Sunday, February 6, 2011

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 3

Thirty-one shopping days remained until Christmas, yet not a single wreath adorned the entrance of the porno shops, strip clubs, or X-rated theaters above 42nd Street and any Santa Claus, real or fake, steered clear of Times Square, where hapless victims were robbed, cheated, murdered or worse without any interference from the Law, for the 'Deuce' had been designated a free-for-all red-light district by NYC officials in hopes of containing the city's rampant sex and drug traffic. Standing in front of the Haymarket Bar Johnny Darling bore silent witness to the overwhelming failure of the politicians’ social experiment.

All along the Minnesota Strip suburban tricks hijacked teenage runaways straight off a bus from the Midwest and slick hustlers struck cowboy poses on the street corners, while unsuspecting hicks were trailed down dark streets by dope-hungry muggers. The action should have tapered off before Thanksgiving, except the players on the Strip were dedicated to acting naughty and not the least bit nice and tonight was no exception.

A sharp gust unraveled a pile of trash and the discarded newspapers scattered over the sidewalk. Johnny dodged a page, as the door to the Haymarket opened for a tall blonde transvestite in a white leather jacket and tight matching pants.

"Leaving so soon, Dove?" Johnny asked, blowing into his bare hands.

"Just taking a break from my date's complaining about his wife." The blonde sashayed behind Johnny for shelter from the cold and she towered over him taller in her stiletto heels. She wasn't wearing a shirt or bra and her heavily made-up eyes simmered with slattern lust, as if she were auditioning for a porno film. "What about you? Any luck?"

"A wasteland and I need a quick score to pay my rent." The twenty-year old leaned into the slender beauty, whose translucent skin radiating an unnatural heat for this time of year.

"If you help me, I'll help you, my dear dear Johnny." The young transvestite caressed the blonde guitarist's neck with a tenderness of a girl scout recovering a long-lost teddy bear.

"It's a deal. You know I have simple tastes,"Johnny declared over KC's THAT'S THE WAY booming on the bar's jukebox. "My guitar, drinking at a bar, eating a little food, good music, and someplace warm to sleep."

"What about the gypsy's woman’s prediction of fame and fortune?” Dove cuddled closer to the guitarist with each syllable.

“I’m haven’t given up on stardom, although you’re the only star in this night’s sky.”

"You’ve always had a sweet way with words.”

“Only for my friends.” Johnny had witnessed Dave’s transformation to Dove in the seclusion of her parents’ bedrooms. Her mother’s lingerie and make-up had given way to clothing stolen from Macy’s. “But you’ve been a star ever since we dressed you up as Jodie Foster in TAXI DRIVER.”

“A pink tube top, white silk hot pants, and red spaghetti strap pumps.” Dove sighed with fondness of her debut on the Strip.

“You stopped the traffic dead on 42nd Street.”

“That act was good for a teenage summer. Now I’ve matured into a Vogue model. Last night at Les Jardins this designer asked me to be in his fashion show. He was I would be a sensation.”

“As you are every night.” 42nd Street was Dove’s runway. The eyes of the men seeking her attention were the cameras. The nineteen year-old sold glamor by the hour and her buyers understood the risk and price of that transaction.

“But really, Johnny, when are you going take me away from all this?” Dove twirled a lacquered strand of hair in her fingers.

“I’m starting a new band.”

“Another band playing to a hundred punks at CBGB’s or Max’s is not buy tickets to the South of France.” Dove sighed with exasperation.

“Knowing your tastes, I’d have to sell out Madison Square Garden to afford a vacation on the Riviera.” Johnny stepped aside for a priestly gentleman and two teenagers entering the Haymarket. His companions were above the legal age, but pretended to be 16 and Dove said, “They won’t pass for jailbait much longer.”

“Not unless they lower the lighting inside.””¨

"Dark lighting is a girl’s best make-up.” Dove hushed into Johnny’s ear. “You hear about Jimmie Bags?”

“How the cops gave their favorite bagman a machine gun for his birthday and how later the drunken idiot tested the gift at a nightclub, nearly wounding three cops in the line of duty?” People on the Deuce told him everything, although sometimes Johnny wished that he could retire from his unofficial position as the Strip’s confessor, except the only applicants for the job were the police and no one plea-bargained their sins with the Law.

“You hear and see all.” Dove backed away from her longtime friend to survey the Strip.

“And on no account do I tell all.” Whatever entered his ear didn’t break the seal of his lips.

“That’s my baby.” Dove kissed Johnny’s cheek. The street was too rough on her kind and she told him, “I got to get back inside and save my date from the claw's of some Miss Thing’s. Mr. DeMille, I’m ready for my scene.”

Dove entered the bar and a passing middle-aged trick beamed an inviting smile. Johnny shook his head, indicating that he was waiting for a better offer, then silently asked, “How long I been saying that?”

Most of his old friends and competitors were in jail or dead, for Times Squares’ math was as loaded against hustlers as crooked dice. Chilled by the premonition of his luck crapping out, Johnny scanned the quagmire of faces shuffling along the sidewalk. Two seconds later Frankie scooted up to him and announced, “We have a live one on the way.”

“Left or right?” Johnny asked defensively, since his protege specialized in unnecessary risks.

“The loaded white guy was checking out on the last block. He spots me and I motion for him to follow me.” Frankie glimpsed over his shoulder.

An overweight businessman with his tie adrift at the neck was staggering through the crowd.

“I’ll take him into a peep show and pickpocket his wallet.” Frankie bounced on his toes with too much eagerness.

“We have to give him a miss.”

“He’s drunk.” Frankie was puzzled by the rejection of this sucker.

“Take a closer look. Those thick-soled shoes are for running and the undercover cop across the street is back-up. You want to spend the night in Spofford?”

“At least Juvie Hall is warm.” Last summer Frankie had racked up two thirty-day bids in the Bronx jail famed for rotten food, sadistic guards, and bloody gang beatings. “I need money.”

“The night is young,” Johnny assured the drummer, although the theater had let out their audiences. The easy marks were being replaced by drunks with little cash in their pockets and their fellow hustlers were switching to the more predatory pursuits of purse-snatching or knifepoint robberies.

“And colder too.” Frankie wanted everything yesterday.

“We’ll score soon." Without one he was sleeping in an all-night theater on 42nd Street.

"I hope so.” Frankie swept back his hair. “How I look?”

“Like a young Richie Valens.”

“How many times I have to tell you.” The young boy stood with raised fists. “I’m Puerto Rican, not Mexican.”

Johnny slipped a left under Frankie’s guard. His knuckles barely tapped the teenager’s chin. Frankie dropped his hand and tears dampened the corners of his eyes.”¨

"What I tell you about fighting?" Faking fighting prowess could be a fatal error on the Strip, where everyone was a potential killer.

“That we’re lovers, not fighters.”

"That's right." Johnny gave Frankie two dollars. He was down to three. “Stop your crying and go get warm.”

“You know where I’ll be.” The young boy hurried to the subterranean Eight Avenue arcade. $2 bought eight pinball games out of the cold and Frankie was skilled enough to last an hour at the KISS machine. If nothing happened before then, Johnny was calling it a night.

WALK ON THE WILD SIDE replaced KC’s disco hit inside the Haymarket and Johnny fingered Lou Reed’s anthem on air guitar. His Les Paul was safe with the cashier of ShowWorld and he sang along with the irresistible chorus.

“In the backroom she was everyone’s darling.” Johnny stepped forward to allow an exit from the bar. It was Dove and she stuck a wallet in his hand, as she sang, “But she never lost her head, even when she was giving head."

“Meet me at Adonis.” She tugged on her paper-thin white leather coat and clattered around the corner seconds before a mustached man in his thirties burst from the Haymarket, his head bopping on his shoulders like a turtle on Speed and his hands clawing at his pockets. Any honest citizen would have been shouting for the police.

“You see a tall blonde?”

“She have on a white coat?” Johnny knitted his brow with concern.

“Yeah, that’s the one.” The sucker bought his sincerity with frantic gratitude. His wedding ring meant a wife in the suburbs. Most of Dove’s tricks were straight or so they told themselves.

“Which way she go?”

His having heard the truth about the coat primed the man for a lie.

“She headed toward the Port Authority. Maybe thirty seconds ago.”

“Thanks.” The man darted down the crowded sidewalk.

“Just doing my civic duty.” Johnny casually crossed the avenue, for running was a sure sign of guilt in Times Square. Opposite the Haymarket he pulled the cash from the wallet, which he dumped in the nearest trash can.

Farther down the block Johnny counted the bills before stepping into the foyer of the Adonis Theater. Dove was leaning against a poster promoting a gay sex movie. Johnny slipped the money into her jacket pocket.

“Nice little score.” She returned five $20s to Johnny.

“Are you sure?” His take was on the generous side.

“Most of the scum on this street would have stiffed me.”

“We go back plus I have three rules; trust no one more than you trust yourself, steal from the most deserving, and avoid the deadly sin of greed.”

“You’re such a good Catholic boy, too bad you’re not into women.” Dove strived hard to sound like a young Tallulah Bankhead.

“Never said I didn’t like women.”

“You ever been with one?” Dove fluttered her eyes at a mustached passer-by.

“You know better than that. All the women care about is turning me straight.”

“So there’s no hope for me?” Dove cinched the belt of her leather jacket and Johnny poked his head around the corner of the foyer. There was no sign of her victim.

“You never know.” He wasn’t into to women, but Dove was not a woman and he said, “One day I might love you.”

“I’ll be counting the minutes till then.” The transvestite strutted to the curb and flagged a taxi. A checker stopped in the street and Dove flipped a loose strand of hair from her face. “You care for a ride to CBGBs? The Ramones are headlining.”

“I have to take care of Frankie.” $42 covered his back-rent at the Terminal Hotel and a twenty would happy up the young Puerto Rican drummer and leaving him $38. It was time to call it a night.

“You’re a soft touch.” Dove waved good-bye from the taxi window. “That kid will be the death of you.”

“He’s no trouble. No more than you.”

“No trouble? Baby, trouble’s my adopted last name?” Dove shouted out the window, as the taxi turned left on the next street. Johnny pulled up his collar and clocked the foot traffic on the sidewalks. The scammers outnumbered the scammed 5 to 1 and he hurried down the sidewalk dreaming about his bed at the Terminal Hotel.

His foot stepped onto the pavement of 44th Street only to have a black 1976 Lincoln TownCar block his path and a hand as white as smoke beckoned from the rear window. Johnny peered through the crack at a grim blonde boy in a black silk bathrobe and pajamas suspecting a set-up, but pale-skinned teenagers were only narcs on TV cops shows.

“I know you?”

“No.” His voice was barely audible. “But I know you.”

Johnny didn’t like hearing that or the lock popping up open.

“You want me in the car?”

“If you please.” The young man replied with a private school accent hoarse from disuse.

