”I didn’t take nothin’, so let me go or else you’re both fired.”

”Please let him go,” Tammi pleaded to her rescuer. Losing this job meant hitting Times Square naked and from what she had overheard, the other strip clubs were much worse than the Dollhouse.

”You’re a lucky man. No, you’re a lucky pig.” The black woman pushed him out the door.

"That's Mr. Pig to you. No get outside workin’ the squares or you're fired." Fatso shut the door and the two women laughed at having vanquished the manager with a little bluff and muscle.

“Fatso ain't as bad as most of the scumbags running these places.

”There are worse?”

”A lot worse.”

”I hope I don’t find out how much worse.” Tammi was uncomfortable with the other woman eyed her body and stepped away from the black stripper. "This Barbie Doll doesn’t play with other Barbie Dolls.”

“I was just looking.” She took a $5 from her g-string and stuck in Tammi’s underwear. “I can pay like everyone else, but we girls are working the same scam here. Not as a team, because everyone here is out for themselves, but that doesn’t mean you and I can’t be friends. Both of us looking out for each other. The name’s Josie. Josie Cane.”

“Friends?” The only lesbian in Kittery was her gym teacher. She like the boys at her high school had wanted to be more than a friend and Tammi crossed her arms over her breasts.

“You’re new in town and you can’t have many friends.” Josie brushed a thin layer of powder over her breasts, ignoring the new girl’s hesitation. She didn't have to sleep with every beautiful girl she met. Just most of them. The black languidly slipped into a filmy teddy. “But you have understand looking at a pretty girl doesn’t make me a criminal. At least in the Dollhouse.”

"If the old geezers can ogle me, I guess a woman can too." Tammi couldn't be too fussy about friends in Times Square.

”And what about the friends thing.”

”I could use a friend.” She had none in Kittery. "Just don’t try anything funny.”

"I'll only dream about it." The black woman put her hands together and lowered her head in a mock prayer. Tammi giggled girlishly and the black woman said, “I’m praying to the goddess of pussy for good luck. She takes care of us, if we take care of her. What’s your name?”

"Tammi West." The teenager offered her hand, despite Josie’s obvious preference for a hug. "Aren't any places run by women?"

"Girl, the Mafia and the police work hard to keep us women under their thumb, because otherwise we'd be free and free women making more money than men is against every rules in this macho society.”

Josie rummaged through a locker and threw the naked girl a pink baby doll nightie, a spandex jumpsuit, and a rabbit fur coat from a locker.

"Those should fit."

"What about the girl they belong to?" Tammi’s getting robbed didn’t no justify her stealing.

"Betty moved onto better things." A two-month bid at Rikers for soliciting a cop.

"She die in this?" Tammi grimaced at the acrid smell.

"No, she danced her ass off, which is as close to dying as you can get at the Dollhouse.” Josie handed the young girl a pair of spangled platform shoes. “Besides beggars can't be choosy, can they?"

"I don’t have to beg.” She held up her cash.

"You walk on these streets naked and you’ll discover how fast you’re begging for mercy from the perverts.”

"Is Times Square really that dangerous?" Tammi hung the clothing into her locker.

"You really are too sweet for words. The other night at the Lark Hotel Dr. Frankenstein's retarded brother decapitated two girls and sewed the heads the opposite bodies. That dangerous enough for you?"

"I'm staying at the Lark." Tammi had stuffed paper in her ears to block the screams last night.

"And the newspapers printed squat about the murders.” The NY Times, Daily News, and Post covered the struggle for freedom in Israel, the desperate war against Communism, rich white people committing charitable acts, and black on white crimes, but not a word about the murder of whores in Times Square. “Hell, last winter they had a movie on the Deuce called SNUFF about a sick motherfucker having sex with a girl and cutting her up dead. All the liberals squawked for a minute and no one mentioned how Hollywood constantly butchers women on the silver screen. You and me and the girls are on our own. And you best not forget that either."

"I’ve learned my lesson with men.” Tammi tugged the nightie over her head.