“Who can’t resist such politeness.” Johnny sat in the car. The interior smelled of medicine, instead of leather.

“You’re staring.” The pajamaed passenger slouched against the opposite door, as if his back had been hammered out of place.

“It’s not often you meet Howard Hughes’ illegitimate son.”

“It’s Hugh Hefner who wears pajamas.” His host was annoyed by the levity.

“Sorry, I get millionaires mixed up.” Johnny lifted his hands in apology.

“Where to?” The thick-necked driver coughed in front.

“Down the block." A sheet of black glass cut them off from front seat and the car drove farther from 8th Avenue. The passenger told Johnny, "This isn’t about sex.”

“That’s a first for Times Square. So how do you know me?” Johnny wanted to solve this mystery.

“I don’t know you personally, but I saw what you did.” The passenger scowled, as if he had co-authored the Ten Commandments.

“Do what?” Johnny wasn’t admitting to anything.

“You helped that ‘girl’ rob that man and dumped this wallet in the trash.” He held up the discarded wallet with a handkerchief. “And last week I saw you rescue a drug dealer from arrest by pushing two theatergoers into the path of the police.”

“Really?” Johnny was irritated by the absence of this incident from his memory and even more so that he hadn’t noticed this car or its passenger and he asked, “How much?”

“I don’t need your money.” The passenger fidgeted into a more comfortable possession, as the Lincoln turned onto 9th Avenue. The driver was in no hurry.

“Good, because I’d hate to split $100.” Johnny’s hand grasped the door handle, hesitant to jump out of moving car, then settled back into the seat. The passenger wore expensive slippers and his pajamas were made of high-quality silk. He was rich and a rich sucker was an opportunity not to be passed up in Times Square.

“You’re staring again.”

“Sorry, if this isn’t for sex or a shakedown, what's the story?” Johnny was a musician as well as a hustler. Both professions required an acute sense of timing and he allowed several seconds of silence to pass before spinning his web. "You don't want to tell me, then I have a story for you. Three years ago an old Gypsy woman taught me the ancient art of palmistry like how the left hand reveals the past and the right hand predicts the future. I started fooling around reading palms of the strippers, massage girls, pimps, cops, and dealers in Times Square. Some paid me $5 for a reading, but I got tired of reading their highways to hell and I closed up shop.”

“You can divine the future?”

“No, but I learned that most people want the same thing; money, love, happiness and so I told people what they want to hear and they’ll nod their head when you’re right.

“So it’s a trick?” This revelation clearly disappointed the young man like he had been told a magician's secret.

“Sometimes yes, sometimes no, I’m not sure when was which.” Johnny sensed the passenger’s desire for answers and spoke without any premonition as to what he would say. “We are all trapped by the past. It is the future that frees us, if your present isn’t a jail. I bet you haven’t stepped on the street in months.”

The passenger’s eyes widened with this plundering of his soul.

“And I’m probably the first person you spoke with in a long time other than the driver and your family.”

The passenger’s lack of a response confirmed that he was on the right track.

“You don’t talk about anything to anyone. You don’t ever leave this car either and I know why.” Johnny played him without pity. “Because whatever happened to you didn’t kill you and sometimes you wish that it did.”

The passenger reached forward to knock on the window and the effort hurt more than he was willing to show, giving Johnny another insight into why he was in this car.

“You had an accident. A bad accident. It changed who you were into who you are now and you don’t like that person, but you’re not the only person in the world that changed from who they wanted to be. I was a good kid once. An altar boy. No one recited the Mass better than me. Families hired me to serve their weddings or bury their grandparents. I was vain enough to consider myself special. A priest did too and he corrupted my life time after time. He said he was trying to teach me humility. I didn’t need to taught humility and neither did you, even though you went to the best schools and summered in Europe.”

“This is all a trick.”

A red light stopped the Lincoln at 54th Street and Johnny slapped his palm on the dividing window. It slid down halfway.

“Pull over to the curb,” Johnny told the driver and turned to the passenger, “I can only tell you what I see. It’s no trick. I see you trapped in this car, praying for the boy to come back from the grave, but both him and my innocent altar boy are dead. We can only become someone else. Someone new.”

“You make it sound so easy.” The passenger’s right eye twitched with a slight spasm.

“It is easy.” His host had been hurt bad and Johnny knew hurt. “All you have to do is leave this car and live.”

“With them?” The passenger regarded the passing parade with a noticeable disdain. The dregs of Times Square were heading home for the night and none of them had houses or apartments.

“There’s more to life than them or this car. Other people, other places.”

“If I fall, I could hurt myself more.”

Being scared is all part of taking the first steps. Have you fallen since your injury?”

“A couple of times.”

“And you didn’t die?”

“No.”

“I can understand you’re frightened of the pain, but mummifying yourself in this car is a form of death and that’s why you picked me up tonight.” Johnny told the driver, “Me and my friend are leaving the car.”

“Mr. Ames?” The driver asked, as if getting out of the car was against the rules.

“Robert, park the car for a second.”

The car pulled over to the curb.

Johnny stepped out of the car and reached inside to assist the young man from the back seat.

The passers-by stared at the black pajamas and Johnny glared at them with practiced disdain.

“Ignore them. They’re nobodies. You’re what matters. How’s it feel to be out of that car?”

“Like I should return to the cocoon.” He wasn’t very stable on his feet.

“Too late for that. Breathe.”

The young man inhaled the cold air like an astronaut testing the atmosphere of Mars. The garish streetlights were unfiltered by the Lincoln’s smoked windows and jarred his eyes and the noise battered his eardrums, then a harsh wind kissed his skin with an old lover’s forgiveness. His knees buckled from the sensory overload and Johnny caught him. The young man didn’t weigh much.

“It’ll improve with practice. Trust me.”

“You expect me to trust a thief?”

“Thieves have more honor than most people and I’m not only a thief. You play an instrument?”

“A little piano.” The young man hesitated, as if he might have given an incorrect response.

“Think you could play an organ?” Dove was right. Johnny was soft. This kid was primed for a scam and he was letting him off the hook to become part of his life.

“Organ?”

“A Bach fugue worked for Procul Harum in A WHITER SHADE OF PALE and the Doors’ LIGHT MY FIRE would have been nothing with the organ, which is definitely a hipper choice than a piano for punk.”

“Punk?” The term was a blank for the Lincoln’s passenger.

“Punk like the Ramones, and Patti Smith.” Johnny’s blitz of information retilted his new acquaintance.

“The only times I heard the word “˜punk’ have been in reference to this incense burnt to stave off mosquitoes.”

“It’s also a prison definition for another convict’s sex slave, but the punk I’m talking about has to do with music.”

“Sorry, I don’t listen much to the radio.” The young man stood erect with a pained effort.

“Punk doesn’t get play on the radio.” The record executives hated it. “I’ve had two bands, the Disappointed and the Precious Few. Both failed, due to ego problems or talent conflicts, but I haven’t abandoned my dream, so today is your lucky day.”

“Lucky?” He looked to the car, as if his driver was supposed rescue him, but doors remained shut.

“Yes, you’re lucky, because I’m offering you a crash course in punk and punk will bring you back from the dead. You know the song LOUIE LOUIE?”

“Yeah, duh, duh duh, duh-duh, duh-duh duh.”

“So you’re not totally brain dead about music. Now speed it up faster and rawer and nastier.”

“Like Slade? My sister had played them on her stereo.”

“Not exactly, but close.” Frankie had been the drummer in the Disappointed and Cheri from room 301 had sung for the Precious Few. Bass players were as rare as light bulbs, but an organist with money was a trick pony begging for a circus.

“When I first got in the car, I was thinking about ripping you off, but I said to myself, “Why I rip him off for couple of hundred dollars, when I can score more, but now that you’re going to be in my band, your money is safe. Like I said there’s honor among thieves.”

“I-I-I-I never said I’d join in your band.”

“Okay, don’t join my band.” Johnny backed away from the passenger, who snagged his arm.

“Don’t go.”

“Okay.” He was hooked, but good and Johnny had yet to tell one lie. “But a warning. Punks about burning down the temple of soft rock, pissing off the middle of the road producers. It’s not a big scene. Maybe two thousand punks in New York, LA, London, but there’s more every day and your joining us could only help the cause. You’re going to love it.”

“Couldn’t I like it first?”

“Like is for a distant aunt with a mustache. Tomorrow evening come to Max’s Kansas City on Union Square.”

“I’m having dinner at the Carlyle Hotel with my father and sister.”

“That’s right. Tomorrow's Dry Turkey Day.” Johnny wasn't losing his organist to a dead bird and spotted another opening. “Can your sister sing?”

“Not a note.” Caroline had many talents. Singing was not one of them.

“What she look like?” Nico had proved that a good voice was not a prerequisite for a lead singer and he tried to imagine a female version of Charles.

“Many men find her attractive.” Mostly because she was overtly open to their suggestions, but the coldness of her beauty was a frightening challenge to her suitors.

“Great, then she can be in the band too.” Johnny wondered if he could pass them off as twins.

“No, Caroline isn’t into things like that.” Charles shook his head with a slight back and forth motion.

“That’s too bad.” Finding an organist and a singer in one go was almost too much to ask from New York. “So what about tomorrow?”

“I can meet you after my dinner.”

“Great, but do yourself a favor and lose the Hugh Hefner pajamas.” Johnny fingered the material. Imported silk had to cost a fortune. “Go to St. Mark’s Place around 11 and buy anything black and leather at Trash and Vaudeville and get Snookie to cut your hair at Manic Panic. You have a number?”

“Yes.” He handed Johnny an embossed card. “You can call me “˜Charles’.”

The accent inhibited the use of Charlie or Chuck and Johnny acceded to his new friend’s unspoken request.

“Charles, my name’s Johnny Darling. Now you’ll have to excuse me, I have a previous appointment.”

“Your young friend?” Charles held up the wallet.

“I forgot you were spying on me.”

“Sorry.” The apology sounded heart-felt.

“I’ve forgiven you too.” Johnny helped Charles into the car. “You’ll meet my assistant tomorrow. He’s the drummer.”

“Your band have a name?” The rich boy was visibly relieved to be off his feet. His pain was no joke.

“GTH.” Johnny had remembered the top bill at the Adonis Theater and stripped the first letter of each word in the title. “It’s short for “˜Gone To Hell. I’ll call you tomorrow, “˜Charles’.”

“Any time after ten.”

“I’m a late-waker too.” Johnny shut the door and the Lincoln disappeared down the street.

Nearby drifters envied his imagined score and Johnny walked toward 42nd Street. Times Square was shuttering for the night. Entering ShowWorld his nose reeled from the smell of pine oil used to clean the viewing cubicles. The elderly clerk passed his guitar from behind the counter.

“Lucky?”