”At too tender an age.” Josie pegged her for younger than 18, perhaps criminally so. Not that it mattered, because Times Square cops were paid to look the other way in every direction. "Damn, pajama party girl, you’re gonna make a fortune tonight."

"Fame and fortune is why I came to the big city.” Tammi modeled the new outfit in a mirror and stashed her bill roll inside the skimpy undies.

"And let's forget about whatever comes our way."

"I saw Steppenwolf this summer." The Canadian rock group’s concert at the Hampton Beach Casino seemed a million years ago.

"I love dancing to MAGIC CARPET RIDE and that Peter Fonda in EASY RIDER is one sweet dude.” Josie escorted the young girl into the lounge, where Tammi teasingly stretched her lithe body. Men at the bar responded to the pubescent mirage by waving their money and Josie whispered, "You’re a star, rookie. Fame and fortune."

"And whatever comes my way." Tammi went over to the out-of-town businessman and sat on his lap. "Hi, Bill."

"The name's not Bill." The out-of-towner gulped with shock that the young girl had correctly guessed his name.

”Everyone can be Bill or any name you want at the Dollhouse. We’re good at keeping secrets.” Tammi tugged on his tie.

"Call me Jim.”

“Jim it is.”

“What about that drink. I am thirsty after dancing so hard." Tammi snapped her fingers and the bartender put two drinks on the bar. Her ginger ale champagne cost ‘Jim’ ten dollars. He would have gladly paid twenty.

Fatso Valetta observed the little girl toy with her customer, who was obviously proposing her for a private session and was refusing him like a snotty debutante, but she was a slut like every dancer in this place.

Two quaaludes in a drink would shed that prom queen act fast and Fatso smiled to himself thinking about her eyes lost in her head. His fantasy was disrupted by a scruffy young man entering the club and calling out, "Tammi."

He walked right up to her and Tammi stared at the leather-jacketed man with the spiky hair without placing the face.

“Do I know you?”

“It’s me, Sean." He sat next to her, trying to recall her hair color from the other night.

"The car thief himself?" Tammi brushed away the businessman’s straying hand from her bare thigh. “Give me a few seconds.”

“This isn’t right.” The businessman protested with a frown. “I paid good money for these drinks and I expect____”

“I know what you expect, Jim, but I’ll be right back to fulfill your expectations, promise.” She feathered his ear with her fingertips, then walked Sean to another table. As they sat, Tammi smiled with an eerie innocence for a girl in a strip club and said, "Looks like the old hippie went to the commune in the sky.”

"I got run over by a lawn mower.” The stage lights painted the runaway’s face a lurid red to match her hair. She seemed even younger than the other night. “Cinderella went through changes too."

“New places, new looks.” His unexpected appearance at the club was surprisingly pleasing and she glanced over his shoulder. "You have any money?”

“Sure.” More than $800 from his savings and stealing the Olds.

“If you talk with the girls in this bar, you have to buy them a drink. And drinks aren’t cheap either." It was nice seeing Sean, but work was work.

Having frequented Boston’s Combat Zone, Sean was familiar with the workings of a strip club and slapped a twenty on the bar. "I can cover the drinks, but I have a proposition."

"Propositions seem to be tonight’s special on the menu." Tammi signaled the bartender for drinks.

"This is probably different anything else you heard in here." Sex was only thing on these men's minds.

"How so?" Tammi realized that his girlfriend must have ditched out on him, otherwise he wouldn't be here.

"I’m offering you a gig with a rock and roll band." It sounded ridiculous to his ears.

"A rock and roll band?" The teenager laughed with a weariness older than her years. “Doing Eagles’ covers? That’s a good come-on, but I’m not a country bumpkin anymore."

"This isn’t a come-on.” He ordered a Heineken from the bartender and was charged $15 for the two drinks.

At least the beer was cold, but he was glad to be here for more than Tammi’s nakedness. She was someone he knew. Maybe for only a few hours, but he didn’t feel so alone in this city sitting next to her.

"How so?" Tammi was also happy to see the hippie, even if he wasn’t a hippie anymore. She hadn’t expected him to visit her., which was a nice surprise for a not so nice place, then realized that his girlfriend must have ditched out on him, otherwise he wouldn't be here.

“I’m want you to join me in rock and roll band." It sounded ridiculous to his ears.

"A rock and roll band?" The teenager laughed with a weariness older than her years. “That’s the best come-on I've heard tonight, but I’m not a country bumpkin anymore."

"This isn’t a come-on.” He ordered a Heineken from the bartender, who charged $15 for the two drinks. At least the beer was cold, but he was glad to be here for more than Tammi’s nakedness. She was someone he knew. Maybe for only a few hours, but he didn’t feel so alone in this city sitting next to her and quickly explained, “Two nights ago I met these musicians at a bar called CBGBs. They play punk music there. They're forming a band and the guitarist wants me to play bass, but we need a singer and I remembered you singing in the car and told the rest of the band you were the next Janis Joplin."

"You're joking, aren't you?" “Not at all.” He took a sip of beer and leaned back in his chair.

"Me a singer?" She loved ME AND BOBBY MCGEE, especially the part about the Mercedes Benz. “Oh, lord, won’t you buy me a Mercedes-Benz, my friends all ride horses and must make a mint.”

"That's the offer and you don't have to quit your night job."

"Don't I have to audition?"

"Yes, but I'm sure you'll get the gig."

“You really are serious?”

“As a grave, but if you're not into it, I won't bother you anymore."

"What makes you think you're bothering me?"

"Just your boyfriend by the door is staring like I stole his lunch money."

Tammi’s face twisted with disgust.

"You must have a low opinion of Cinderella, if you think I’d settle for Prince Uncharming."

"It’s not like the Dollhouse is a palace.”

“Closer to a brothel.” Tammi had few illusions about her place of employment.

“At least I'm no toad."

"We can’t be sure, until I kissed you." Tammi smiled invitingly and Sean leaned forward. Their lips meeting set them adrift in their own little world. He bought his hand onto her thigh. Her skin tingled and she flattened his palm to her flesh, wishing he would move her hand higher.

”Hey, hey, hey.” The manager had waddled to the bar with two thick-necked bouncers. “This creep givin’ you a problem?"

“Calm down, Fatso. He’s a friend.” Tammi wasn’t scared of this man.

"Friend?” Each stripper had two or three boyfriends hidden in the woodwork. They were all trouble.

”From up north.” Johnny was the only person whom he knew longer in New York.

“More like an old boyfriend and the Dollhouse hates more than old boyfriends.” The blackjack in his pocket cured most of their heroic urges to save their high school sweethearts from the high life and Fatso clicked his fingers. “Thanks for visitin’, but now get lost.”

The two bouncers grabbed Sean’s arms and slammed him into several tables on the way to the door. He hit the sidewalk on his knees, tearing a hole in his jeans. Sean didn’t learn his lessons the hard way so easy and jumped to his feet, planning to take on the biggest bouncer with a chair. The driver prevented him from rushing inside the club. "You have a problem?"

"I saw the girl and she’s okay with joining the band.” Sean tried to push away the driver. “The fat-fuck manager won't let her leave."

The driver stood his ground.

"Let me handle this.”

"I can take care of it myself." Sean visualized chairing the bouncer and head-butting the second. This premonition of violence pulsated in his temples and his eyes thickened with blood. The driver blocked him from getting to the door.

"This establishment and the other joints in Times Square are controlled by Harry the Horse. His mob pays off the police. You go into that bar again, the odds are that you come out in smaller pieces."

"This is my business." Sean settled his own problems despite a less than 50% success ratio.

"You’re a musician. You need your hands." The chauffeur’s tone suggested his job description encompassed other duties than driving a car. “I’m just going to talk with them. This is a big city. We talk, otherwise we'd be killing assholes all day long and that’s gets boring after a while.”

"I want Tammi to come with us." Even more so after that second kiss.

"Yeah, everyone wants a girl in this neighborhood. I’ll be right out."

Bobby walked to the Dollhouse and the two bouncers barred his entrance. He spoke with them for several seconds and they waved him inside the club. A minute passed quickly as did three.