“More than you can imagine.” Johnny left the porno emporium and spotted Frankie across the avenue. The young boy was begging for a handout under a movie marquee promoting THE DEVIL IN MRS. JONES. Tonight his helplessness was no act. No one on the Strip owed anyone favors and Johnny could walk away from Frankie without a twinge of guilt, instead he shouted out to the drummer, who lifted his head like a dog hearing its master’s whistle. Frankie ran across the avenue and said, “I thought you had ditched out on me.”

“Would I do that?” Johnny slipped him $20.

“My prayers are answered. I love you.” The young boy stamped his feet on the pavement.

“Love no one. Not me. Not anyone.” He couldn’t tell Frankie that fools never followed their own advice.

“Everything is just business.” Frankie had adopted Johnny as his God, even if worshiping him might cost his soul.

“And business is good.” Dove’s score was none of his business, but he had to tell someone about meeting Charles. “I ran into an 'angel’.”

“What kind of angle you talking 'about'?” An F in Algebra had ended his schooling.

“Not angle. An Angel.”

“You turning religious on me?” Frankie had lost more friends to the church than drugs.

“I’m talking about an angel to finance our band off the ground.” The priest’s kiss had permanently soured Johnny’s faith in God.

“Our band?” Johnny’s plans to reform the Dispossessed was mostly talk.

“No, new one.” His hands itched to create new music on his guitar. “GTH.”

“GTH?” Frankie asked, eagerly, hoping for the three letters might have been a new drug.

“It stands for Gone To Hell.” They needed new songs to go with the new name.

“Gone To Hell?” Frankie hadn’t been to church in years, but he still respected the horror of a fiery eternity. “I don’t want to burn in Hell.”

“You’re not going to burn in any Hell. Not while I’m around in this life and the next.” They needed a place to rehearse and he knew one in Chinatown.

“Okay, if you say so.” Frankie bongoed a beat on a car. “So who else is in GTH?”

“This rich kid’s on organ and Cheri will sing.”

“She has a terrible voice.” Frankie had no use for the stuck-up painter living down the hall from Johnny at the Terminal Hotel.

“If I know you two don’t get along, but Cheri can shake her ass. The straight guys and the lezbos will love her. The organist is a cripple. The sad girls will love him. You beat the drums and I scorched the air with my guitar.” Johnny was thinking way ahead of tonight, even knowing that no surefire formula existed to guarantee musical success, however not contemplating failure was a step in the right direction. “We’ll have a number one on the charts for a hundred weeks and live the life in Hollywood.”

“Movie stars, palm trees, and swimming pools,” Enticed by Johnny’s enthusiasm, Frankie chanted the words like “˜lions, tigers, and bears’ from THE WIZARD OF OZ and then asked, “Care to score a few bags?”

“No, I have to stay straight for this 'angel’ tomorrow.” Johnny couldn’t preach moderation in fear of throwing a rock through a window of his temple of sins. “Go get high. You can crash at the Terminal later.”

“Thanks.” Frankie headed to Bryant Park with reckless determination and Johnny lifted his arm to flag a taxi. Instead a Plymouth Valiant halted by the curb and its overweight driver ordered, “Don’t move.”

Nearly half the foot traffic froze in place, though the command was aimed at Johnny. He walked slowly over to the nondescript car and asked, “And how can I help you this fine evening, Sgt. Weinstein?”

“Save that Eddie Haskell shit for LEAVE IT TO BEAVER.” The grey-haired detective hauled himself out of the unmarked cop car and hitched up his 40-inch waist Sta-Press pants, pretending he had all the time in the world. “See your guitar’s out of hock.”

“Yes, sir.” There was a chance that the cop had witnessed Dove’s score. Johnny paid it safe and said, “An old friend repaid a debt.”

“You’re fortunate to have friends, Mr. Darlino.” The heavyweight detective was waging a one-man campaign against the wickedness of the Strip. Ten more cops like him would have shut down Times Square for good, however the NYPD honored other commitments to Law and Order.

“The name’s Darling.” Johnny hated any connection to his past.

“We get you down to the precinct and you’re John Darlino real fast.” The detective frisked the hustler’s pockets. “Where you headed?”

“Home, Sergeant Weinstein.” Johnny lifted his arms to facilitate the search.

“You mean 'home’ like Mom and Dad’s house in Florida for Turkey Day?” While most of the cops in Times Square were on the take, the detective was relatively honest. Whatever he found on Johnny was Johnny’s as long as it wasn’t illegal.

“Hell, no, I’m done with that cracker state.” Four years ago DisneyWorld in Orlando had offered his father a position promoting tourism. The move had mostly been made to save Johnny from his friends and the sixteen year-old had accompanied them, promising to be a good boy. He had lasted two very long years.

”Don’t you miss the palm trees and sun?” Sgt. Weinstein withdrew the remaining money from Johnny’s pocket.

“Naw, I’m into the change of seasons.”

“You call your parents sometimes?”

“Every once in a while.” He told them with the stories about studying at Hunter College days and playing night in a band. Hopefully his lies were easier to believe than their fears about the truth.

“Two years on the Strip and not once have you been arrested or sent to the hospital. Not many people on the Strip can say that.”

“I obey the laws.” Another one of his # 1 rules was to only break one law at a time.

“Unlike the rest of the scum on the street.” Sgt. Weinstein glared at the passers-by and they shrank from his gaze. “I can remember coming here with my mother. We’d go to the movies and I’d have some hot dogs.”

“Not many kids around here now.” Johnny eyed the sidewalks.

“Thank God for that.” The detective couldn’t fathom his city’s descent from the glory days of the 50s. His fellow officers blamed the blacks and drugs, yet the decay ran deeper than race or narcotics.

“I don’t think God has anything to do with it.”

“Same as your luck and that of your boyfriend.” Sgt. Weinstein respected Johnny’s tutelage of Frankie and their avoidance of violent crimes.

“Just trying to keep him out of trouble, that’s all.” Johnny wasn’t taking the bait about Frankie being his boyfriend. “We don’t want to be a burden for the city.”

“My fellow officers are not so appreciative of your effort and they have you in their sights. You’re twenty, right? No more Juvie Hall for you and prison is hard time on pretty boys.”

“I’m dedicated to my music and nothing else.” Johnny Darling lifted his guitar.

“I wish that was true, but everyone makes a mistake and one day you’ll make one too and that day we’ll play LET’S MAKE A DEAL.” Sgt. Weinstein had seen thousands of wiseasses hit the Strip thinking that they could beat the long odds of the street. Most couldn’t count on their fingers

and ended up in jail or lying in an alley dead for less than $50.

“I wish I could walk away from it, but not just yet.”

“Don’t push it too long.” Officer Weinstein shook his head. It wasn’t too late for Johnny to save himself, although he wasn’t so sure about Frankie.

“I’m starting a new band and need some money.”

“You ever heard of work?”

“$2 an hour pays about $65 after taxes. No thanks. I’ll take my chances here, but I promise you. Not for much longer.”

“Don’t promise me. Promise yourself.” The detective’s good cop act was in his nature and he handed back Johnny’s money.

“Have a happy Thanksgiving.”

“Thanks, Sgt. Weinstein. You too.” Something was very wrong about Weinstein cutting loose Johnny, for the detective was renown for never giving an inch, unless he received a yard in return.

Standing on a windy corner offered no answers to this mystery and Johnny Darling jumped in the next Checker cab, instructing the middle-aged driver, “14th and 9th.”

“You have money?”

Johnny flashed a twenty.

“Happy?”

“You do a runner on the other end and I’ll drive you down.” The driver coldly flipped on the meter.

“Thanks for the warning.” Only the NYPD were meaner than New York taxi drivers.

“It’s a promise, not a warning.”

At the meat market on 12th Street the taxi turned onto Washington Street and dropped Johnny at the Terminal Hotel. He paid the driver and raised his eyes to the third-floor corner room. The lights were out in Room 21. Cheri was either asleep or in bed with a new lover. Johnny was knocking on her door either way and entered the hotel lobby flourishing cash.

“You better have my money, cuz no way yer gettin’ a key widout payin’.” The nearly toothless clerk turned off Johnny Carson’s interview with Robert Blake on THE TONIGHT SHOW.

“Shut your hole, Ernie.” Johnny slapped forty-two dollars on the counter and snapped a fiver before the wino’s roadmap of wrinkles. “And a bone for you too, you old alkie.”

“Fer me?” Ernie licked his swollen lips in the anticipation of a soul-quenching bottle of Thunderbird.

“For you.”

“Sorry for the grief, Johnny, you know I like you, but the bosses have a hard-on deadbeats. Even the Great Johnny Darling.”

“Hey I know, but who else takes care of you like me?” Johnny patted the old man’s cheek.

“Only you, Johnny Darling, only you.” Ernie pocketed his tip. “By the way Cheri left you a box.”

“Left me a box?” He palmed his key.

“Yeah,”Cheri split about two hours ago fer the airport. She said sumthin’ about goin’ to Paris.”

The old man toed a cardboard box from behind the desk.

“She say anything about coming back?” Johnny had dismissed her late-night prattling about art school in Paris as a bedtime lullaby.

“Nope.”

“Damn.”

“Damn is right. Guess she wuz spooked by this hippie boy.”

“Spooked?” Johnny had heard Cheri talk about this hippie. She had never spoke about her lovers before. Maybe Ernie was right.

“She spent last weekend with this hippie boy. He had stars in his eyes and a girl like Cheri gets scared that a young fool in love will kill her dreams.”

“But why she leave?”

“Because this hippie boy is supposed to show up tonight to live with her. She left him this letter.”

The clerk held up an envelope and Johnny tried to snatch it. The old alkie had faster reflexes.

“Gotta give that to the hippie, Johnny Boy.”

“So you’re not going to give it to me.”

“I’m like the US Mail that way.”

“I’ll keep that in mind the next time you run short for a bottle of wine.” Johnny lifted the box and walked over to the elevator. “They ever fixing this?”

“Boss sez soon.” Ernie shouted, as Johnny climbed past two winos arguing over who was the most beautiful member of CHARLIE’S ANGELS. On the 2nd floor a madman ranted about the president-elect’s being too Christian. Johnny gave him a quarter and continued to the 3rd floor, where he walked down to Cheri’s room. It was empty, although a painting of a naked hippie covered one wall.

“Fucking hippie.” Johnny entered room #308 and dropped the box next to the stack of LPs. He laid the guitar on the bed and cued up the Dolls’ LONELY PLANET BOY on the stereo. A quick ferret through Cheri’s box produced vintage clothing, two wigs, and no letter. She had loved dressing him as her. “Long as you stay the same weight, you can be my mirror.”

His fingers struck a discordant twang on the steel strings of his Les Paul.

Cheri’s leaving was the hippie’s fault.

He strummed several ragged A chords and visualized this longhair. Her surprise disappearance would break his heart. He might even cry and tears made a man defenseless.

Johnny added an F chord to the train of As chord and envisioned Cheri’s ex-lover facedown in the street without a penny to his or anyone else’s name. A-A-A-F-A ended his murderous solo and he mimicked with Johnny Thunders’ lead.