After five minutes Sean’s visions of the fat man pawing Tammi grew more explicit and he headed for the front door only to have the driver exited from the club. He shook the bouncers’ hands and walked to Sean.

"Your girl gets off at 12. That's an hour from now. She'll meet you at the pinball parlor in between Broadway and 7th Avenue. Under no circumstance go into that bar, unless you’re looking to visit Bellevue in a bodybag."

"They that pissed?”

“To say the least.” The driver was cool, calm, and collected. He opened the back of the Lincoln and got out Sean’s bass. "I'll explain to Charles and your friend that you're waiting for the girl and will see them tomorrow. I'll also say if she can sing as sexy as she dances, she's a winner."

"You think so?” His hands were trembling from the adrenaline release.

"She's a little skinny for my tastes and jail-bait young.” Bobby had witnessed the Dollhouse audience’s undivided devotion. “If she can sing, you might have a shot.”

"She can sing alright. I'm sorry about losing it before." Sean had misjudged the driver. "You’re from out-of-town. What do you know? Nothing?” Bobby considered him a complete hick and the driver wasn't far from the truth.

"Next to nothing now.” Sean was embarrassed by his ignorance and vowed to learn fast.

“The name's Bobby, right?" He was grateful for the help.

"And you're Sean. Let me move the car before a cop busts my balls."

The Lincoln sped downtown and Sean studied the sign GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS. The Beatles had performed at the Star Club in Hamburg’s redlight district. Times Square was New York’s Reeperbahn and He had heard bootleg tapes of The Fab Four's early days that were as raw as tonight’s rehearsal.

GTH might be the worst band in the world, yet as long as Tammi was in the band, he didn’t want to be anywhere else in the world than where he was right now, for New York was giving him a new life and he wasn’t fool enough or smart enough to turn down its offer.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 12

The five best pinball wizards in the Broadway amusement center were gathered around Sean, as he slammed the front of the 'KISS’ machine with his groin and bumped the legs with his thighs. None of them had ever seen anyone play with much intensity and they nodded appreciatively each time the scoreboard tocked another free game. Sean was on a roll, then the arcade’s front door opened for a frigid draft and a deathly thin player commented, "Damn, one of them Minnesota girls has come in from the cold."

"She’s heading this way,” a young boy in a thin jacket stated anxiously and an older voice said, “Man, she’s a twin for that teenage slut from TAXI DRIVER.”

“A little redhead?” Sean asked, as the steel ball blurred between the top bumpers for several seconds before diving toward the death zone only to have him save the impossible ball with a deft flick of the flippers.

“You have eyes in the back of your head, mister?”

“No, ESP.” Tammi’s reflection was framed in the glass scoreboard and she had reincarnated Jodi Foster’s carnal role in Martin Scorcese’s film right down to the cheap spandex sheath and a ratty rabbit fur jacket. “She's with me."

“Lucky with pinball, lucky with the ladies,” the young boy said with envy.

“Hey, Sean. You ready?” Tammi asked from behind him. Tammi responded with a yawn and laid her hand on the machine.

Neither man nor machine could resist her power tonight and the ball caromed off a side-panel to scorch through his double-flipper defense into the death hole. Sean slammed the glass top and Tammi asked innocently, "Did I do that?"

”No, the game did it itself.” Sean stared at her eyes and noticed that they varied in color; one green and the other an agate brown with gold flecks. Her eyelids were smeared with a vivid red shadow and a smear of maroon glistened on her lips to accentuate her new hair color. She was trying to look older than her years, but subtracting the cosmetics he figured that she had been born during his second year of grade school which was the year of JFK’s victory over Nixon.

"I-I-I almost hit a million." Sean stepped away from the machine upset by her interference.

"If you want to spend the rest of the night with a pinball machine instead of me, knock yourself out?" Tammi clumsily shifted her weight to one hip and nearly toppled off the towering platform shoes.

“No, I came her for you and I’m leaving with you.” Sean gestured for the young boy to finish his remaining games and exited from the amusement center with Tammi.

“How was your night?” His leather jacket needed a lining against the cold wind.

“Spending eight hours as bait in a crab pit isn’t much fun, but I made good money and that’s what the Dollhouse is all about making money.” She hooked her arm with his. A woman on her own was a target on the Strip and even well past 2am Times Square wasn’t ready to call it a night.

Men were crowding into a nearby theater featuring the hit XXX film BEHIND THE GREEN DOOR and a pimp strutted across Broadway with two ladies in skimpy silks. Tammi shut her borrowed fur jacket with a shiver.

“Pretty amazing, huh?” Tammi shut her borrowed fur jacket with a shiver.

“There’s not another place like it in America.” Boston’s Combat Zone was a Boy Scout jamboree in comparison. A pair of purse snatchers were eying the redhead and Sean lifted the bass over his shoulder. They moved away to seek easier prey

“We better take a taxi to my place.” Sean should have stuck the teenager on a bus back home, but he told himself that GTH needed a lead singer. It was an easy lie to believe after having seen her naked tonight.

“Where’s the Sharkmobile?” Tammi had felt safe in the Olds 88.

“It disappeared two nights ago.” Sean walked toward 42nd Street and Tammi struggled to keep pace on the platforms.

“Too bad, it was a good ride. So tell me about this band?"

"I’m on bass. Johnny on guitar, Frankie on drums, and this rich kid, Charles Ames III on keyboards."

"This isn't a cover band?" Anytime she had sung in the shower she had visualized herself in front of a band performing songs that no one had heard before.

"No, we have our own material. Not soft rock like Seals and Croft, but punk like the Ramones.”

"One of the girls at the Dollhouse was talking about them.” Tammi loved the sound of this band and leaned into the ex-hippie for protection from the wind.

“They play hard and fast music." Sean liked her close to him and didn’t care how wrong feeling this good was with a girl her age.

"Then count me in." Singing in a rock band was an unexpected promotion from her career as a teenage runaway stripper.

"I’m not promising anything. You have to do an audition."

“I know that.” Getting a job at the Dollhouse had simply entailed a willingness to take off her clothes. Singing lead for a band required a talent that only Sean saw in her.

“Johnny wants to hear your voice tomorrow.”

"Then we should rehearse your songs."

“Now?” His fingers were burning from the steel strings.

"I'm too young to be tired this early, but if you have to meet your girlfriend, I can get a room at the Lark.” It was less than two blocks away.

"I don’t have anyone anymore." Sean dropped his face to hide the hurt. "That girl ran off to Paris."

"Whenever I had a busted heart, all the songs on the radio sounded like they were written for me, even POPCORN." His bad news was good news for her

"POPCORN?" Sean had been brainwashed by the infectious pop instrumental on a cross-country drive in 1974 and he tried to pin down her age by asking, "You couldn’t have been any older than thirteen then?"

"No, I was fifteen and a date took me to this drive-in, where the lady next door sold popcorn off her porch. Eating it with my head on his shoulder was so dreamy that the song POPCORN makes me all misty inside." Tammi skipped the part about her date spreading a rumor about his hitting a ‘home run’ with her. They had only kissed a little, but the girls at school had elected her the class fast girl by calling her ‘Bases’.

"URGE FOR GOING brings tears to my eyes." Sean meant the Tom Rush version.

"Men cry hearing Joni Mitchell?” No boy in Kittery had ever admitted liking her.

"I don’t let anyone see me." Sorrow he buried beneath rage. Tears were special. On the corner of Seventh Avenue he flagged a downtown taxi. They got inside and Tammi slid across the seat to Sean.

"I'm simply sharing body heat, so don’t take it the wrong way."

“Their wives served as bedwarmers for guests.” He had read about this hospitality in Peter Freuchen’s BOOK OF THE ESKIMOS.”

“I’ll save that information next time I sit on Santa’s lap.”

Tammi actually appeared happy and Sean asked, "Did you think you'd meet me again?"

"In some ways I haven't.” She touched his ragged hair. “You’re a not hippie anymore."

“Shit, crazy bastard!” The driver swerved the wheel to avoid hitting barely a bare-chested man standing in the avenue, as if he were facing a hail of bullets.