No one in the Dolls had a spectacular voice. Not even David Johansson. Singing came from the heart not the throat and tomorrow he would find a soul-filled singer at Max’s. As for tonight he could only wait until tomorrow and tomorrow wasn’t never too far away from this time of night.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 4



IV

Two hours past midnight the Olds 88 crossed a bridge spanning a black tidal river. Co-Op City’s stark highrises loomed on the left and abandoned wrecks lined the Interstate to remind motorists that crime didn’t sleep in the Big Apple. Thee minutes later Sean lifted his foot off the gas and veered onto the Bruckner Expressway.

Off the elevated highway flames leapt from a vacant building unattended by fire trucks. Smoke smoldered from neighboring tenements without any spectators. This part of the Bronx had been deserted for most of the decade.

The sleeping runaway on the passenger seat came from small town up north. She probably had never been to a city bigger than Boston and New York was no city for a young girl on her own.

The Olds shuddered over the rough pavement and Sean steered hard right to avoid a deep pothole. Breakdowns in these derelict neighborhoods were a nightmare for motorists passing through the city. Roaming road gangs could strip the tires and engine off a vehicle in less than five minutes, while the owner tried to find a tow truck.

The heavy Oldsmobile rumbled off the highway and Sean headed toward the Willis Avenue Bridge. The car dove into a treacherous dip in the badly-maintained road and the chassis bottomed out with a screech of metal. The young girl stirred from her slumber and rubbed her eyes for several seconds. before asking, "Where are we?"

“Almost in Manhattan." Sean jerked the wheel left to avoid an axle-snapping chasm.

"Really?" Kittery was a small village. Portsmouth was barely a city. Boston was big, but not big like this. Her eyes widened in awe of the panorama of tall apartment buildings across the East River. “I never thought I’d make it.”

“I’m not a bad driver.” The Olds bisected a lane of cars. Horns blared and fists were shaken at the car exiting onto the ramp for Harlem.

“I believe you.” Tammi giggled, sounding twelve. “But the other cars are avoiding yours like it was a shark in a swimming pool."

"The gash on the side is thanks to your friend." The car chase in Connecticut had added an unwanted detour to the trip from Boston,

"And normally after a driver has an accident, they check out the damage." She lit a cigarette and the smoke bit into her lungs. "Meaning?” Sean fussed through the radio to find The Doors' RIDERS ON THE STORM.

“That this isn't your car.” Tammi smirked with the cigarette dangling from her lip. She had spent hours practicing the look in the mirror. “Don’t look so innocent. It’s obvious that this is a stolen car, but I won't report you to Santa Claus or the police."

"It’s not stolen. It was given to me."

“For a Thanksgiving Day present?”

“No, the owner paid me to make it disappear?”

“You do magic tricks like a magician.” The teenager mocked him with fake amazement.

“No, the car is a gas guzzler too much gas. Nobody wants to buy it, so the owner contacts me and I tell to leave it on the street with an extra set of keys under the seat. I drive to New York, park the car in a bad neighborhood, and leave the keys in the ignition, then it's stolen by real thieves and the the next day the owner reports the theft to the police. A month later he gets a check from the insurance company. Happy ending.” Sean hadn’t told any of his friends about his sideline. He shouldn't have told Tammi, but once she got out of the car, he would never see her again.

"You make it sound like you're doing a good deed.” She was a little young to be so sarcastic.

“Only the insurance company gets hurt." Baptized a Catholic Sean had given up of worrying about his immortal soul long ago. “And this is the last car I disappear.”

"I don’t give a fuck whether this is the first, last or the hundredth car you ‘disappeared’. To me it’s a ride.” Tammi twisted the dial to banish RIDERS ON THE STORM from the radio. "I hate that oldie music."

"Oldies? I saw the Doors in 1968. They played for three hours at the Uptown Bus in Boston. I started a band, hoping to be a rock god. All I ever played were pool parties.”

"Sorry, hippie boy, but this is 1976 not 1968." Tammi spun the knob to a droning voice accompanied by a 3-chord band and she sang along with the chorus. "Road, road, roadrunner, goin’ fifty mile an hour."

“Not bad.”

“Me?” Tammi wasn’t used to anyone say something good about her.

“You sound like Dusty Springfield without training.

“So you’re not only a car thief, but a musical expert.” Her father had listening to Dusty Springfield, so she didn’t take comment as an insult.

“I know music. Who’s playing now?” Sean slowed down to get off the bridge.

“I have no idea.” The local station out of Portsmouth was dominated by Top Ten Hits.

“That’s Jonathan Richman in the Modern Lovers and the song’s called ROADRUNNER.”

“I never heard it before, but I like it.” She turned up the volume, but when the song segued to BETH, she ruthlessly shut off Kiss’ hit and hummed Dolly Parton's JOLEEN.

"You hate the Doors and like country?" The driver grappled with the shuddering wheel, as the Olds sped down Lexington Avenue.

"At least you can sing country around a campfire." Tammi gawked at the forlorn projects and the black men on the sidewalks well past midnight. "Is this Harlem?"

"Yes,” Sean answered, pacing his speed to avoid stopping at a red light.

"I always pictured Harlem this way." The young girl was astonished by the number of black people on the sidewalks. "Bright lights. Lots of black people. There are no blacks back home."

“You know anyone in New York?” He was sure that the answer was no.

“No one from my town ever leaves it, but I have enough money to stay at a hotel.” Tammi examined the driver’s thick-boned face. He reminded her of an extra from a 1960s caveman movie, and she asked, "How about you and me splitting a hotel? Money goes longer with two than one."

"I....I..."

Tammi laughed at his stammering.

"Let me guess. You have a jealous girlfriend?"

“Sorry." Sean was two hours late for meeting Cheri.

"Sorry for having someplace to go?” She had done fine in Kittery owing no one nothing. “You in love?"

"Yes." Love was the only word to describe the feeling of Cheri’s embrace.

"Then all’s forgiven." Tammi stopped speaking and the Olds rolled down avenues and streets surrounded by the gauntlet of increasingly taller buildings. After fifteen minutes she pulled out a cigarette without lighting it and pressed her face to the window.

“I know where I am. This is where they drop the ball on New Year's Eve."

“It’s Times Square.” The glow of the marquees and flashing neon billboards camouflaged the area’s legendary sordidness. On the sidewalk two young boys were rummaging through a fallen man’s pockets. No one on the sidewalk interfered with the robbery.

"Tammi, no matter how terrible it was at home, you're too young for this. In 1969 I watched hundreds of girls flocking to the hippie corner in Boston Commons. They drifted away to free-love communes on Mission Hill or go-go bars in the Combat Zone. Each of those places were a thousand times safer than Times Square.”

"I’m willing to listen to an alternative.”

"I give you the money for a bus ticket home."

Tammi visualized the return ride to Kittery, her stepmother cooking turkey, her stepsister’s smug smile, the boys at school begging for a quick trip to the Fort, and the girls at school calling her the town pump.

“No.”

“Why?”

“Because this place was made for girls like me. Stop.” Tammi twisted her head.

“Where?” Sean cut off a yellow taxi and pulled over to the curb.

"Right there." Tammi pointed to a poster GIRLS WANTED underneath a blinking neon marquee.

“You can’t be serious.”

“Dead serious.” She pulled up on the door handle.

“This is wrong." The slender brunette was the same age as his youngest sister. "If it was so wrong, you'd be crying, hippie boy, besides I’ve heard that song, "If I can make it here, then I can make it anywhere.' It had to be true for somone, so why not me?"" Tammi leaned across the seat to kiss Sean with a tenderness better suited to the end of a junior prom date.

“What if they don’t give you a job?” Sean doubted that she had valid ID.

“Oh, they’ll give me a job.” Tammi smiled with the wanton pleasure of being who she wanted to be.

The teenager popped out of the car and clomped to the DOLLHOUSE in her one high heel. The brutish bouncer stopped Tammi, then she reached into her jacket and produce what seemed to be an ID, then danced a seductive Watusi as an audition. Ten seconds later the bouncer waved the teenager inside the Playpen. Her disappearance was too fast for his tastes and Sean opened the door to rescue her from the naked truth of Times Square.

A uniformed cop rapped his billyclub on the hood.

“Shut the door and move it. This is a no parking zone.”

"My friend went into the Dollhouse."

"Then she ain't comin' out any time soon." The scruffy cop shut the door with a shove. "You want to wait. Stick this shitbox into a parking lot."

"Yes, officer." Sean was angered at his inability to be two places at once, but he didn’t need the cop running the plate.

His right foot stomped on the gas and the Olds weaved out of Times Square with the big V8 begging for speed. The car might not have been owned by Sean, street maintenance was a low priority on the impoverished city administration’s agenda and 7th Avenue’ rutted surface challenged the Olds’ suspension to the limit.

At 34th Street the chrome bumper narrowly missed a bum’s shopping cart. At 23rd the under chassis once more blistered steel on a bump topped by a manhole and a meteor shower of sparks sprayed against the ragged asphalt. Sean turned west on 14th Street. By 8th Avenue the sidewalks were devoid of foot traffic. The lights were with him, as the tires rattled over unpaved cobblestones of the Meat Market.

The Olds turned south under the West Side Highway following the train track for a few blocks before crossing West Street. Sean braked hard to halt the Olds before the lip of the Hudson River embankment.

The headlights lit the first hundred yards of the black trough of water separating New York from the rest of America. Sean shoved the column shift into Park and turned off the engine without taking the keys. Stepping out of the car he zipped up his jacket and pulled a screwdriver from his pocket. Sean scanned the street.

The smell of Old’s burnt rubber mixed with the rank tidal water and a block north shadowy men wandered into a twisted metal pier. Cheri had explained that homosexual trespassers used the fire-scorched warehouse for shadowy orgies. Sexual outlaws were no threat to him.

He crouched behind the Olds and unscrew to the license plates, then repeated the process with the one on the front bumper, then tossing both into the river. A Checker taxi passed him. The driver didn’t even bother to look at him. This time of night there were no good reason to stop on this side of West Street and Sean grabbed his canvas bag from the rear of the Olds. He glanced across the street to the third-floor of the Terminal Hotel.

The corner room’s lights were out. Cheri had to be home by now. The waitress finished work at 2. Sean hefted the bag over his shoulder and smiled to himself, thinking about her naked in bed.

A new life awaited him and Sean eagerly climbed the Terminal Hotel’s crumbling steps, nearly knocking over a bottle of NightTrain shared by two winos. Their garbled curses barely grazed his ears, as he entered the musty lobby. No one alive had seen this establishment’s heyday and Sean vowed to move someplace better tomorrow.

"I'm here for Cheri." He rapped on the counter to wake the sleeping desk clerk’ attention and looked at keys on the wall. #301 was there.

“Cheri?” The wiry clerk scratched his unshaven jaw.

“She’s in room 301.” Sean dropped his bag on the floor. It had gotten heavy on the walk from the Olds.

“You mean she was in 301.” The clerk grinned without showing his teeth. Life had a funny way of not working out according to plans at the Terminal Hotel.

“What you mean ‘was’?” He shook his head in disbelief.

"Like past tense ‘was and now is not’."

"I was supposed to meet her." The old man had to be lying about her checking out.

"Hey, women change their minds." The clerk pretended to examine the ledger. “You musta missed her by three hours. Tough break.”

"Where'd she go?" Sean glanced over to a young blonde man in a leather jacket. He was paying too much attention to this conversation and Sean resisted telling him to mind his own business. This was not his city.

"She said Paris.” The clerk glanced overhead. “Plane’s probably halfway across the Atlantic by now."

"She leave a message?"

"Yer name is Sean?" The clerk grabbed a letter pinned to the wall.

"That's me." At this moment he wish that he was someone else.

"Then this is for you." The clerk suppressed a grin. “I read it earlier. You want me to tell you what it says.”

“No.” Sean dropped his bag and devoured the four sentences hoping to read a comforting explanation, instead Cheri had written that she was going to Paris to study art at the Sorbonne. There was no mention of ‘them’ or when she might returned. The last sunbeam in his solar system was sucked into a black hole with no promise of a dawn on the horizon.

"Bad news, kid?" asked the clerk fighting back a grin.

Sean shook his head and left the lobby with his bag over his shoulder. On the steps he released the letter and the night wind seized the page before it hit the sidewalk. Across West Street was a black river and he stumbled forward into the night.

Two seconds later Johnny Darling bent over to pick up the discarded letter from the sidewalk. He read the four lines in less than two seconds. Cheri’s words were as deadly as a script of a snuff film and the guitarist stuffed the sheet of paper into his pocket before trailing the hippie down the sidewalk.

Plenty of men left the Terminal Hotel blanketed by a similar despair. More than a few ended up in the river.

When Cheri's rejected lover reached the other side of the West Side Highway and punched the hood of a dented Chevy Vega with New Jersey plates. The metal buckled under his fists and Johnny shouted, "Go easy on that car. It’s already been knocked out."

“Get the fuck away from me.” The hippie lashed out a quick right.

“Slow down, Sean, I'm not trying to fuck with you." Johnny sidestepped the roundhouse swing and lifted his hands to demonstrate his harmlessness.

"Who the hell are you?" Sean snarled at the intruder to his fury with red murder in his eyes.

"I'm Johnny. I live at the Terminal.” Johnny didn't need a broken nose and wisely kept his distance from the hippie.

“And?” Sean pushed his hair out of his face.

“Cheri was my friend and I'm sorry to tell you that you’re not the first guy whose heart she broken. She had this hillbilly boyfriend from West Virginia named Bix. I think he was studying math at the New School. Anyway they went out for a year, but Cheri never kissed Bix. Not once. After she deserted him, Bix moved in a cave in Central Park, mumbling numbers like a bingo announcer. His parents finally committed him to a mental hospital”

“I’m not Bix,” Sean had heard a different version from Cheri.

“I'm not saying that you are, but Cheri had a little problem of letting men confused lust for love and men had an even bigger problem with her small problem.” Johnny intuitively recognized how the hippie brutal features might have appealed to Cheri, who balanced deep-seeded sexual masochism with a dangerous streak of mental sadism. “You know she talked about you?"

"What she say?" Sean demanded with the desperation of a drowning man swimming to a sinking raft.

“She said you were from Boston, wrote poetry, and stole cars. That you?" "Yeah." Sean nodded with a heavy head. "She say why she left New York?"

"The hotel clerk said she was spooked.”

“Spooked?”

“Love scares people.”

"Damnit." Sean had believed his own lies and punched the car again and again.

"Stop it, breaking your hands won’t bring her back." Johnny hauled the hippie way from the Chevy. The owner was probably in the pier fucking a complete stranger.

"Oh, yeah, watch this." Sean shrugged off Johnny and smashed a window with a left hook.

"Suit yourself, but it's not easy eating pizza with a busted hand."

"You think I want pizza." The hippie lifted his bleeding knuckles.

"Not tonight, but maybe tomorrow." No city had better pizza than New York.

"Fuck pizza today and tomorrow."

"ou”re only saying that because you can't see tomorrow." Cheri's lover was primed for the taking and Johnny unreeled his pitch with the glib ease of a carnival barker shilling a Kewpie doll to a ten year-old girl’s father. "You have two choices.”

“Two?” Sean hadn't thought that he had any.

>“One, go back to Boston.”

"Impossible. I burnt all my bridges back there.” Sean understood Tammi’s decision better now.

"Tough walking across a burnt bridge, so choice number two is stay here.”

Sean surveyed the grimy belly of the West Side Highway. Water dripped from the steel girders and rats scurried along the struts supporting the roadway. He gasped for breath. The air smelled of rotten meat. This city was rotten to the core and he said, "I came here to be with Cheri and now she's gone."

"So if you go, where will you go."

"I don't know."

Johnny sensed the wavering of of his indecision and said, “You can always leave tomorrow.”

“Tomorrow?”

“Leave today, leave tomorrow. No one is stopping you. Do what you want. It’s your life.”

Sean took a deep breath. Driving a stolen car was a bad idea. He needed sleep and picked up his bag. "I'll stay the night. Tomorrow I'll figure out tomorrow."

"Now you're thinking. Let's get you a room." Johnny accompanied Sean across West Street at a slow pace. "Once you're settled, we can eat. How's that sound?"

"I'm not hungry." This evening was unfolding as a scene cut from MIDNIGHT COWBOY with him as Cowboy and Johnny cast in the role of Ratso. This deja vu worsened inside the Terminal Hotel, where the wizened clerk smiled, as if he had expected to see Sean again.

"So Sean, yer wanna a room? 301 is available. It even had a view."

"I know it." Sean slapped a twenty and signed the register.

"That's right." Ernie wasn't worried the hippie might try something stupid, then again stupidity was how most people ended up at the Terminal Hotel and he slid the key across the desk. "Enjoy yer stay, Mr. Coll."

"C'mon, I'll be your bellhop." Johnny lifted the canvas bag and climbed the stairs to the third floor maintaining a constant banter to prevent Sean from rethinking a hasty decision. “Most tourists visit New York for the Statue of Liberty and the Empire State Building. I’ve lived here most of my life and I haven’t been to any tourist places, because I’m into music and not concert rock, but clubs and bars. You know what you need. Some music to soothe your soul."

"I don't think so."

"Too bad, because Max's and CBGB's offer four bands a night." Johnny stopped before Cheri's old room."

"I said I'm not interested." Sean stared at the door.

"Okay, okay, I get the message, but if you need anything, knock on 301. Anything at all."

“Thanks.” Sean stepped into the room and shut the door. He ignored the cracked walls, the dangling flypaper, and the nude painting on the wall, because a faint fragrance belonging to Cheri lingered in her absence.

She should be in this room with him.

Only last weekend they had lay in bed naked. She had said that she would be waiting. He wasn’t supposed to be alone now.

Sean went to the window and tried to open it. The management had nailed it shut and he took a step back to a running start only to hear Johnny ask, "Did Cheri's leaving hurt that much."

Sean saying nothing said everything. Johnny wasn’t letting Cheri's jilted lover jump through the window to give EMS drivers a chance at his money and stepped into the small room.

"Listen, you'll fall in love again and sooner than you fear.”

“Fear?”

“Love is never love without the risk. I have a good idea. We should go get a drink."

"I'm not into gay bars."

“I know that, but I'm talking about CBGB's. It's not straight and it's not gay. Boston has nothing like it." "I don't know. "What there not to know?" Cheri's lover was smart to mistrust him, although anyone’s misgivings melted after a taste Johnny’s 'special' drink. “CBGB's is rock and rock, cheap drinks, loose girls, and much more.”

“Much more sounds too good to be true.”

"Perhaps it is, considering CBGBs’ is an abbreviation for country-bluegrass-blues.” Johnny had forgotten the meaning of the OMFUG on the awning.

“Country?” Sean remembered Tammi singing along with Dolly Parton. She was dancing naked in Times Square. He should have taken up her offer of sharing a room. “I don’t care for country.”

“No one plays country at CBGBs.” Not since punk took over the stage.

"Is it far?" He wiped his bloodied hands with a soiled towel.

"Less than ten minutes away.” Tonight was working out with his first meeting Charles and now Sean. He had given the first a miss, but there was no way the hippie wasn't paying for his introduction to New York. “You'll love CBGBs. Trust me."

"Okay."

Two minutes later the two young men left the hotel. A taxi stopped for them on Jane Street. Johnny gave the driver an address on Bowery. It was a little after 3am and he had one more job to do before he could sleep for the night, until then there was no rest for the wicked.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 5


"It’s your story, Benny. You tell it." Sal Cucci scanned the tables in the Italian restaurant on 114th Street for unfamiliar faces and nodded to the squat forty-year old whose face was bracketed by coke-bottle glasses. Benny Bottles bowed in deference to his Gucci-dressed capo. "Two years ago I'm in Hell's Kitchen, puttin' muscle on a Jew pimp shortin’ us protection on a couple of skank parlors. The Yid forks over a G, sayin’ there’s ‘nother envelope at a massage parlor. I left thinkin’ that was too easy, and on 43rd Street four Westie bastards ask fer a light." Bilingual profanities circled the table and Benny Bottles emptied his glass of Chianti. "I tell the potato-eaters to get out of my way. Their steppin’ away shoulda warned they wuz trouble, cuz them stunata Mick bastards ain’t scared of shit. Anyway I hear a hammer bein’ cocked and sez, "Benny, you’re dead."

Benny’s eyes floated behind his smudged glasses like hard-boiled eggs in a jar. “Four shots. Pop, pop, pop, pop. I fall to the ground and one aims the .22 at my head. I shut my eyes, hear another pop, and they walk away laughin'. Only I wuzn't dead, cuz not one of the five shots penetrated my thick skull."

"No fuckin’ way.” The man to the right had heard the story a dozen times and loved Benny’s lifting his sweep-over to reveal several scars puckering his scalp.

“Would I be here, if I wuz lyin’?” The massive shylock knocked on his skull to produce a hollow thud. “Naw, the sciafozas musta been usin' old bullets, cuz they skipped around my head. At the hospital the doctors wanna study me. I ain’t no freak show and left with my head wrapped in a turban. You shoulda seen them Mick bastards' faces in the Shamrock Bar. I stick my biscuit in the shooter’s face and say, "Shoulda used a .45. Catch."

The four men pounded the table laughing and one asked, "And the others?"

"They're Irish, right?"

"Yeah, so?"

"So I kneecapped the IRA fuckin' leprechauns and the Yid, well, he’s sleepin’ good these days.” Benny jiggled a dance in his chair and the other three men saluted his deadly wit with raised glasses.