Tammi swiveled her head. "Did you see that?"

"Yeah, and I know who it was. He’s the bass player for a band from Cleveland." Johnny had told him Dead Boys had signed a deal with CBGB’s owner for the bar tab and a percentage of the door.

"Really?" Tammi drew Sean closer than he had imagined possible.

Despite the cigarette smoke in her hair and the tang of sweat on her skin she smelled young and Sean said, "There's a lot you haven’t seen before."

"Namely?" Two nights and three days in Times Square had exposed her to an underbelly unexplored by sophomore Social Studies and she slipped an icy hand inside his jacket.

"Beautiful transvestites and David Bowie hustlers in black leather coloring their hair red and blue."

"Sounds like my new home away from home." She was never going back to Kittery.

“The bands are great, the people wild, they’re open late, and Johnny knows everyone.”

“Johnny’s the guitarist, right?” She was losing track of everyone in the band.

“Yes, and he stays at the Terminal too.”

The taxi reached the Terminal Hotel and the driver asked, "You young people staying in this dump?"

"I have a room with a view and it's warm."

"Tonight that sounds like heaven." Tammi jumped out of the taxi and a biting flurry pursued them into the hotel lobby, where ragged men were huddled on the floor next to the heaters.

"Guests are five dollars extra." Ernie pointed to a sign on the wall.

"She's coming to sing a few songs." Sean didn’t see the need to pay more money for a few hours and suspected Ernie was working a hustle.

"You young people find a new word for ‘it’ each generation. She goes to the room, you pay the five. I’m just following the rules of management."

"Same as with your guests?" Sean pointed to the sleeping pig-pile smelling of Sterno.

"They usta stay in the Bowery Missions, then the state cleared the nut houses and the bums got the short end of the stick.” Wino Liberation was a cause dear to his heart.

"Sorry, man, if I insulted your favorite charity." Sean handed over five dollars.

"Staying here for a buck beats freezin’ to death on the street.” Ernie pocketed these extras without reporting the take to his boss.

"I get a receipt?" The Terminal Hotel seemed to operate without paper.

"She have an ID?" Ernie countered with a raised eyebrow.

“Not with me.” Tammi had kept the ID in her leather jacket.

“Then try not to disturb any of our guests by playin' too loud." Ernie wasn't writing any receipts for money going into his pocket instead of the cash register.

"I have to move out of this dump," Sean said for the tenth times in two days.

"It's quieter than where I spend the past two nights." She had expected someone to break down her door the entire night at the Lark.

“No place is quiet in New York.” There were too many people.

Unlocking the door to room 301, he was glad to see that his breath wasn’t visible. Tammi shucked her rabbit-fur jacket and wanted to strip off the itchy spandex jumpsuit. Tomorrow she had to buy new clothes and she flicked one strap off her shoulder. Sean was watching her every move and she fought from smiling.

"You said you have a few songs. You write down the lyrics or are they stuck in your head?"

"No, I wrote them down." The tightness of the spandex jumpsuit revealed she wasn’t wearing a bra or panties, Sean resisted kissing her and gave her three sheets of paper.

Tammi read the scrawled words.

"They're good poems.”

“Thanks.” He strapped the bass over his neck.

“But they suck as songs."

"How so?" No one else in the band had insulted his lyrics.

"Usually the finishing syllable of each line has to rhyme and the lines should have the equal measure. If line A has eight counts and B has seven, C and D should match A and B." English was her one A subject and Tammi scribbled on the paper with a pencil.

"What are you doing?" Sean wasn’t accustomed to grammatical corrections from a high school dropout.

"Changing a few words."

"This is the modern world, not Shakespearean England?" Sean fingered the GAD chord progression Johnny had taught him and kept the beat with his foot. Playing the bass without a mistake was almost impossible. He was no musician.

"I don't care if it's a bunch of cavemen grunting around a fire. You do it the right way and it's easier to sing. This song TAKE ME HIGHER works, if you change "Don’t want to go to London or Rome. Can't call any of them my kind of home." to "Been to London, Paris, and Rome. Looking for a place to call my home." Tammi stared at Sean for approval and he had to admit, “It’s better.”