Their boss caught an unperceivable movement of the restaurant owner’s head and it wasn’t to the time of George Benson’s MASQUERADE on the stereo. Sal Cucci stood silently and the others partially rose to their feet. He motioned them to sit. "Order another bottle of wine. I'll be right back"

Sal Cucci joined the owner at the front door. The dapper restaurateur had dealt with gangsters throughout his adult life and understood the less said the better. "A young man is waiting to speak with you. Should I tell him to leave?"

"Naw, it's okay" Sal thanked the restaurant owner, who led a party of Queens politicians to a corner table. The thickset gangster signaled for Benny. The legbreaker shambled to the front and Sal drew back the curtain.

“Bet the little shit gonna beg for his lamest friend’s life.” Benny pointed to the young man leaning against the Lincoln.

“Yeah.” Sal kept it simple with Benny Bottles. “Watch my back.”

The gangster stepped onto the sidewalk. A trio of young Negroes rounded the corner, their eyes gleaming with hatred. Harlem had enough problems without pissing off the Mob and they disappeared into the night. Sal cautiously approached Bobby Vacca and asked, "How you find me?"

"You eat here every Tuesday nights.”

"Don’t pay so much attention to other people’s doin'. Where's the fagala?"

"He's home." 250 mm of Seconal had buried Charles Ames III under silk covers.

“Sleeping.”

"You’re supposed to stay with him." Sal yanked up his pants, wishing Gucci had designed them with a belt.

"I watch ‘Chuckie’ wake at noon, read the paper, have his therapy, and everything else, but shit. I drive him around the city. Here, there, and everywhere. And he stays in the car. He never gets out. Well, once at this sex club with his sister for a half-hour and another time to have dinner with his father at a hotel.” Bobby surveyed the overhang of the gangster's belly. Sal Cucci was soft. Vulnerable. “In three months nothing's happened."

“You gonna stay at that job, till I say ‘quit’ and why?” Sal Cucci poked the younger man’s chest. “You clipped a bunch of banks widout my say-so.”

“I didn’t see your name on them.” Each of the fourteen robberies had been trouble-free; no partners, no snitches, and no one dipping into his score.

“Funny gets even funnier when I see you pull a job. Funny why? Because I wouldn’t have seen you, if I didn’t stop for a slice of pizza.”

“Secrets don’t stay secrets too long in Brooklyn.”

“So I sez what am I gonna do with you? Benny wanted to put an X on you, I said no. I admired you goin’ into a bank with a piece of tape to your nose and a note sayin’

"Gimme money or I kill you." Plus you had the balls to hit three banks on the 7th Avenue within an hour.”

"Once the cops responded to the first robbery call, the next two were mine for the taking."

“And that’s why I let you live. Cuz you were smart. Now you’re stupid to leave Chuckie Ames III alone."

The kid was too smart for his tastes and Sal swung an open palm at Bobby’s head to teach him some respect, except the young man blocked the disciplinary blow. The young man backed away with raised hands.

“I left him because I had something to tell you.” Driving Charles Ames III had cured any fears outside of boredom. "Chuckie met this hustler.”

“Who?” No one had stopped Sal’s punch in years.

"Two weeks ago he starts watching this arichone in Times Square.” Bobby had been amused by the hustler’s screwing with the police and taking off the public with a combination of cunning, luck, and timing. “Tonight after the punk rolls a drunk, Charles invites him into the car."

"You expect less from an iarrusu?"

"His walking funny don’t make him a fag." Bobby defended the millionaire. "Anyway this hustler closes the window between the front and back seats. It doesn’t matter, because I had bored several holes through the glass. I heard every word of their conversation."

"And?" As much as he hated Bobby Vacca for stopping his slap, Sal listened with peaked
interest, because the wannabe had ambition and ambition led to money.

"They're forming a rock band."

"You mean like the BeeGees?" Sal liked light rock. So did his goumada, when they were making love. His wife on the other hand only appreciated Dean Martin and thought Frank Sinatra was a gavone. He didn’t know nothing.

“No, a little more rock.”

“Peter Frampton?” He had fenced a hot truckload of his LPs to a midtown chain.

“Music you and I have never heard about before. Punk.”

“Punk?” The word had a special meaning in prison. Someone who took it from another man. On the street the word meant someone who was nothing. Sal would have killed anyone calling him a punk. "You seen this fag before?"

"He’s a grifter." Bobby snatched at a snowflake and it melted in his hand. “No threat, but he gave me an idea how to scam Chuckie.

"Yeah, how?" The Ames fortune was real money. Seven-figure plus. Sal wanted it all, but would settle for a piece.

“A kidnapping.”

“Kidnappin’ is a mug’s game.”

"It’s a mug's game been in my family for generations." His grandfather had eloped with his grandmother. She was only sixteen. After three weeks her family had consented to their marriage and they had lived happily ever after. “We nab the victim. I act the hero. Our crew the villain. Comes time for the pay-off, they give me the money and I switch it for a bag filled with newspapers. I whack the fall guy and the cops connect his disappearance to the kidnapping. End of story.”

“Who’s the fall guy?”

“The hustler.”

"And why would they give you the money?"

"Cause the rich kid trusts me."

“Why would he trust you?”

“Because he doesn’t have a choice. It’s me or no one. He doesn’t know anyone else.”

"If you grab him, how can he give you the cash?" ‘Gucci Cucci’ picked at the obvious hole in the plan.

"We're grabbing his sister." The simplicity of this switch was its beauty.

"The nympho sister?”

"She's no nympho only a little loose," Bobby’s own embellishments on Caroline Ames' trysts at the Flamingo or Sahara clubs were to blame for ‘Gucci’ Cucci's claim.

"Goin' home with two girls one night and two guys the next.” Sal Cucci believed the sanctity of marriage. His monthly tithes to the Church helped smooth over his more grievous acts with God. “That's more than a little loose."

"Her sexual habits are unimportant. Blood is blood even for the rich."

"How much you talkin’?"

"I've seen his bank statements. Read what the money other kidnappings net in Italy and the States; Frank Sinatra for his son and that Getty kid with the chopped-off ear. I figure Chuckie is good for $500,000 no sweat."

"Anyone else approaches me with this, I give it a miss.” Kidnapping was a major gamble for a twenty-three year-old, although a life prison sentence was a much better fate than Sal had in store for Bobby Vacca. “Money aside, why you doin’ this?”

“To get Benny Bottles off Louie Zip.”

“Your best buddy is into us ten large. Doesn’t pay the vig. Doesn’t call. Stays in that bunker under his mother’s house.” Sal Cucci hated men hiding behind a woman’s skirt. “He’s a dead man.”

Spring of 1966 Louie and Bobby had skipped school and ridden the A train to Rockaway Beach. The weather was warm and they swam in their underwear. The waves were huge and a shore breaker smashed Bobby to the sand. The undertow sucked him over his head. Louie rescued him with an inner tube stolen from a fat kid. Johnny owed him his life and more. It was all for them and screw anyone else, however there was only one problem.

Louie Zip was a gambling fiend and his was unlucky with sports, horses, and cards. Sure things went bust if he bet them. People actually asked his bet on the Super Bowl to bet the other way. Everyone in Bensonhurst loved him for that gift. Walking away from Louie Zip was the smart move, but they were brothers from another mother and he asked Sal, “What if I eat his marker?”

“You have $10,000?”

“No, I’ll cut you in for 30% of the kidnapping.”

“Make it 50%.”

“And Louie’s off the hook?”

“If you come up with the money from the kidnapping.” Louie Zip wasn’t leaving that basement to give them a shot at him. “No money and he’s lookin’ at serious trouble.”

“I understand.” Bobby spotted Benny Bottles’ head in the window. Favors for friends were fatal sometimes. “I could use money for a safe house and supplies.”

“How much?”

“Two thou for now.”

“Keep it away from your degenerate friend.” Sal peeled off $2000 from a fat roll.

"Thanks, Mr. Cucci, I won't let you down." Bobby had initially considered keeping ‘Gucci’ Cucci in the high weeds about this opportunity, however while the police might accuse the hustler of the crime, the veteran mobster would definitely finger him as suspect number one and extract his cut in flesh and bones.

"Thank me, when the money is in my pocket." Sal punched the young man's arm and Bobby recoiled a couple of feet. He still had his touch. "Now get to work."

"I’m on my way." Bobby acknowledged the threat by submissively hunching his shoulders.
It was a good act. His arm was aching, but he had been hit harder in his life. In his mind Sal was getting soft. Bobby sat behind the wheel of the Lincoln and nodded his head to the gangster.

Sal didn't acknowledge Bobby and remained in the street, as the black car drove south into the city. Benny Bottles exited from the restaurant. His right hand was in his pocket. He kept a Beretta there. His 45 was in the car. He stood next to Sal and pick at a tooth. It was rotten. His wife kept asking him to go to the dentist. He wasn't getting it fixed until he capped Louie Zip.

"So did the punk beg for his asshole buddy’s life?”

“He’s suckin’ up Louie’s marker.” Bobby's proposal presented no danger to him. $500,000 was a good payday. They’d kill the wannabes afterwards. It was foolproof.

“If I give Louie Zip a free-be, every stiff in Brooklyn welshes on their juice and I can’t whack a couple of thousand losers, can I?”

Sal Cucci ignored his henchman’s griping.

"You ever kidnap anyone before?"

"Naw, they always botch the pay-off.” His boss wasn’t in the habit of referring to a subject without a cash payback and Benny Bottles squinted behind the thick glasses.

“Why you ask?"

"I'll explain later.” A secret was best protected by not telling it. “Jest call off your dogs.”

“That fuck.” He had been looking forward to killing Louie Zip as a Christmas gift.
Sal Cucci chopped his hand in the air for a time-out. “No one said nothin’ about you not gettin’ square with him and his asshole buddy.”

“That’s different then.”

“You bet it is.”

The promise of a postponed two-fer-one killing calmed Benny. A bullet to the head might be an unfair reward for Louie Zip and Bobby Vacca, unless you considered each pie had a limited number of slices and Sal Cucci’s appetite was just another person’s tough luck. It was simple math, if you didn’t believe in fractions.

MAYBE TOMORROW - A novel by Peter Nolan Smith Chapter 6


Night life on Bleecker Street panned out after the Village Vanguard. Sean gazed out the taxi’s window at the forlorn sidewalk grilled yellow by cruel chrome streetlights. This was how New York really looked without the eyes of love.

Three weeks ago Sean had abandoned a 1974 Cadillac DeVille by a gutted pier on the Hudson, intending as on his four previous trips to catch the next Amtrak train from Penn Station, instead he had stopped for an omelet at a West Village restaurant. When he had asked for the check, the brown-eyed waitress’ unexpectedly had propositioned him to accompany her home.

“Excuse me, I don’t think I heard you right.” Only one woman on Boston had spoken so openly and Linda had walked out of his life five years ago.

"Don’t take it the wrong way, I’m an artist and you have a face I’d like to paint.” The brunette tilted her head, as if to study him for another angle.

”Oh.” He hadn’t been with a woman for months and stupidly asked, “Why?”

“Has anyone ever said that you looked like an angel under candlelight?”

Sean shook his head. No one had ever said that he looked like anyone or anything and he imagined himself to be one of a kind. With the world population at nearly

“Good, I was hoping that.” The brunette posed, as if her slender body was treasured by other men. “My name’s Cheri and my shift ends at midnight, which is only a few minutes from now.”

”I haven’t said ‘yes.” The waitress was the exact opposite of a Playboy centerfold, but so was his taste in women.

“And there’s no way that you’re going to say no.” She stuffed his bill in her pocket, signifying the dinner was on the house. “See you outside.”

Cheri vanished into the kitchen and Sean left the restaurant to stand on the sidewalk. A nearby church bell rang out the midnight hour and Sean zipped up his leather jacket against the cold. Christopher Street was swarming with men barhopping in search of other men, although most of the gay disregarded the long-haired stranger in favor of trimly bearded gays in denim jean jackets and work boots.

Five minutes passed and he peered through the restaurant’s front window.

A fat blonde was taking orders.

Sean questioned whether Cheri might have changed her mind and he debated whether to stay or catch the 1:10am train to Boston. If she didn’t show at the end of a count to a hundred, he would leave for Penn Station.

At 59 Cheri appeared from the alley, buttoning her pea coat and tugging on a beret to transforming her into a French art student.

“We can walk to my place. It’s not far.”

”Okay.”

They strolled through the maze of streets in conversation.

Cheri was studying art and came from Pennsylvania.

Sean told her about stealing cars and he recited his poem about a cowboy named Lucky. Cheri laughed at the end and pulled him up at a set of stairs to the Terminal Hotel.

“Home sweet home.”

“Here?” The hotel was in the final stages of a long descent from respectability. “I know it’s not the Plaza, but the view from my room is very Edward Hopper,” she said, entering the shabby lobby.

The clerk ignored their entrance and they took the stairs, since the elevator was broken.

”Climbing three flights a couple of times a day is good exercise.” She lifted her skirt to reveal well-formed legs.

On the third floor Cheri led him to the end of the corridor and took out a key to open the door to # 301. The small room had a bed, a night table, and a closet filled with clothing, shoes, and boxes. Paint tubes, canvases, and an easel stood between two windows.

”I know it’s not much, but it’s in Manhattan and take a look at my view.” Cheri drew back one curtain.

She hadn’t been lying about the view.

The hotel room overlooked the elevated West Side Highway, the Hudson River, and the far shore of New Jersey.

”But I didn’t ask you here for the view. Off with your clothes.”

”My clothes?”

”Yes, I want to paint you in the nude.” Cheri undressed him and examined his muscles like a medical student prepping a cadaver for an autopsy. He tried to tear off her clothing and she pushed him away, saying , “Slow down, there’s plenty of time for that after I paint you. How good are you at standing still?”

”I don’t know.” His hands were cupped over his erection, for the lust in his blood was one match away from arson.

”I guess we’ll have to find out and one more thing. Angels aren’t shy about their body.” Cheri posed him against the wall and squeezed little mounds of paint on a splattered easel. She turned to the wall with a thick pencil in her hand and ordered, “Don’t move. I’ll try and do this as fast as possible.”

"You’re doing a mural?” He remembered reading that Michaelangelo had spent years on the Sistine Chapel.

”I don’t have a spare canvas. Artists work with what’s at hand.” Cheri was already sketching his body on the buckled wall. Within a minute he recognized his body and within three his face was taking form. She was better than good.

“In my grandmother’s house there was a bedroom with a mural of a harbor in Maine. I loved sleeping in that bedroom.”

“That’s nice.” Cheri hardly lifted her head from sketching his body. Her concentration excluded any dialogue and Sean fought to keep from shifting his body, as she spread splotches of paint over the wall. Finally the oil fumes overcame him with drowsiness blind to her laying down the brushes or stripping off her clothes. He woke with his entry inside her.

She hadn’t been lying about their having plenty of time, for the next two days blurred into pornographic positions separated by his monologues on New England; the Quincy Quarries, fried clams, his best friend drowning in Lake Sebago in 1960, losing his virginity along the banks of the Presumpscot River at age 13, the Red Sox’s 6th game against the Cincinnati Reds, and seeing James Brown at Boston Garden the night of Martin Luther King’s murder.

Cheri spoke little about herself while painting and even less before, during, and after their couplings, although she said that her last boyfriend had gone mad, because he had loved her too much.

“How much was too much?”

"I don’t know, you’d have to asked Bix.”

On Sunday night Sean boarded the last car of the train to Boston. His base intuition warned that if he said a single word about his feelings, Cheri would vanish into Manhattan. Instead he asked, “Are you free next weekend? It’s Thanksgiving.”

“I work Friday and Saturday nights,” Cheri replied with an evasive hesitancy.

“That’s fine. I can wander around the Village, until you get off work.”

The train lurched into motion and Sean waved good-bye. Her sullen departure acted as no deterrent to his proposed rendezvous and he telephoned two days later to announce,“I’m moving to Manhattan.”

Her silence bridged several seconds.

“Can’t you wait a week or two?”

“I quit my teaching job.” 1984 had arrived eight years early at South Boston High School. State Troopers in the hallways, classrooms, and dining areas futilely guarded against any racial violence between the whites from Southie and the blacks from Roxbury. An intense hatred had ignited the city and Sean feared catching the plague. “If I stay here any longer, I’ll die. I’ll be there Wednesday night.”

“I’ll be waiting.” She had understood nothing could prevent his arrival and tonight she had fled before he could trapped her in New York.

There was no reason for him to stay in this city another day beyond tomorrow and he turned to Johnny. “Are we there yet?” 


“Almost.” Johnny slapped on the plastic divider. “Stop on Mulberry.”

The taxi driver braked next to a scrawny tree and his two passengers got out of the Checker. Three derelicts stood around an oily fire and Sean asked suspiciously, "Why we getting out?"

"I thought a walk would help you get a feel for the city." Johnny paid the driver and stepped onto the sidewalk.

“It looks more like purgatory.” Sean’s only heaven on Earth would be standing atop the Eiffel Tower with Cheri.

“You’ll get used to it.” Johnny secretively shifted the knife in the small of his back, as they passed a cluster of cardboard shacks sheltering shivering bodies.

“I won’t be here long enough.” Sean envied the derelicts’ sleep and toyed with walking back to the hotel. It might be haunted by Cheri, but at least the bed was warm. "You said CBGBs was close."

"And I was telling the truth. This is other end of Bleecker Street from where Bob Dylan performed in the Sixties and it wasn’t cool then and it isn’t now.”

An old man in rags lurched from a shallow doorway to verify Johnny's statement and stuck out a palm roadmapped with crevices and scars.

"Got a dime to spare an old wino?"

“Sure, Pops.” Johnny seered the lines of the old drunk’s lost past and short future. $5 shocked the red-faced alcoholic, who gasped, "God bless you, young man."

"Have a good drunk on me.”

”Only if I hurry.” The old man wobbled across the silent street into the abyss of shadows. The derelict bar on the corner of Houston and the Bowery charged twenty-five cents for a shot of bottom shelf whiskey. Its closing hours were determined by the last dollar left in the bar.

”That was a generous donation.” Sean gave bums his spare change.

"I hope someone might do the same for me, if I ever that low.” Johnny motioned for them to continue walking down the sidewalk.

"You have a long way before you hit the bottom."

"A car hits me and I'm an old man before my time." Johnny had witnessed the city’s mercilessness too many times to believe in the survival of the fittest.

“I’m lucky with cars.” Earlier this evening Sean’s destiny had scrapped bunkers with death on a Connecticut highway and he reflected on the old superstition that bad luck comes in threes. The car chase had been the first, Cheri's desertion had to be # 2 number one and meeting Johnny could well be number three. “That’s a plus for a car thief.” Johnny stopped at a wide avenue. “I’ve been here before.” Sean declared to his own surprise.

"You been to the Bowery?" No one accidentally visited on a boulevard renowned for its flophouses, drunks, and broken dreams.

"I came with my family to New York in the early Sixties.” His father had taken them to the Empire State Building, the Rockettes, a steak dinner at Tad’s, and St. Patrick’s Cathedral. “We were driving back from the Staten Island Ferry and I saw a man lying in the street and asked my father, if he was dead. He said that the man was a Bowery drunk."

“Those old boozers are tougher than an old dog's paws and so are punks.” Johnny nodded across the avenue to the leather-jacketed crowd underneath a white awning emblazoned with the letters CBGBs. The Palace Hotel next door was a close relative to the Terminal Hotel and Sean glared at his new acquaintance with a twinge of disappointment. “This is it?”

"What’s outside had nothing to do with what’s inside.” The hippie’s disapproval intensified Johnny’s impatience to rip him off and he leapt off the curb to dart through a surge of speeding cars and taxis. "Last one across the street buys the first round."

A rattling Checker bore down on Johnny and Sean braced for the soft crunch of steel into a body, except the thin blonde gracefully vaulted across the hood onto the traffic island and dodged two newspaper trucks to safely reach the opposite sidewalk. He shouted, “I’ll take a Wild Turkey.”

Johnny had challenged death twice in two seconds, but Sean’s mother had cautioned him to walk the other way from any menace to life and limb. He would still be living in the suburbs, if he had followed her instructions, so crossed the Bowery to find Johnny arguing with two men carrying guitars.

"You use the drugs, you have to pay.”

"I owe you nuttin’," sniveled a crow-haired guitarist, resembling Keith Richard, if the lead guitarist had died instead of Brian Jones.

His pointy rat boots, straight-legged black Levi's, a stained tuxedo jacket, and a skinny tie knotted loosely on the collar of a rumpled shirt were the fashionable antithesis to Sean’s Frye boots and plaid shirt. The loiterers on the sidewalk were similarly attired in leather jackets or narrow lapel jackets. Sean felt out of place and even more so after Johnny seized the zombie's guitar.

"Where’s my $50."

"Hey, I gotta be at Max's in thirty minutes." The rocker feebly wrestled for the guitar and Johnny shoved him into a pile of garbage.

"Give me the money and I’ll give you the guitar."

The onlookers hooted, as if this was a long-running sit-com, and the rocker offered shrilly, "I'll give you the fifty at Max’s."

"And wait in line with the other twenty junkies you stiffed today?” The fifty was more useful in Johnny’s pocket than the junkie’s vein. “Fifty or no guitar."

"Okay, okay." The skeletal musician unhappily forfeited a crumble of bills. "Now gimme my guitar."