“And more so to music.” Tammi sang the altered lyrics to his plodding bass. She was as good as he remembered for the car and he broke into a grin.

”Are you making fun of my singing?” Tammi pouted with a young girl’s petulance.

“No, I really like your singing, but I’m surprised that you never sang before.” Sean laid his bass on the bed and Tammi lowered her head, anticipating the worst. "A little in the shower. Am I that bad?”

“No, you’re good and in truth better than good.”

"I can't recall anyone saying I was good at anything." Her stepmother was all right, but she was stuck with Tammi, because no one else would have her.

"Well, my mother was a great singer.” Sean omitted having seen Grace Slick or Janis Joplin in fear that their names might date him further into the Sixties.

“She sing with a band?” Tammi imagined his mother singing him lullabies.

“No, my mother performed at theaters in Boston and Portland, but abandoned her career to raise a family. Once she silenced the cathedral choir during AVE MARIA. I heard the voices died one by one and the bishop stopped serving Mass. I was embarrassed at the time. Now I realize it was an incredible moment. Your voice is nothing like hers, but you have something special.

"Thanks for saying I could sing.”

“Good and special. I don’t know whether I can handle all these compliments.” Tammi stared at the mural on the wall. The naked man was Sean. His girlfriend had lived here and Tammi grabbed her rabbit jacket to leave. Sean blocked the door. "Why you leaving?”

"I can’t stay here." She was liking Sean too fast for her own good.

"I paid the five dollars for your guest privilege." Not everyone in America had experienced a happy childhood and he vowed to tread carefully around her past. "Plus the two of us together could help each other by splitting the rent for this place.

”I don’t need anyone’s help.” Her eyes silently reminded him that she had been mistreated at home.

“Everyone needs help.”

“Not me.” She had been alone in this world ever since her father's OD. "If you want to go, I won’t stop you.” He stepped away from the door. Room 301 was not a jail.

"And if I don’t go?" Tammi bit her lower lip.

"Then neither of us will have to sleep alone." Sean's answer was as basic as he could make it.

Two nights ago the teenager had been willing to stay with him. He was much nicer than any of the boys in Kittery. Neither of them were saying that their sharing a place to live was a permanent arrangement and Tammi sat on the bed.

"I'll stay on a couple of conditions."

"Conditions?" He hadn’t expected any demands.

"The girls at the Dollhouse smoke and shot any drug they can find, legal or illegal. My father was a dope addict. I can’t live through that nightmare again, so if we live together, I can’t have you doing drugs.”

Sean had started smoking pot at 18, dropped acid over fifty times, snorted coke ten times, and huffed glue twice in 6th Grade.

"I’m not really into anything, but beer, although Johnny and Frankie are a little religious about drugs."

"I'm not living with them."

"Anything else?"

“One more thing.” Tammi had overheard the other dancers’ horror stories about their boyfriends and issued her 2nd Commandment, "No stealing from me."

"That’s a two-way street. You need money, ask.” Sean touched her skin. It was smooth as a river stone and softer than a dinner bun. “Me, I have one request.”

Tammi braced to hear a sick sexual perversion only to have Sean pluck away her cigarettes.

“These are as deadly as dope and you look ridiculous smoking.”

“I need those.” They calmed her down.

“If I’m stopping drugs, so can you.” Sean threw the pack into a wastebasket.

“You didn’t wait for the answer.” Tammi felt like he had thrown away her teddy bear.

“There was only one.” Sean joined her on the bed. “Anything else on the list?"

"Just this?" Tammi kissed Sean, busting the fragile seams of his heart.

He hadn’t expected such passion from the teenager and breathlessly he pushed back the young girl. "Slow down." "No slowing down. You and me are living for today and I’m not missing a second of it." Tammi was setting the pace for both of them. Each caress and every kiss scrapped away their past, as their hands tore off their clothing. They fell naked into bed naked and words ceased to exist in room 301, for they were the only two people left in a city of millions, until the sun rose on another new day and sunset was hours away from now.