"Been a pleasure doing business." Johnny released the guitar and the junkie rocker rambled up the Bowery. The thin blonde pocketed the cash and turned to Sean. “This ain’t Kansas or the Emerald City. Trusting no one's the first rule of this city and the second is always obey the first."

A taxi stopped at the curb and the back door opened for a bleached blonde in a miniskirt, ripped fishnet stockings, and gleaming black high heels straight out of fetish stroke book. Standing on the sidewalk the milk-white dominatrix sneered with crooked teeth, "You have a problem with your eyes, caveman?"

Sean stammered, "I haven't seen anyone dress like you before."

"You sayin' I'm a whore?" She flashed a rack of sharp fingernails at Sean’s face.

"Sheila, this is my country bumpkin cousin, so cut him a break." Johnny stepped between them.

"This is related to you?" The blonde’s laugh sounded like her first of the night.

"Can't you see the resemblance, Sheila?” Johnny leaned over to Sean’s face.

"I get it. You're country cousins." The blonde dominatrix blew the bewildered hippie a kiss and entered the club with a sadistic swagger. When the door shut, Sean asked, "Why she dress so slutty, if she isn’t asking me to look?"

"The girls at CBGBs wear slutty clothing, because they are whores or stripers, who might break your teeth or ask you home for a fuck. I’ll let find out for yourself which is worse.” Johnny opened the thick door and Sean's eardrums buckled under a sub-sonic boom. The last band he had heard this loud was Blue Cheer and his guide shouted, "Now hold onto your wig. No more Abba. No more Bread. No more Boz Scaggs. This is the world of tomorrow today."

The pure power on the stage drew Sean forward and a stringy-haired giant in a yellow construction helmet halted his progress with a meaty hand. "Five dollars."

Sean dropped $5 before the bearded man at a desk and beelined for the front of the club, where four men in black leather jackets, torn blue jeans, sneakers, and scraggly hair performed a blindingly fasy version of CALIFORNIA SUN.

The singer resembling a wigged mantis yelled indecipherable lyrics to the frenzied audience. Each song raced to its end in less than two minutes and Sean unconditionally joined the crowd’s bopping worship of the hard-driving quartet. When the band had exhausted the audience's energy, the longhaired gnome announced their encore, "PT boat on the way to Havana."

The heaving mob surged Sean forward and he asked a mulatto teenager with a safety pin stuck in his cheek, "What’s the name of this band?"

"The Ramones." The pimply kid rolled his eyes at Sean’s ignorance.

He had never heard of them, but judging from the number of people emulating the band's get-up, this band had existed for several years.

A minute later the Ramones finished their encore and the jukebox blared a song about Chinese Rocks. Most of the audience surged to a narrow hallway behind the stage and Sean fought his way to the bar, where Johnny handed him a long-necked Bud. He drained the bottle in three gulps and ordered a Wild Turkey from a redheaded bartender wearing a skimpy tube top. He downed the shot and called for another round.

"So how great is this place?" Johnny was pleased by the wad of bills in the hippie’s hand.

”I don’t know about the place, but the Ramones reminded me of these bands; the Remains, and the Ramrods.” Sean had always been puzzled by the Surf Nantasket bands’ failure, while Three Dog Night crammed the Top Ten with covers. “They were sort of like the Ramones.”

"I know the Rockin’ Ramrods. They had this great song about the wind." Johnny preferred MR. WIND to their modest hit BRIGHT LIT BLUE SKIES. “Punk is the bastard son of Garage Rock.”

"The Ramones play here much?" The alcohol boiled in his empty stomach.

”Ever since this band Television convinced the owner to change the format from country and bluegrass on Sunday nights. They lied about performing original Bluegrass music, but drew about fifty people paying a buck and this record producer named Marty Thau talked the owner into letting other local bands playing at the bar. Soon you had Patti Smith, the Heartbreakers, Richard Hell, the Dictators, the Shirts, dBs, and Mink DeVille. Max’s Kansas City joined the act and over in England there’s the Damned, Clash, Stranglers, and Sex Pistols. LA and Frisco are starting scenes. France has Plastic Bertrand. Course the radio won’t air punk, because the record companies force the kids to listen to shit.”

"Like Foreigner and Yes." The Ramrods had failed for the same reason. "On the way here the radio played only one real song." "I ALMOST CUT MY HAIR?" Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young were the Kingston Trio of Soft Rock.

"No, ROADRUNNER."

"The Modern Lovers?" Johnny nodded to a chubby bearded A&R man from Satellite Records. Nick Arcc was a piece of work, but was also well connected with a number of record labels. "

“I saw them play on the Cambridge Commons.”

“Who else you see?”

Sean didn’t get a chance to reply, because two teenage girls in pink polyester dresses kissed Johnny and then squealed with delight, "We loved you in THE MAN WHO FELL TO EARTH. Can we have your autograph?"

“Sure, darling.” Johnny faked an English accent and scrawled a name on a paper napkin. The two girls swooned away and he explained, "They mistook me for David Bowie and who am I to destroy the illusion? You’ve heard of David Bowie, right?”

"Sure.” Seeing Sha-na-na instead of Ziggy Stardust was a secret mothballed in the closet with other embarrassing skeletons. Only Linda knew the truth.

"So you still in a hurry to leave town?" Johnny sipped at his whiskey.

"might hang around a little longer." Sean's eyes followed the sashay of a wild-maned blonde in a rubber dress and Johnny warned, "Heel, boy, that's Dove tonight. Tomorrow morning he's Dave."

"She walks like a woman and talks like a man, Lola, La-La-La-Lola." Sean quoted the infamous Kinks song, rubbing his forehead. The graffiti-marred mural on the opposite wall was wavering into a fuzzy abstract painting and his tongue had been thickened with glue.

”Are you alright?” Johnny asked with a grin, for the two Quaaludes in the first beer were hitting home.

"I’m fine.” Sean couldn’t feel his fingers. “You know the MC5 played at my high school and so did the Stooges. I saw the New York Dolls in Cambridge. They were junkies.”

“Something wrong with that?”

“They tend to fall off the stage.” Sean wavered against the bar and Johnny asked with mock interest, "You play in a band before?"

"Me and my friends had a band." The Hung had three gigs in the summer of 1968. Their final show had ignited a riot and his subsequent arrest had terminated his rock star career. “I was the bass.”

"Really?" The hippie was filled with surprises.

"I'm as good as anyone on that stage tonight." Sean’s hands clustered into a Joe Cocker cramp over an imaginary bass and several girls in beehives giggled at the drunken hippie fingering the air bass. "Man, I'm feeling a little weird."

"You need air." Johnny steered him from the club, as giant doorman in a yellow work helmet shouted, "You don't have to go home, but you can't stay here."

“What’d you do to me?” His brain was disintegrating into cold mush and Sean staggered through the front door.

“Nothing.”

“You drugged me.” Sean reached for the lapels of the leather jacket. A sharp point punctured his index finger and he yelped in pain.

"Stay still." Johnny warned, gingerly extricating a hook from the hippie's skin.

"Damn." Sean sucked at the pinpoint puncture.

"English trick. You sew fishing hooks under your collar to prevent anyone grabbing you for a head butt.” Johnny peeled down his collar. “You should be thankful I filed off the barbs."

"Try any other secret weapons and I'll kill you." The threat sloshed out of Sean.

"Calm down, I have nothing up my sleeve.” The alley behind CBGB’s was the ideal setting to rob the hippie. Johnny started for 1st Street, but was blocked by the junkie guitarist and three New Jersey bikers, who rarely visited CBGBs in compliance with the 3rd Street Hell's Angels unwritten ban on competing gangs entering their auxiliary clubhouse.

"Where you headed, queer boy?” The biggest biker stood with clenched fists at his side.

"I haven’t the time for this crap." Johnny tried to sidestep him and the biker shoved him. "Why not, fairy boy? Got a hot date?"

“With someone a little more handsome than you.” Johnny’s hand sought his shank. Sean stepped in front of him and shouted at the bikers, "Piss off?"

"Piss off?" the smaller biker demanded in disbelief.

"You deaf or stupid?” Blank anger was clearing the fog in his head. “Or both?”

"Listen to this granola hippie." The biggest biker poked Sean’s chest, figuring his size and weight lopsided any altercation in his favor. "You should have stayed on the commune. You people______"

“You people?” Sean belonged to no group.

“Go suck yogurt.” The biker shoved Sean against the wall. Hippies were the bully's natural victim and glared at Sean, "What are you going to do, you piece of shit?"

Sean had fought the Boston Police at anti-war demonstrations. Billyclubs versus baseball bats and he responded to the biker's challenge with a left jab squarely to the nose, shattering the cartilage. The biker cupped his nostrils to stem thee bleeding. Sean followed up with a knee to the groin. The biker collapsed onto the sidewalk and Sean confronted his startled friends, “You asking for it, cause I'm dealing it out."

“We’re leaving.” The bikers lifted their fallen friend to his feet. The junkie guitarist had disappeared into the night. The fight was over for Sean, until the biker mumbled, "I'll be getting you for this."

Red Halley lived in his hometown’s dump. The Korea war veteran had boxed in the ring and fought on every street in Boston. Sean sometimes gave him money for Thunderbird. Red Hally paid back the donations with pugilistic advice and had one time said that if a man says he’s out for revenge, you might as well hit them before he gets a chance to come back and get you, so Sean buried his foot into the bigger man's stomach.

”Enough is enough.” Johnny restrained Sean from sending the biker to Bellevue Hospital. As the bikers vanished onto 2nd Street, Johnny clapped Sean’s back. “You’re more a fighter than a lover.”

"You drugged me." The hippie slapped away his hand.

“It’s just the drink,“ Johnny protested to deaf ears, for the Quaaludes toppled the hippie against a pole. He hailed a passing Checker and poured his defenseless victim in the back, telling the driver their destination. "West Street."

On the ride over to the West Village he rummaged through the unconscious hippie's pockets, twice counting the money, twice putting it back. Frustrated by his conscience’s untimely arrival, he punched Sean’s arm. “Arise and shine, flower boy.”

“Huh.”

The hippie had to improve on that response, since the conclusion of his evening depended on his answering three questions and Johnny asked, "Beatles or Rolling Stones?"

“The Stones.” The Lynn Police had stopped the 1966 Rolling Stones concert at Manning Bowl with teargas. The horde of screaming girls had scared the riot squad and the Beatles were too cute for be trouble, plus his mother loved ELEANOR RIGBY.

"Doors or Velvet Underground?"

"And it was allllllright?" Sean recalled Tammi's comment about the Doors and sang off-key.

The hippie was bound to fail the clincher and Johnny asked, "David Bowie or T-Rex?"

"Bang a gong." The dead were easier to deify than the living and Johnny sighed, "Was that a guess?”

There was no answer. Sean never heard the question, for his blank gaze was fixed on a point of no return on another planet and his head lopped forward like someone had slice his spinal cord. He wasn’t a pretty sight, but then it never is when the final destination for the night is utter oblivion.